Tuesday, November 13, 2007

   Today!!! Not like it matters...
Favorite Anime- I dunno really... I thought I would... Ugh, it's... Hmm... How about Moon Phase? I love that anime, even though I haven't seen it yet... Come on, youtube!

Favorite Manga- From Far Away!!! Best manga I have ever read!!! It must turn into an anime! I also like Cardcaptor Sakura and XXXHolic...

Favorite Music- Monster from Meg&Dia and Concrete Angel (so sad... It makes me cry every time...) from Martina. Also, given to me by my friend, Had Enough and Evil Angel by Breaking Benjamin!




Favorite Band- None in particular... Mostly foriegn bands and I like forign songs too, I just didn't want to name them all... I'm mostly lisening to O-Zone and old latin church songs from the medevil times(Well, that's the first!). Let me know if you know any more sad and depressing songs I can listen to thats forign, please! Thanks!

Favorite Hobby- Sleeping!


Gosh, I'm always so tired nowadays... I hate it, I just can't sleep at night, and I was caught sleeping during class three times today... I slept during lunch too... And I'm eating less and less, it's kinda scaring me! I'm not trying to be skinny at all! Heck, I'm already as skinny as skinny can get! But, it's really scary. I'm just not hungry anymore, and when I eat, I feel like I'm gonna throw up! I think my mental and emotional state is effecting me physical state... I feel sick all the time and stuff... Afraid of my mom... I try to get away from her because she yells at me and it makes me feel bad, so to get less sick, I stay away from her, but she usually makes me do almost all of the work, so I can't just avoid her... Gosh, I hate my life more than ever now... I think about life to much now! I think, if we are going to all die someday, then why should I go to school and get an education? Why should I keep the house clean? Would it matter later? Why does it matter? It's all gonna go away when I die, so why? Why, why, why? I'm so confused... I don't get it... I'm pissed off at the world! I feel like I hate everyone! But, then again, it feels like I love everyone! I really don't care who I love as long as I love them back... I don't care about gender anymore or anything, I just want the love I deserve... I feel so good and so bad at the same time and it makes me feel sick! I don't know what I do right or wrong! It's like, one thing I do is right and the same thing is wrong a minute later! It's so confusing! How can someone think like that? It's wierd, I don't get people! Gosh, I'm just so confused and depressed... You know what's great about me, though? I keep to myself! So, everyone out there, don't worry! I wont force my anger on you! ^-^ Anyway, I also worry a lot about love... Probably reading the romance books aren't helping... Niether is my friend... =.='' *lip saying "You! You know who I'm talking about!"* (I'm not really supposed to mention her name, so yeah...) *Sigh* I just don't know... Usually, I go to Shojen Manga in these cases, but it seems to be getting worse... Writing my stories and drawing seems to help, though... Especially attempting to make a manga called "Animal Talk"... I really suck, but it takes my mind off of my life for a while and puts me into a fantasy land... Sometimes, that gets me into trouble though, because I fall asleep and think I'm still dreaming when I wake up... I got grounded for a while because of it... I went out in the middle of the night with some friends to go into a creek... It was sweet! We saw bats! Anyway, I don't even remember half of what happened, but I got grounded... So I guess I wasn't dreaming... I dunno, I think I need help, but I'm too afraid to tell people... So, yeah, I'm a stuck little pond(as in chess)... I wish I could just hit the restart button on this one(as in a video game), but it's stuck, too... I feel so stuck... Like on a little island in the middle of the ocean! Someone, S.O.S.!!! Thats me, alright... Well, I'm done ranting on about my life, See ya!

I AM THE FIRE!!!
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