Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Which Saiyuki boy are you?

Take the Saiyuki Quiz at Scarred


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well, today, i moved out from under my dad. it's his fault for hateing her so much. how can he hate someone i love? i'll never understand him. i wonder how hard this is really going to be. i have these mixed feelings about the whole this. i'm feeling a hure release, like all this built up energy of about to flood away into a high on freedom, yet i'm pensive. maybe a little sacred of what's to come. i'll be alright. i can do this.
i'm super excited that i get to see her friday! we'll hang out all day, it sounds perfect. that's why my dad's mad. oh well, nothing i'm willing to change just to make him happy. i'll talk to you guys later.
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Sunday, September 19, 2004

ok, i'm in the middle of trying to figure out how to beef up my site. i'm going to put up a l'arc en ciel theme, but it's hard for me. i'm no good at this sorta stuff. any help here would be nice.....
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hey, well, she told me that she was just upset at her best friend's girl friend, and that was componded by me getting up set at her for crossing the line on what i belive and about God. she said it's ok. i felt really bad, i probably shouldn't have scolded her, but she did go to far with some of the things she said. ok, it's "ok" for now....
just got back from a concert with the men's choir. at the very begining, one of the guys passed out into a diebetic seizer. it was really scary, but he'll be ok, they tell us. he had to go to the hospital. we had to on without him, but it was ok from there. i have a short solo on the last song. even though i'm in a band, i don't really like singing solo's. but it went ok.
my band had a show last night. so i did two shows, with two groups, in two days. i'm a little tired. the show last night went suprisingly good. we do a pretty hard rock style, and we were playing with several other groups that were ALL gangta rap. we felt really out of place and we thought that the crowd was going to be really hard, but they were really great! we had a great time playing.
ok that's all for now. i know this was a really long post. i'm sorry....
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Thursday, September 16, 2004

she was relly mad last night. i don't know why. she refused to talk to me at all. it really hurt. i dodn't even know why i felt so bad. how does she do that? i asked her over and over to tell me why she was mad, but she wouldn't tell me. she said she was mad at the world, and that included me. i didn't do anything.....
somebody help me. what is wrong with me?
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Monday, September 13, 2004

well, i'm sorry for not posting in a few days. i've been pretty busy. i just got off work so now seemed like a good time to fill all you guys in on what's new around here.
i've found a few other otakus here. one down the hall from me is lending my "trigun" so i get to watch it all in japaness! o joy of joys!! i really like the japaness track on this one, but the english one is also good. o if any of you are thinking of buying it online (try ebay, it's like $30 there) you should watch it in both languages because they both have different strong points.
i've pretty busy with school work and i know it only gets harder from here. i hope i can keep up. i just wrote a 3 page essay for english comp. it wasn't all that many pages of anything, it just took me awhile and i don't really know why. i hope that doesn't happan again.
today, while i was in the caf. eating my work called and asked if i could come in and help out for a little. you see, i don't work any regular hours, but i'm on call for whenever they need me (along with like 5 other guys) to move chairs, tables, stages, set up and run sound or lights, etc. well, we had to move like 750 chairs and 12 portabal staging platforms from one buldind of the far side of campus to the gym that's in the middle of campus. fun, realy fun. it wasn't all that hard, it just took some time to get done. after that we checked out some used lights that were given to us to see how many worked. so i got to work for about 3 hours today.... not really all that much. i hope i can work more later on this year.
all is well other then that. my other relational problems either went away, or are being skillful (well, it's mostly luck) being avioded. so that's all for now. i'll see you all around.
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Friday, September 10, 2004

You're Black. You're cruel, nasty-minded, and
simply put "Evil". You're probably a
really cool person to hang out with, if only
because of your Great Evil. Everyone likes the
badguys.


What's Your Inner Color? (anime images)
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i don't really get it. i mean, i AM kinda dark, and people find me creepy some times, but evil....?

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Thursday, September 9, 2004

Omae wa dochira anime no VILLAIN desu ka?
[koyasunomiko.com]

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Wednesday, September 8, 2004

o, yea. classes start tomorrow. this is the real thing. the big boys. i hope i do ok.... ^-^
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hey, i'm sorry i didn't get to your guys sites today or yseterday. the internet was down here and so nobody on campus could get on.
i have a really not so great story for you all to hear and have pity on. you all pretty much know my special friend. not the one from the last post, but the other one. (are you following me here?) ok, well, thinks were going so-so between us. i mean, when you have 3 months between the times you see each other, things can only go so well, you know? ok, well i started to feel bad for her because she has got alot of things going on and she need someone there with her. she needs more then i can give right now, so i started to feel like i was leading her on and not giveing her what she diserves. i don't really know why i did this, but i decided to give her up for her own good. she'd be better of not being tied to me and getting somebody that could give her all she needs. ofter i said good bye, i lost it. i got so freaked out that i had given up the best thing that ever happened to me. i just started to run. i got outside, into one of the open fields (for like soccer and stuff) and i just exploded. i punched the ground until my fists bleed, i threw my self around, i was so mad. i didn't know why until later. i was mad because i was so scared. i relized i had made the dumbest mistake. i couldn't do it. i called her back the next day, and we worked it out. we dicided to see other people, but still be together. i'm not a jealous guy, so i can handle that a whole lot better then giveing her up totally. i guess i know what was right. i should let her go, but i can't be that unselfish. i need her more then that. so, the moral of this story is; when your in love, there might come a time when you have to do something for the other person that will hurt you more then you'll be able to deal with. don't rush into it. think about it and talk it out, or else you'll end up far worse then you started.
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