Friday, July 14, 2006

1st part sad part, 2nd part happy part. READ WHATEVER PART

Hey. I lost someone very important today. No. No one died. I lost a friend, and the love of a family member. Both is one of my step sisters. We got into the biggest argument of our little, fucking, lives. I'm not gonna sat what the argument was about. Anyway, her and I have been close our entire 3/4ths of our lives.
I met her when I was 5. Her first impression was getting stung by a bee on the first day I met her. She's allergic to them. After we were out of the emergency room. We really had a fun time talking about what we liked. Today, a part of me died. I was always used to having her around me all the time. We were each other's sidekicks. Today. We no longer speak. We have both changed so much, she decided to be mean to everyone around her and I somehow turned into a joy for everyone in my family to be around.
My step sister: Always looked up to me, always gave me piggyback rides, always went with the flow. Me: I used to be a big, little bitch that no one could stand, I even made my step dad cry, (he's a big, muscular man) Now: She doesn't want to hang out with anyone, she has a cardboard box of a boyfriend, BITCH, hates me and is very spoiled. Me: Has nothing, very content, many friends, tons of therapy, family that loves mwa, crybaby, angelic and not fat.
Today, I confessed to my step sister that I was sorry. She was in trouble for being mean and mistreating her brother and sister (and me). All she did was ignore me and glare at me when I was pouring my heart out. She didn't seem to care. My eyes started to hurt as salty tears burned down my face.
"Um... (step sister's name) I'm sorry If we had a disagreement or two these past few days. But we've gone through too much together for you to just sweep me out of your life. I'm one of the only people you have. Everyone else, you drove away and were mean to too until they don't even want to ever see you again. You're one of the closest people to me as well as I am to you. You probably don't care if I cry or how broken I would be if you are going to leave me like you left everyone else. Soon, you're not going to have anyone when you grow up. Why do you want to be that way? Since I care about you and what happens to you, I ask you one more time if you really hate me and never want to see me again."
She ignored me and I ran away.
"I want to die." I cried out under a tree by my aunt's dog. (this was today at my aunt's house) **I was also very sad and being kind of dramatic. Tiny (my aunt's Jack Russel terrier) (her dog) Licked up my tears and comforted me. To me, I thought she never really cared about me. I supposed she was just waiting to drop me like an abused child. I went in the house to Julie. She was on the couch watvhing disney channel. (the tv wasn't that important) I jumped on the couch crying and hugged her really tight and told her everything. I didn't know she was going to but she told my mom, and scott, and my step sister's other sisters and brother. They all comforted me. I didn't really want them to comfort me but they did. Now I know how one of my best friends at school felt when she feels some days like I do. *bows* I understand you now. I always did, but now (my one friend) I understand you even better. It's like, all those icons and emo sayings of "I just want to be alone and (whatever verb or feeling)" When other people are in it, it's like you don't want them to worry about you because you don't want them to worry about your own problems. That gets them worried and they could use their time for something else-it's hard to explain. Harder to type. Yeah. This iz the end of part one.


This iz A-Non-follower,
getting ready to suck it up like a big girl (that sounded so Huggies,)
signing off
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Saturday, July 8, 2006

*Ashamed for fucking around*


Well.... I fucked up. I wanted to change mi display pic. Then I went to styles and went crazy and found a random pb bg. *sigh* Now I don't feel like fixing it. I'll do it soon. I hope. In ta middle of ta night last nite, me and mi step sis heard something at our window. We thought i'twaz ta crazy man in the tree right beside our window. Around 12 o clock, Scott came in and said "GET YOUR LITTLE ASSES DOWN HERE!!" In a scary loud whispering way. We found out we weren't in trouble for staying up late or anything like that, he actually wanted to show us something. We were the only ones up too.^^ So, we go outside, Scott is holding a BIG box. He sets it down and lights it on fire and... "GET OUT OF THE WAY!!!" He screams. OMIGAWD!! I thought. He's gonna fuckin blow us up!!!! Well... rest assure you we didn't die... or did we? What came out from the box wasa Boom! Boom! Pop! Pop! Ch- icka Poppidy! Fireworks! He put the box down between our pine trees in our backyard so I was kind nervous. Heh. Tons of fireworks came out of da box! Tons! Tons! Tons! They weren't any little sparkeler type thing either! They were the illeagal fireworks!!!!!! After 5 minutes of explosion, our neighbors' lights turned on. We started running toward the house and that's when Scott said: "OH, SHIT! Lock the doors!!!" We ran into the house and locked the doors. We laughed and sat on the couch after that.^^ He said,: "Now, you two better be off to bed or we can stay up and watch Halloween." We picked staying up. He turned on the Telly Vishen and put the DVD in ta ps2. He said, "You girls wouldn't be as scared if we watched the first one." He told us briefly bout the first Halloween and put in Halloween II. I asked him nervously if there was any nudity. He said: "No^^" He ended up falling asleep around the part where the Policeman gets killeded in the hospital or around the hospital or whatever. He started snoring and we were laughing at him because it sounded like a choking rat. =D Then.... we got to the wierd hot tub part, 0_0 no nudity my ass! I got nervous. VERY NERVOUS. But, Scott was asleep so I kept staring without blinking. Jessica was watching, her eyes glued to the tv too. Heh. Jessica says: "Her boobs aren't that pretty to look at. Maybe She's around an A cup... geez! They're even shaped wierd!" Me: "That's nice Jessica." Heh, heh.~_~ So, the wierd killer that's quiet, he turned up the temp. of ta hot tub. The guy and the girl were alone at nite and both nakie and in ta hot tub were making out and all, then the guy goes out and attempts to lower tha temp outside, then, the girl gets situated, and the guy gets strangled, but there was no sound when the killer strangled him. That's probably because ya couldn't hear in or out. Then, the killer in ta mask comes in and he puts his hand on her. Me and Jessica were stupifyed. The girl doesn't look at the guy, thinking it was the other guy, she kisses his hand then... the guy strangles her and (the temp of ta hot tub was 200 dergrees)he puts her face in ta hot tub. He keeps doing it and her face keeps blistering and peeling off cause of tha hotness. She dies and ya can see when he tosses her aside when she finally stops screaming and dies, the skull through her very bubbily and blistering skin. Me and Jessica stopped the movie ans went straight uptsairs saying "Umm... we'll watch the rest in the morn!" We go upstairs and We get ready for bed. Then, I storm down and sleep in mi mom's waterbed. *Our room is really hot at nite,* **Warm air RISES, and cold air SINKS** So, I went to sleep down in there. Around 5 in ta morning, Scott kicked me out. (It's his room anyway too) So I just slept in the chair in da living room. That was mi last nite and this morning.^^

Oh, what did you do last night? If you say "Having sex" then good for you.^^ I'd really like to know. I'm kinda bored and I care! You may think I don't, but I care! *hugs you* *shoves a hard candy in yer mouth*

This iz A Non-follower,
signing off.

Here's a pic of Shin. I think he's kinda cute. So so. He's from Nana. I scanned this from a Shojo Beat.


Here's also the avatar I made this morning. It's Nana from the manga Nana. It's from mi Shojo Beat magazine too.




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Wednesday, July 5, 2006

A Truck, a Cat, a Mind, and a Way to Make the Conversation get wierd and Completely Create Silence


Hizeir!!! Um... I got a new cat. He hides under mi step brother, Blakes's bed a lot. His name iz Mic. He's supah FAT!!!!>3 Oh, when I came home from daddie's house, I saw a fat cat that mi step dad was holding. I'm like all, "What's with the fat cat!?O_O" He said it was our old cat, he just gained like, 300 friggin pounds. Yeah, Right!! *rolls eyes* I may be stupid... -_- Our old cat, Mr. Biggelsworth, happened to walk by. They were both in the same room at the same time so... it's obvious. Mom said she didn't know if we were keeping him or not. I hope we could keep him though. It so happens that his true owner couldn't keep the cat because he got married to some girl and the cat didn't like her because the cat and his owner were together since he was a liiiiiittle kitty and his wife said if the cat was gonna be like dat, then out he would go. He had to go obvoiulsly. *sigh* We can't keep him either. He keeps peeing in the bathtub and he hates our dog and other black cat. He's very nice when ya get ta know em. Yeah, if ya didn't know, my step dad drives a big semi and stuff for his job. I brought mi Naruto anime Profiles book and tagged along. I went on for 5 hours about how Zaku's arm went splodey and how much I thought Orchimaru wanted Sasuke for "something else."I was up with him till about 4. Then I got tired. I woke back up at 10 and we hung out again. We were listeng to XM Radio and we went to the biggest truck stop in da world. I got icecream @ dairy queen for breakfeast too! RIGHT ON!!! Yeah. Oh, I learned to drive a car, so, I'm drivin now. @ night only though. I'm doin pretty good, except that I keep imagining me hitting Gaara or Sasuke or Inu Yasha! *sobs* WAAAAHH!!!! ;,( I also got to drive the semi truck at 3 in da morn. It was cool and the trick is to look cockeyed when looking at da road. Heh.^^ Mi step dad woke me up at 3 in da afternoon and said I looked tired. He said he was gonna regret it but he bought me a Red Bull. Mi mom, when she finds out I drink an enrgy drink, she acts like I drank beer! Mom din't know I drank Red Bull though. Welllll.... the Red Bull did nothin except make me pee alot and make mi imaginary friends harder to see. Oh, I went back to the bed part of the semi and turned on mi CD player, when I was listening to ta dirty NIN song, I had a very easy time thinking of stuff. I put it on repeat an the second time I was listening to ta song, I thought of Orchimaru raping an innocent Genin!X-O Poor kid! I also thought if I was a ninja and I tried to use my ninjutsu and look like Gaara, I would make me look slightly differ. First, instead of the symbol love, I'd have da symbol hate. My hair would be about a cm longer than his, it would be blonde. I'd also have red eyes and a longer thing under the shirt that Gaara has it's like a shirt or somethin... I can't think of da word. >< Yeah, no big gorg for me...my secret power would be kinda gay but.... moving forward. I'd wanna be Gaara's minion. That would be so cool! I know he'd never really let me be his minion, but, it's my mind so... Gaara... you... have....noooooooo... choice. *looks evilly* Oh, mi mind is on season 132 and I'm the only viewer. YAY! Peoplesez aren't ready ta see what I thinks.^^ Um... finally... when I got back from mi daddie's house Sunday, mi step dad wasn't around and mi and mi mum were eating supper. I was telling her about the Inu Yasha episodes actually havind a point for a while and Kagome thinking about marring the guy in the AOL symbol robe. My mum said: That's good news for you, then you'll get to be with Inu Yasha and marry him instead of him marrying Kagome. God- at that very moment, I stopped eating and got very scared. O_O O_O O_O I got nervous. Um... here's something stupid I just want ta say befor ta end of da post. Y'know the Cha Cha Cha... Charmin bears? I thinks they're too obsessed with toilet paper. It's like... they're to comfortable about saying stuff wit that subject in it. It's a family of dancing bears that need to go potty way to much and talk about softer rolls. Gawd. They need a life. I bet the other bears pick on them. I bet they say: Well, I'm a rich bitch bear, and I gots a load of cash every time I do a commercial!! In your face, poor, no moneyed bear! *Takes out a load of cash and waves it in the bears' faces.^^ Yeah. Stupid, ain't it??^^??^^!!




This iz A Non-follower,
I love joo all,
hope yer having an otay day,
my new cat's watching you,
and so is Elmo,
...and Itachi,
have fun...
...being watched,

signing off.
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Saturday, July 1, 2006

Weekend Naruto! Noooooooo! Sasuke!


Naruto iz on!! YAY! I can't believe Sasuke won!!! *gushes* HOORAY!!!!! ^^ I got to see him with his shirt off too! This is one great Saturday night! And to think, some people are bored out of their minds watching the tv guide channel! Oh, when Orchimaru said he had some business he had to do with Sasuke- he's had to of raped at least one kid. Don't ya think he sounds all rapist-like!? Oh, I hope Shino wins the next battle. He's pretty cool, except the bug part. If me as my ninja I made up had to verse him, I'd be running and scraming and crying and trying to get far away from the bugs. eeeeew.-_- I hope Orchimaru gets shot for trying to take over Sasuke! If no one will do it, I guess I'll do it! *attempts ninja centerfold* *doesn't work* Feh! Orichimaru: So? You don't have much chakara it all... do y- *BANG!!!* Me: NO! I really don't! But guns.... hahahaha! >3 Then, Sasuke would love me and the seal would be removed, then Sakura would cry and Hinata would have nothing to do with this. ^u^ I'm just thinking things through in my head!^^ It just comes to me randomly! I wish Kankuro the best of luck too. I think he'll win because he's one of the more mainer characters than the guy he's up against. *shiny evil eyes* USE THE CROW! USE THEEEEEEEE CROOOOOW!>D





This iz A Non-follower,
signing off.

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A song for you and me, corn.
It's got poor Haku in it and the intro is long, but if you watch it all... yeah.


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PAAAAARTAAAAAY!


Naruto's gonna be on!!!! *says real squeaky fast and giddy* Sasuke!!!!! Inu Yasha: Will you just shut up about SASUKE!? Me: I can say whatevuh I want thanks very muchly! It also gets you jealous! I love it when you're jealous! Oh, and everyone deep down loves Sasuke a little! Inu Yasha: .....Well I don't. Me:Yes. Yes you do! Inu Yasha: I'm a guy. *checks to make sure* I'm not yaoi! Me: Yes you are! Inu Yasha: I'm gonna stop talking now-_- Me: ...you're yaoi with your brother! Inu Yasha: .... Sesshoumaru: *poof* No we are not! *a big fight starts* * * * *

I'll tell you how it ends.

*grabs another Pepsi* I'm on mi 15th one. *sips* Ou< YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAH!! *twithes*

Um.... Alien ant farm?


Okay. The end of da post! It so happens that we ended up watching Charlie and The Chocolate Factory. Inu Yasha cried cause he was ascared of da Ooompa Looompas. Sesshoumaru pointed and laughed. I comforted him as we watched it. He was almost half way asleep around the end of the movie when he asked me, Inu Yasha: Jay, do you think that chocolate factory really is real? *he said all kiddish, dreaming it was* Me: Yes. *I said.* Yes it is.

This iz A Non-follower,
PEPSI!
PEPSI!
PEPSI!
signing off.
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*twitch*
*Grabs another Pepsi* Ho yeah!!!! *chugs it* Me and dad are having a Pepsi drinking contest! *twitch twitch* Hahahahaha! 12th friggin' can man! 12TH FRIGGIN' CAN! *Grabs you by the face and screams* 12TH FRIGGIN' CAN!!!!! Hahahaha! *shoves Pepsi down your throat* *hiccup* I wish all mi buddies were here so we could all drink ta hyper potion for those whom think young! We'd all have so much fun! I also have high- freakin-speed internet and cable so we could all watch youtube and anime movies!! *crys* I LOVE ALL JOO OUT THERE!!!! *a little emotional* HAHAHAHAHA! *goes and gets more Pepsi* * * * * * Hey! I got news! I'm gonna change my avatar randomly! I'll still have mine on sometimes. I just wanna try something new.^^ But... it's not.... fucking... working!! *tackles you* I love you! Inu Yasha: *pulls me off of all the nice peoplezz* "Yeah, that's nice. They're probably gonna sue your ass for sexual harrassment!" Me:^^ Do you like 20 questions? Inu Yasha: "... sure?"

Inu Yasha: Can you dip it in fondue?
Me: Yes!
Inu Yasha: Can you find it anywhere, like in a bedroom?
Me: Yes!
Inu Yasha: Is there a song about it?
Me: Yes!
Inu Yasha: Does it touch puppies in a wrong way?
Me: Yes! Any ides on what it is?
Inu Yasha: Paris Hilton?
Me:...-u- You're good!

Heh. DRINK PEPSI! DON'T SNORT COKE! Da da da dum dum. Cause he's the bomb! This ain't no joke! It's gangsa folk!^^ Hyper! Whhhhheeeeeeeee! Have fun!



This iz A Non-follower,
whom just shared you Pepsi,
signing off.

Umm. YEAH! I'm a gangsta when I drink Pepsi! I don't know why! Don't question an absent-minded wolf-mortal-ninja-slut! I don't know what that was about or why I sid that!!! Who are joo anyway!!!?!?>3
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Hey. Hi. Hello. Hmm..... I'll go get some Pepsi. Gimme a sec...
* * * *

Yo! This iz a shout out to all my dogs! Bark with me if you're my dogs! Wheeeeeeee! I'm a gangsta! I'm a strait up G! The gangsta life is the life for me!^^ Yahoo.com! It's Saturday! Ya know! Someone's birthday is coming up! I've gotton pretty content with all this birthday crap and I really don't need anything, just a decent, relaxing day. As soon as it hits July 23, I'll have another year to look forward to it passing by again. Feh! Weeeeeeeeee! I drew a pretty picture last night! It was with Gaara in it! He looked ready for something special. >_< Haha! My hand itches! *itches hand* I need more Pepsi! *goes and gets can of Pepsi* *sips Pepsi* There. My whole day iz done! Hay! Since I tell you all every little teeny teensy weenie winkie small tall detail about every minor second, I want to hear about what has been going on with you guys. *sits you down in a chair* *grabs clipboard and paper* *Starts writing* (_____ you tell about what's been going on- since I care) * * * When you get done I say finished. *I hand you a picture of Sasuke and Itachi riding a dragon singing* There you go.





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YYgurhgrusoudhufsaaaaaa! Sisco iz mi homie he's a gangsta too. Me and Sisco are the leaders of the gangsta crew! Wheeeeeaaaaaaaa! *punches computer out of hyperitallity* *breaks and dies* SILENCE *Runs around the room with someone's underwear from the bottom droor in the computer room* Haawaawawawwahwwahwh!

Yay! Pepsi has cured mi weekend! It makes me use the bathroom like a lot because it goes straight down, but, it's a good way to wake up quickly!! *jumps on your back (not being sexual for once)* PIGGY BACK RIDE! *you end up falling and I end up crying cause yoo fell* :,(

This iz A Non-follower,
quite fond of youtube,
signing off.
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Friday, June 30, 2006

Gaara's so cute in this vid! And the Sasuke thing... we all feel sad after reading this. It's funny though. Can't argue with funny!
I bet you all know this song!! Sing along!!




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Condoms! Now that I have your attention.... condoms!
This morning, mom and I went to the gas station to get the fatty fat fattiest food of all: The Macdonald's type food. We also went in to get a drink. I asked my mom if I could get Dr. Pepper. My mom said: Get Vault. Believe me, she didn't dodge no bullet. So, we're checking out, guess what I see? Condoms! Lots and lots of condoms! It was amazing! There were colorful, glow in the dark- um yeah all kinds! Since I'm a sick chick, my eyes were glued to the wall of condoms. I thought it was kind of funny too. Out of all things- condoms! My mom finally saw what I was looking at and she practically bitch-slapped me. Well, it was a warning gonk upside the head for being a pervert. She said: Quit looking at all of that! I laughed. Mom, out of all things there could be on that rack... it had to be THAT! She said: Yeah. I started to laugh really hard in front of people. A lot of people. If I didn't have big laugh attacks over something stupid everyday, I would of been an embarassment to mom. She says: You really find this more funny than I. Yeah. I did. I laugh over stupid things. Like Mt. Baldy, Elmo with a knife saying he knows where you live, pudding, scottsman, etc.

This iz A... MT. BALDY! HAH! WHO THE HELL NAMED THAT MOUTAIN ANYWAY!?

Otay... let us try this again....

This iz A Non-follower,
signing Elmo knows where you live
...signing off.

Sasuke knows where you live too. He's coo coo for Coco Puffs.


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