Saturday, May 31, 2008

   Well la.....
Today was boring and uneventful. I was SUPPOSED to go over Steph's house but what do you think happened to that plan.... come on guess... yep, I was canceled on. Again. It makes me mad but whatever. She's only helping me in the long run. I was planning on dropping all but one of my Jr. High friends and starting fresh anyways.

I love Mika Nakashima's music. She has amazing vocals. And, for those few songs that don't sound THAT great, awesome lyrics, lol.

It sucks, I can tell I'm finally starting to change. Like I haven't really changed at all (personality wise) in the last couple of years. I mean, I've always been the good girl Alex that is respectful and behaved... yeah by the end of summer I'm not going to be surprised if I'm not a total witch. I mean on the outside I'll be the same, I mean it's so easy to plaster a smile on and say "everything's ok, don't worry about it" but inside, lol, I've noticed that lately, even though I'm saying one thing I am thinking the complete and total opposite.

Like when Steph canceled on me, again, today, I went over to her house and dropped off the promotion present I bought her (well half of it. I got her socks and stockings but since I was PO'd at her I kept the socks, they're cute ;P) and said it was fine, I didn't mind to be canceled on. Mentally though my mind was reeling with all these thoughts of how PO'd I was and how I was so sick and tired of this crap... I never used to be like that... or well, I was at one point right after we moved out here to bfe but other then that I've never been that way.

It bothers me... Like, I don't want to be that way >.> Even if the thoughts never make their way to my mouth it still bugs me. *sigh* Oh well, It's probably just some stage. Lol, at least I hope it is.

Mika is so relaxing to listen too. I love her voice. I turned her on when I got home from Steph's and almost instantly I felt better. I mean, I was still mad at her but it didn't bother me as badly anymore. Especially the song "My Way" from her album The End. Lol, I love that song. It's not relaxing or anything but it'll put you in a good mood. It's sound quality is so poor (Mika sounds almost drunk singing this song XD) that it's good.

Well, I'm gonna go and listen to Mika and float around myspace. Bye ^^
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Friday, May 30, 2008

   uuuh.... wha?????
Yeah, I'm fairly confused at the moment. My friend's coming back? Yeah, idk how that's going anymore. There's some chick on his profile that's saying she just now made the URl. I have no clue what's going on with that so... yeah, I just gotta hope it'll smooth out soon.

Other then that, my day has been pretty good ^^ I now have a bank account. Scary thought..... *looks around at the strange looks I'm being given* Yeah it's not a savings account but an actual bank account. You know where you can actually use the money. I thought I was just getting a savings account. That's all I wanted...

I also went out and bought "The Melancholy Of Haruhi Suzumiya vol.1" Deluxe Edition. Lol, it came with CDs ^^ I like CDs...

Speaking of which My Mika CDs came in the mail today as well. I love Mika's songs. I like her better then An Cafe.

Well, I'm gonna throw her CDs on my Ipod and probably get off soon.... or maybe I'll try to talk to the chick again... either way I'mma go now. Bye ^^
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Thursday, May 29, 2008

   I love An Cafe, they kick booty
Idk how accurate they are but Lyric links are under neath both. Enjoy =)

Antic Cafe-Snow Scene


http://lyricwiki.org/An_Cafe:Snow_Scene

Antic Cafe - Smile Ichiban Ii Onna


http://lyricwiki.org/An_Cafe:Smile_Ichiban_Ii_Onna

An Cafe - Escapism


An Cafe - Maple Gunman


http://lyricwiki.org/An_Cafe:Maple_Gunman

An Cafe - BondS


http://lyricwiki.org/An_Cafe:BondS_-Kizuna-_%28album_ver.%29
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   Yay!!!
Lol, I think today was a lucky day... I'm happy too, cuz, like, I was totally starting to hate this week =P

Anyways (I just felt like sounding preppy so you can ignore that ^) My An Cafe CDs came today and my friends back =D I still haven't been able to talk to him cuz he's busy at the moment >.> but he's back ^^

..... I need a bit of help... how do you get rid of sudden obsessions with boy bands? Lol, after listening to "Hey Juliet", I started listening to An Cafe now I.... bleh >.<... pulled out my mom's Nsync CD. I mean they aren't bad but... Nsync? Honestly that is sinking to a new low for me. I haven't listened to them since I was, like, 6? 7 at the latest? *sigh* Maybe it'll blow over like my country comeback did. I hope so, lol, can you imagine the ridicule I'll get? Lol, just "Hey Juliet" had my friends looking at me weird for a LONG time. Well besides one... maybe it's just a nerd thing. She likes boy bands too sometimes...

Well, I'm gonna hope my friend talks to me sometimes before I get kicked off line. Bye ^^
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

La, la, la, la...
First off, in response to your comment Romantica, I was looking forward to the math program. I signed up for it cuz I wanted to go. It was a choice course not some summer school course that's mandatory. And the person that isn't online hasn't been online in over a month. Wait... no he was, three times. Three times in the last month in a half I believe, and each times he's been on it was before I got on and he'd already logged back out or I was away.

I mean, yeah I know people have worse, much worse, luck then just missing a person when the get on or whatever but I see this as bad luck...

Anyways, other then that small rant ^ My day has been fairly good considering my friend still hasn't gotten back online. I found this book called "The Faerie Path" at wal*mart. Very good. I've read better as far as fairy books go but it's good. I'm already a third of the way through it. For not being much a reader as of late that's making pretty good progress.

Well, I'm gonna wander the libraries website to see if the have the rest of the trilogy. Nighty night ^^
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Tuesday, May 27, 2008

*sighs and rolls eyes*
I knew it, he isn't on... Hmph, It figures though. I have such crappy luck.

CDs should be in this week, I'm glad.

I have nothing to say...

Oh yeah the summer math program at the high school I signed up for? Probably not going. There's no bus and my dad might actually get a job soon >.>

I hate summer break, I'm gonna go mope off somewhere and wait and hope my friend gets on. *sigh* good night........
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Blah!!!! Xl
Isn't it just my luck? I mean the one day I DON'T get on at my regular time my friend/crush comes on and tries to message me >.> Lol, and should I have gotten on at my regular time I wouldn't have seen my Uncle Mike. I had to unknowingly choose between my two favorite guys. That's not fair. Oh well ^^ My Uncle Mike's getting me Maximum the Hormone now. He has the CD laying around somewhere. He said he just needs to find it and I can have it.

*munch, munch, munch...* Well, I have another doctors appointment tomorrow. *sigh* I'm glad this is the last one for a while. He's kinda weird. Like the doc is cool and all but... he's just one of those people you know? The ones that you wanna avoid without any good reason.

*munch, munch, munch...* ^^ I got pocky. Lol. I love pocky. *hands pocky to all who comment* I love pocky and J-Pop.

I wish my CDs would come already >.< I wanna listen to An Cafe!!! And my Mika CDs, But I want An Cafe! lol, and to think I used to call myself patient with this kinda stuff. I guess I never held high interest in my orders till now.

Well I'm gonna go mope around myspace and hope that my friend is on at an irregular time. Lol, I highly doubt it cuz he's like me with a set time a lot of the time but whatever. Bye ^^
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Saturday, May 24, 2008

   La....
Well I suppose I'll start with the good news:

*I got $340 between my promotion gift money and grade money

*It poured all day Thursday and rained on and off yesterday ^^

*I didn't screw up the pledge OR the walk OR the bridge, all or which I botched up the other day.

*I didn't cry until the END of the program (it was hard though)

*I got a new phone

Now the bad part:

* I Cried... a lot. After it was over I couldn't stop crying. It sucked big time.

*I'm going to miss everyone

*I'm not going to be able to see my favorite teacher anymore

*my phone broke

Ok all done with the news flashes ^^

Lol, I have this one guy friend who I love lots (as a friend though), it was so cute, he got a LOT of awards yesterday in sports and stuff and he couldn't stop crying either. He's such a sweet heart, I really hope he doesn't change at all during high school. He's smart, funny, nice... I think the only possibly bad thing about him is his insecurity. Lol, just thinking about not seeing him in class is making me want to start crying again.

Him and my friend Ari.

Well I got 5 A's, 3 A+'s, and a C in PE. That's where I got 100 of my 300 from. ^^ I'm happy with them.

I went to the mall with Ari today ^^ It was so fun. Then we hung out at Borders when we were done at the mall. I spent... around 120 dollars buying stuff for people as promotion presents. I also spent a lot on myself too, lol. I got her a mokoa (Idk how to spell it, it's the thing from Tsubasa) purse, me a Nerv purse (it's to go with my Neon Genesis shirt ^^), the complete collection book of Princess AI, Vol. 7 and 8 of D. Gray-Man, a Death Note shirt, neon green nail polish, those rubber bracelets (I got green and black ones), and I got my other friend a pair of skeleanimal socks and orange and black stockings.

Lol, I was surprised I still had 220 dollars left. I suppose I'll throw it into a savings account. I need to start saving up for a car >.> I mean by next august I'll be able to start driving... well If I can get through drivers ed... It doesn't sound TOO hard from what I've been told...

I wonder how much gas will cost by then... lol, at the rate it's climbing now, by august of 09', I'mma need a pretty good job that pays well. If not I'm screwed.

Well I'm going to go now. Bye ^^
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Friday, May 23, 2008

   last day of school....
Well, I've been looking forward to today for a while. As of.... sometimes after two (idk exactly when they're passing out a promotion sheets), I'm going to be a high schooler. Yay.

I'm going to miss everyone though >.> Or.. well not everyone but most of the people I go to school with. Lol, after I posted about Steph she started acting a bit different. Maybe it's cuz she realized I wasn't going to be there for her anymore. I know she didn't read my post (I'd be in a bit of a bad position if I did, she thinks I'm still her bestest buddy. I would say stuff like that >.>). I wonder what led to the sudden change....

Oh yeah, I added some more music from random Japanese artists I found online. Some are kinda slow though so idk how much people would like them.

Well I gotta get ready for school. Have a good day ^^ Oh and wish me luck =P I gotta say the pledge during promotion. I screwed up yesterday during practice >.> I hope I don't do it again...
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

   YAY!!!!
Only a day left until the final day at good old Stanfield ^^ I hate this stupid school but I'm going to miss it. So many memories... both good and bad.

I was so anti-social when I first got here.... It's weird how "popular" I am now. I mean I'm friends with EVERYONE here just about. Even little kids like talking to me. It's scary in a cool way.

Lol, I think one thing I'll never forget is 6th grade. I had two things happen then. I got asked out for the first time ever (sadly it was as a horrible joke >.> I liked him too.) and I had this one kid that every time I saw him I flicked him. Lol, it was so funny. And he was such a goof. He's even goofier now (this is the same guy that tried to climb through the desk and got stuck).

I think one person I will most definitely not miss is steph. I mean she's cool and all but..... idk... I just don't like being around her anymore. And I seem to be a big turn away for her too. Every time I try to do anything with her she comes up with something or other to cancel on me. What's worse? She always seems to be making plans with other people. I mean if she has so much time in the world to hang out with them why can't I come over for an hour? Makes no sense. Especially when she, SHE, has asked me to do this or that with her and cancels on me. It's getting old. Fast.

And now she keeps asking me to hang out with her over summer break? Ha, what a joke. I'm not going to even try to talk to her anymore once schools out friday. I'm already going to delete her off of myspace. And she knows it. I'm getting tired of this crap. And she was complaining cuz I was ignoring her this morning on the bus. Grrr, makes me so mad...

I'm really going to miss Ariana though ='( She's been my best friend since 5th grade. I can tell her just about everything and anything so long as it doesn't have to do with her other friends (Like the whole steph thing I can't tell her that. She'll tell steph >.>)

She's the only other person that's really into anime down here too. I mean I've gotten a few people to watch stuff but... no one really gets the difference between anime and cartoons besides her. Like the quality of the art and story? No one cares about that down here. If it's entertaining or cute they like it....

Bleh, I'm probably not going to like the anime club next year >.> According to a friend I have in high school, that club is full of nothing but chicks that like to talk about... stuff. He says they don't even really do anything anime related. v.v I was so looking forward to it too. I'm still going to give it a try but idk if I'll be staying a part of it for long.

I wonder if I'll see Vanessa there... Lol, she's that chick I met in the chat room about a month ago. She's cool... well from the little we talked she seemed cool anyways.

I hope I'll be able to find her next year >.> She'll be the only person I'll know there unless I'm lucky enough to land a class with people from here (very very slim chance of that though. There's maybe 80 people leaving here and 3,000 going into the freshman class).

Bleh.. well my headline died.... wait a second... My CDs should be getting here soon so I'm happy bout that.... wait no I'm not >.> Steph asked me to burn her a copy of the An Cafe CDs. >.< God does that make me mad. She can't ever "find time" to hang out with me yet she wants me to loan her/burn her my Japanese music. Heh, she needs to get real. I'm not doing squat for her.

And she calls me one of her "best friends". All she does is complain to me. She's lucky I even listen to her crap anymore. I mean she can't ever seem to listen to me or be happy for me >.> Like yesterday I texted her about my friend finally coming back to myspace and she completely ignored the text. She told me later on, this morning I think, that she'd even seen he was on but didn't feel like texting me and telling me. Yet when she tells me the guy she likes talked to her she expecting me to be happy for her.

I'm tired of it...

Oh ^^ I might go to Saboten-Con =D I hope I do, I need Johnny Yong Bosch's autograph on my Beck OST. I have Ayers's already ^^

Ayers = Koyuki
Bosch = Saku

Lol, I hope my mom can get Sunday off that's when they're signing ^^

Well, I'm going to go now... geez this was a whiny post. I'm sorry bout that >.> I've just been annoyed with certain people lately so it felt good to get it out <.<

Well I hope everyone has a pleasant evening and a good rest of the week ^^ Bye!
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