Sunday, August 27, 2006

   Excuse While I Fall Apart...

Things are not going too well for me right now... I feel like crying. Im so upset. On friday people were talking about me in my English class... I know. Cause they wouldnt stop looking over at me and giggling. I know who started it all... The prick from myspace. He was such an ass to me and now hes talking about me and probably told everyone about what happened on Mypace... I felt like crying on Friday in class. Then today i wake up to find out that there was a plane that crashed in my area. (well near my area but it was in the same state) Lexington. 49 people died...there was only one survivor. Im PRAYING that this isnt a terroist attack. Im so scared and upset i dont know what to think. Then my dad's birthday is tomorrow... Its going to be the third birthday that i have missed. I miss him so much right now i just want to break down crying... Then money is tight. I also fear for my friends... I like a guy, the same guy that my friend likes and i want to tell him how i feel but im afraid that my friend is going to hate me forever... *sigh* To make matters worse i find out that my older half sister's step sister got in a car wreck and is paralyzed from the waist down... She will never walk again. Then i find out that on my mom side... Peter(some distant relation of mine...but i love him like a grandfather)has cancer... He is France right now but i wish i could go and see him and make sure he gets the treatment that he needs... I love him too much. I dont want to lose him. There is also a big chance we might get to see my dad in December... We have to fly out to the Phillipines but it will be worth it! I want to attend his wedding so badly it aint even funny... Im just so worried one of my parents are gonna start shit with the other one... Because my mom believes that if me and my brother fly out to see my dad, he would never let us fly back home... But he cant do that. Its known as kidnapping...

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