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Birthday • 1994-01-09 Gender •
Female Location • Everywhere that's anywhere... Member Since • 2007-07-17 Occupation • Student! School Sucks! Real Name • Kali Keji
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Achievements • Umm... I'm alive, I got to be on this website, I see some of the best anime because my parents are anime addics, and I have a lot of friends! Anime Fan Since • Probably when I was four or five. The first anime I've ever seen is Sailor Moon. Favorite Anime • I don't have a favorite anime for I Love Them ALL!!! Goals • To be 3 feet from a moving train!!! Just Kidding... One of my goals is to sell a award winning book. My other goal is to be a class AAA Photographer! Hobbies • Bottle collecting, watching anime, playing video games, reading manga, reading other books, writing my book, being on the computer, and hanging with my friends! Talents • All of the adults say I am good at writing, and I think I am good at photoagraphy.
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T-T ..... Yeah, I found out about life...
Yeah, life sucks!!! Ummm... It's also not fair!!! And, ummm... Yeah, my love life is ruined... And, yeah... I'm just plain screwed... There were some good things that happened, but mostly bad. Here are the things that happened in about four months... It all started in the summer. I was going over to my friend's, Dani's (ItRainsOnSaturn), house. She showed me this site, TheOtaku, and introduced me to her boyfriend, Nick (sesshomaru134.55). She told me to call him, so I did. Then he started calling me. He said he liked me and stuff, and, I don't know how, but I started to like him back. He's a freakin' girl magnet and he knows how a girl's mind works. Anyway, he hipnotized me into liking him. I wanted to tell Allissa (Unforg1ven S1ns), my best friend, about him. I three-way called them both up. She started liking him now, thinking his voice was hot, and at this moment, I was aiming for someone at school that I liked. So, I was thinking, he'll say he likes her and she'll like him back and she'll finally get a boyfriend. I was feeling happy for her, being ignorant, not knowing that I loved her (Yes, I'm gay... Or lesbian... Or bi-sexual... Whatever you call it... You got a problem with that?). Anyway, so eventually she starts to go out with Nick. Well, Nick didn't break up with Dani. So, they find out from me that their boyfriend is cheating on them (I can't keep secrets!). They start a big fight. They get over it. End of fight. Okay, now, Nick stops talking to Dani. Nick hangs out more with Allissa. Allissa gets obsessed (Witch is not a good thing. Obsession is not the same as love!). She constantly talkes about him. They both fuck him. Anyway, I started figuring out that I was jealous of Nick. I found out that I loved Allissa. Figuring this out, I ask Nick if he could get Allissa to kiss me. Well, that went good and well and she said she was gonna kiss me. Well, I couldn't stand making her do something she wouldn't want to do, so I told her that I told Nick to order her to kiss me. Well, instead of not doing it, she says that my reward for telling her is a kiss. Well, I got one all right! It was like, twenty-million, not one, and they were all deep and... And... Awsome... Anyway, the next morining, I get my heart broken. She tries to stay away from me and tells me I should get a girlfriend or a boyfriend or whatever. I thought, God, she hates me now! Well, later, she tells Nick. He dosn't believe her, yadda, yadda. He eventually does, or whatever. Then, later, Allissa says that the kiss was horrible. How do I know I'm not a good kisser? It's not my fault! This was my first kiss! And it was her's too. She said she didn't feel anything, which is horrible for a first kiss. A few weeks earlier, when she spent the night at my house, she was holding my hand, too... Anyway, she gets more obsessed with Nick and I'm more depressed than ever. School starts. The people I know seem to just hate me and I'm wanting to walk out of the closet any second. It's hard keeping a secret and I don't know what the big deal is, anyway. The 'friends' I used to have don't act the same to me. I feel like an outcast. I'm now the quiet, scary one. I hate school worse than my house, which is rare. Meanwhile, my best friend starts making friends and stuff, when she was the one who didn't have any. Then, one day, she says she hates me and stuff. She wants to ex-friend me. A bunch of other stuff that makes my heart want to explode with anger and hate and sadness. Then, like yesterday, she comes to spend the night and Dani comes over. They both talk about Nick and torture me with bananas (don't ask me how). Then, Dani's upset 'cause Nick's not talking to her anymore. Allissa's having a blast. Allissa goes home and Dani and I have a pout-fest. I now hate Nick and was really close to running away from home. The thing is, I don't have a plan... Or, one that works... Anyway, I got to saying I hate Allissa. She makes me so mad! I don't know her anymore. She's gotten so much meaner. I am now depressed more than anything I've felt in the world and I'm just hoping I could die right here and now... Or, I'm also hoping that Allissa feels sorry for me and stops going out with him. All he does is make her cry. Then, everything changes last night and today. Last night, I had one of my old dreams. One of the scary ones about an old woman cutting my brains out and stuff. Finally! Not a sexual one! One of my old, wierd dreams! I feel a lot better after this because I hate how everything has changed and miss the old stuff. Then, I go to school, and all of my friends are talking to me! They're telling me stuff! I have the best day since I met Nick! I start loving my sister again! Not to mention that I have crushes on everyone again! I think, Ahh... The good old days! I feel wonderful! And now, I'm accepting life! How wonderful! I know life isn't fair! I know life sucks! Now I know! I love my family again, and I have my old friends back! And I deal with it! And I wonder, is this all because I'm mad at Allissa? Is it all because I said I hated her? Is five years enough? Is it enough time to be friends and then stop? I just wonder sometimes... Now, I'm feeling happy, but I don't know about tomorrow... I don't know about anything. I know Allissa is gonna read this, and she's gonna either get mad at me, or feel sad for me. Or just ignore me... I don't really know what's gonna happen... And I still like her a little bit... I just need plain help. Any suggestions? Therapy maybe? Pills? I think I have ADHD, so that might help. Or do I need to just talk to someone? No one else knows about this, so I guess I should talk to my mom about it... But what does everyone else think? ^-^, It would really help if I had advice! Thanks! Comments (2) |
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Saturday, September 22, 2007
Awww!!! Soo cute!!!
Look who I adopted! You should get one too!
Name: Sasuke!
Likes: The color Blue! And Electricity! And Maybe Naruto...
Another neat quiz by the same person who made the other quiz!!! It's really cool!
Which Kingdom Hearts 2 world are you (pictures, icons, elaberate answers)
You are the Kingdom Hearts 2 world Twilight Town. Your life is fake (figuratively speaking). It always feels like your living your life through someone elses eyes. Well, in the game, you indeed are, but this is real life so I'll keep this realistic. Depression has engulfed your person once you figured out the Truth. Your life seems to be made up of lies and this upsets you. You feel lonely and far away from everyone a lot; like you don't fit in. To be honest, things don't look too good in that subject. It's so painful to live this life and sometimes you wish it would just end.Feeling: Depressed and forgottenSong title: Broken Handed and LiesColor: Black for power, mystery, death and depression.Character: RoxasTwilight Town icon: Take this quiz!
What kind of lover are you? (Beautiful anime pictures)
Your kind of love can make goddess' jealous. You're love is goddess worthy. Every day and second you're with your significant other, it feels like a dream. Both your souls are pure, at least, when you're together. You are kind to others besides your lover because you pity how their souls can be so tainted. Take this quiz!
Yay!!! One of my favorite colors is blue and my favorite animal is a fox!!!
ANIMOLOGY: What Animal Are You?
Your Result: Blue Fox
You are the blue fox! A total perfectionist and a true born leader. You can never resist a challenge! Your Soul Mate is the Yellow Trout and you loathe the Indigo Beaver.
T-T ..... Yeah, I found out about life... 
Awww!!! Soo cute!!! 
