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Saturday, November 24, 2007


   Romance Novels... And Shojen Manga...
God, I'm, like, killin' myself here... Romance novels and Shojen Manga helped me before, but there isn't a thing I'm lookin' for... Yeah, my life is soo bizare, that no one would even think to make a manga outta it... What's worse, I think it's bad for me! (For those of you who don't know what Shojen is, it's like girls Manga... Ya know, like dating 'n stuff...) Reading romance books make me cry and reading Shojen makes me soo... I dunno, happy-ish sad-ish mood thingy... It's like, I get all hyper inside when I read, but then I get sad and wish my life the same way... It's wierd, I dunno... It's like, I feel happy for the person, but sad for myself at the same time... It's wierd...
Death really doesn't seem so bad at this moment... But I'm not gonna commit suicide (Thank God!). Don't have the guts really... But I wouldn't feel bad if I got ran over by a car... Ya know? I would only cry in pain, not agony... And half the people I know, I wish they were dead... My parents, for example... If they die, I ain't sheddin' one tear! My brothers and sister, on the other hand, I love very much!!! They're sooo cute!!! I would die from sadness if they died... And, really, I'm only noticing this now... Gosh, confusing, confusing world... I'm fanasizing more with manga now... Jeazus... I'm begining to be soo wierd... And my parents are wondering if I'm okay... Ha! Like they care! I can't really tell them anything, anyway... I can't tell anyone, really... They'll think I'm crazy, I think...
On the other, happy hand, I'm having wierdo dreams again! Go me! It's been, like, forever... I mean, really, now I can get on with my story! I feel soo happy! I'm also crying once more, and I think it's for normal reasons...(If you think reasons why they cry in Romance novels and Shojen Manga are normal...) Gosh, I like, never cry anymore! There's no way I'm gonna gain enough nerve to say anything to anyone, though... Well, I'm gonna be stuck single until I'm positive I can ask someone out! Lol... The reason why I can explain my problems here, though, I think, is because, 1.) I am better at expressing myself in writing, and 2.) Only three people here know me in real life! And they aren't really a problem, so yeah... Well, maybe one, but he doesn't check my site, I don't think... (I hope he doesn't...) Well, on the other hand, I don't really know him in real life, so I guess I'm good...
So, yeah, that's my life! Any suggestions? Yes? No? Maybe? I dunno? Eeek! My mom found me out! I gotta go! See ya'lls! Have fun with the last day of your Thanks Giving break!

I AM THE FIRE!!! AND I GOT CAUGHT!!! T-T

*mutters under breath* shit, shit, damnit, damnit! how could i have been so stupid? *mutter, mutter...*

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