Friday, January 26, 2007

   *yawn*
.::Current Status::.
Level: 128
Obsessing over: Hikaru and Kaoru
Listening to: Serious by Gwen Stefani
Chatting to: Fred, Will
Watching: --
Reading: --
Mood: tired, bored



Gah! D: I have PE today... NUUU! >< But its suppoused to be super cold so we might end up doing something else insted. Also, I have drama and I was suppoused to memorize some lines for a skit with 2 people in it. I didnt do that. I hope the teacher isnt to pissed off. x_X

Did I tell you guys I got all my dvds? (Death Note movie, Death Note anime, and Battle Royale) Well, the DN movie DOSENT WORK!!! I only was able to watch to the part where the guy hijacks the bus!! D:<< I have to send it back soon. Im gonna try and do that later today.

Kaira asked me if I wanted to go to a movie with her on valentines day (her b-day). But I dont think my moms gonna let me. shes all like "You dont need to go out with a girl!" and "i might need a baby sitter" and blah blah blah. She talks way to much and needs to shut the fuck up. And for all she knows; I could be bi. But according to her, theres no such thing as bi. x_X She can shove it.

My friend Nikkis b-day party is this weekend. Its gonna be fun. ^_^ I still need to get her a gift...

Me and Fred might go to the renissence fair too! Those things are fun. o: Maybe I can get some new tarrot cards or something...

I wish I could see Ryu this weekend. But I don't think he wants to hang out. :/ Better not ask.

Oh ya;; I told Brandon I was gonna go out with a girl on Valentines day, and he was like "your cheating on me!" ...it was funny n_n~

I hope I can go to JACON (an anime con) with Ryu this year. If I do, I wanna be timeskip Temari or timeskip Hinata. And, uh, other stuff you don't need to know about. XP

I need to learn now to knit so I can make the scarf for my Rikku costume! D:

I'm still obsessed with Hikaru and Kaoru! X3 ♥♥♥


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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

   Stupid.
.::Current Status::.
Level: 126
Obsessing over: Ouran High School Host Club
Listening to: Wind's Nocturne
Chatting to: Fred
Watching: --
Reading: --
Mood: annoyed



I hate guys.
At least the ones that say they like me.

"I love you";; "Will you go out with me?";; "I don't know if I want a gf but I still like you"
IN that order.

*kicks the wall* Make up your minds!!!

You can probably guess that I'm single again. I must not of liked Brandon much;; I didn't cry.;; But I do feel like an idiot.

No sushi for him.

Watch Ryu not like me anymore either...

Alie can have the sushi. ♥


That totally applies to me XP


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Monday, January 22, 2007

   Nya, nya.
.::Current Status::.
Level: 126
Obsessing over: Ouran High School Host Club
Listening to: --
Chatting to: --
Watching: Hogan Knows Best
Reading: --
Mood: restless, in denial

Hello everyone! How was your weekend? Mine was pretty good.

Friday;; Went to Davids with him, Ty, Jordan, and Kailey
Saturday;; Brandon came over. We hung out at my house for a while then went to the movies with Fred, Ian, Angelia, and Jessica
Sunday;; Nothing/cleaning

Did I say that I'm going out with Brandon? Probably. But if I didn't, I am now.

I'v decided to make Ryu sushi and onigiri for Valentines Day. Brandon too if I see him, but I don't think I will. :/

Why not cookies? ;; Cuz I refuse.
Why not chocolate? ;; Cuz I don't wanna learn how to make it.

I asked Fred what went in good sushi. We came up with...nori, rice, some kind of fish thing, cucumber, cream cheese. Am I missing anything?

I have a new obsession with Host Club. I ♥ Hikaru&Kaoru

How many days till spring break? [o4.o2] ;; 71
How many days till summer? [o6.o2] ;; 131


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Thursday, January 18, 2007

   Almost there
.::Current Status::.
Level: 126
Obsessing over: Bleach, bento box
Listening to: Robo Kiss by Morning Musume
Chatting to: --
Watching: --
Reading: --
Mood: a little worried;; hoping it'll be alright




Hmm...I think I need to look at the best of everything in my situation right now. Its tough though.

I think I might go out with Brandon. Ryu said he wouldn't stop loving me...I hope hes not lying. Besides, me and Brandon won't be together forever so its alright I guess. With the way Ryu talks he makes it seem like he wants to be there with me for a really long time.

But then where will I be? After both of them...

Back here.

But maybe I should stop thinking of that part. Heartbreak seems the end in everything;; always a change of it;; still trying to avoid it.

I hope I don't do anything I regret.

_________ ♥'s Motoko

me: *singing to Sara by BoA*
Brandon: Motoko has a good singing voice
me: *gets embarrassed* Thanks you. n//n
Yuki: I think Motokos voice is good too!
me: *gos back to normal* Good for you. -_-;;
[[Don't ask. We were being stupid XP ]]

I decided to try and look at the bright side of things. When it comes to situations like this I always think of the worst way it could turn out no matter what people say. I'm trying to look at the better side of the situation right now because if I dont i wont get anywhere. Right I like both guys but I really want to go out with Brandon now.

I think I will.

I hope everything turns out alright in the end.

Wish me luck.
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

   Still down.
.::Current Status::.
Level: 125
Obsessing over: Bleach
Listening to: Animal Instinct by The Cranberries
Chatting to: --
Watching: --
Reading: Bleach vol. 3
Mood: slightly depressed, stressed




I feel a little better then I did from my last post.

Ryu said that I should go out with Brandon for a while then see how I feel. He said "I'll let you go...this is the last time." Today he said "Maybe it was to early to ask you out again."

Brandon is to much like Ryu. He told me that he'd be mad at Ryu if he broke my heart.

I'm worried about who I pick. Because either way I won't be happy. I keep crying. I feel so weak.

But I'm not going out with either of them now...I guess thats good. I might ask Brandon if he wants to go out with me again.

Both of them said they didn't care who I picked and that they wanted me to be happy.

Sorry, no one probly likes reading my posts about my problems. But oh well. :/

me: *crying* It could be worse...
Brandon: It could be better.


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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

   .::Current Status::.
Level: 125
Obsessig over: Bento box
Listening to: --
Chatting to: --
Watching: Ikkoutsen vol. 3+4
Reading: Battle Royale
Mood: Worried, guilty



Ugh! I feel so horrible! This guy I know named Brandon asked me out. I told him I would think about it. Then the next day Ryu asked me out and I said yes to going out with him and today I told Brandon I would go out with him. I really like both of them and I really don't like dating two people and not being able to tell my friends who my bf is. I wanna cry right now but I can't seem to for some reason. I'm afraid that one of them or both of them will find out and hate me.

I don't know what to do.

*crys* (no, really, I'm crying)

This is the first time I'v felt guilty about something in my whole life. I hate it.


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Monday, January 8, 2007

   Oh noes! I need to post mores! D:
.::Current Status::.
Level: 120
Obsessig over: Death Note and Battle Royale
Listening to: --
Chatting to: --
Watching: Ikkoutsen vol. 1+2
Reading: Death Note vol. 9
Mood: uber happy, stressed, lazy, hungry

Hooolllaaayyy shit I need to update more! I'v been being super lazy about it. Well, I hope everyone had a good x-mas and new years! Akemashite omedetou! ^_^

Everything had been pretty good. I'v been in an exeptionaly good mood since the new year started (aside from school starting a week ago D:<<<< ) I hope you're all having fun too!

I'v bought a lot of stuff with my x-mas money! I got stuff for x-mas but nothing as great as money! ^^ Recent cool things I'v gotten are Ikkitousen dvds 1-3, Battle Royale Novel, and I''s manga vol 1. And my dad bought me the Battle Royale movie!!!! *heart*

ANNND yesterday I found out that the Death Note movie came out on dvd. I started spazzing and I'm gonna order it later today probly~~~~! *squee*

Tatsuya Fujiwara is sexy!!!

Ryu-kun has been being uber nice to me latly. I'm not sure why, but its a good thing! ^_^

And I know I have more to say but thats all I can think of now. Ja!
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Friday, December 15, 2006

   YEY!!
.::Current Status::.
Level: 115
Obsessing over: The cute pic (#2)
Listening to: --
Chatting to: --
Watching: ???
Reading: --
Mood: excited, slightly tired, unsure



Yeeeaaahhh!!! Todays the last day of school and I got out early~!! Yay! ^^ The lockin is later too! I can't wait. The lockin is where people go to my school at night and we play video games and hang out and stuff. (it soulds boreing but its not.)

-yesterday on the phone with Yuki-

Yuki: I found out what Gaaras last name is!
me: Gaara has a last name?
Yuki: Yep. Its "Sabaku"
me: Thought that meant sand..as in like... "Subaku no Gaara" and "Gaara of the Sand!"
Yuki: But thats what it said on the websites I saw!
me: We'll they're stupid!
Yuki: So Gaara dosen't have a last name??
me: How would you feel of your name was "Yuki Sand"?! And what if I was "Motoko Sand"!?



-today at school-

me: I love Draco Malfoy!!
Tia: What? What?! WHAT?! *spaz*
Alie: And she thinks hes sexy.
Tia: No hes not! Hes ugly and mean and...
Rene: BLONDIE JR.!
me: What? O.o;
Angelique: *walks over* Whos the Mouthwash guy you were just talking about??
me/Alie: Who??
Angelique: The mouthwash guy!
me: Whos the mouthwash guy??
Angelique: That you were just talking about!
me: You mean Draco?? DRACO MOUTHWASH!!
Alie/Rene: *laughing*
me: I love Draco Mouthwash!!
Tia: =_=;;

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The cute pic #2

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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

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.::Current Status::.
Level: 115
Obsessing over: The cute pic
Listening to: --
Chatting to: --
Watching: VH1
Reading: Harry Potter
Mood: depressed



Hi. I need to update more don't I?

Well, my boyfriend broke up with me again. I keep crying and it really sucks. But he said that he still cares about me and stuff. He was saying that a girlfriend impacted things to much. He wants to be able to uh...not sure how to put it, but I guess basically he wants to get a job and stuff like that. I don't know how to put it, but what ever it is, I know its going to be a long time from now, and he said that I'd be the first girl he'd want and stuff...and that I was lying to myself by saying we weren't gonna go out again. I know its true but I wish I didn't like him now.

Yes, I can say I know its going to happen. I can't explain it, but I just can.

I think we might get a new cat. There has been a cat coming around and its really friendly and its kind of skinny. We put food out for it and my mom put a collar on it. She said if the cat still has the collar a week from now then we can keep it. She also said that I get to name it. Yay.

On another note, I went shopping with Fred, Nikki, and Alie last weekend. That was pretty fun. I bought Singstar (video game) and a new pair of pants. And we went to a grossery store for some reason, and I wasted all my quaters trying to get this little Chun Li figure that was in one of the machine thingys XP


This is the cute pic! Isn't it cute?
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Wednesday, December 6, 2006

   Nyaaa~~!
.::Current Status::.
Level: 114
Obsessing over: Reading
Listening to: --
Chatting to: --
Watching: --
Reading: Strawberry Marshmallow
Mood: content


Hellllooooo everyone! Sorry I didn't get to your sites last time I posted but my homework was hard and I didn't have time too. ): BUT- Today I have noooo homework!!

Yesterday I went to Yukis house and then we went to see Hairspray!! It was sooo good! ^_^ Also, she lent me some books. She lent me Skip Beat, Daughters of the Moon vol. 2, and Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone (No, I'v never read that book O_o; )

And for english class I have to read Island of the Blue Dolphins and me and Elaina are the only two people reading the book and we each have to do a little project thing that has to do with the book. Since I draw my teacher said I should draw a scene from the book. Luckily Yuki has the book (and she lent it to be) with pretty pictures in it so I'm just gonna redraw one of them O_o;

Rikku: Ooh! you're cheating
Axel: No one cares
me: What he said!
Fuu: ...

Nyaaaa~! I got Kare-chans Christmas present. He keeps asking me to give it to him early but I won't O_o;

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at school

Kare-chan: *kisses me*
me: I'm sick you fool!!!
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Gah! I have another cold. I'm very prone to getting sick. u_U I'v only had it for a few days though and its going away. Yay.

ALSO, I went to the mall the other day and bought new pjs and manga! (Et Cetera vol. 2 and Battle Royale vol. 4) I need to buy my mom and step dad an x-mas present. Oh well. I got time.

Ja matta ne! ^_^


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