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• 1990-02-02
Gender
• Female
Location
• Someplace
Member Since
• 2004-11-06
Occupation
• Something
Real Name
• Someone

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Achievements
• JV soccer team...if that is one
Anime Fan Since
• um..well i use to be really into it, and now its like kindof a thing..i dunno
Favorite Anime
• Salior Moon, Gundum Wing, some others i cant rememeber
Goals
• get on varisty, find someone...um stay singe?....yea..
Hobbies
• Soccer, writing, reading
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• soccer, wrting, reading, dancing...meh

myOtaku.com: adidasgirl45

Sunday, November 28, 2004

i put all my hope in you...
i highly doubt anyone will want to read this, but im sure it will answer grey ghost's question as to why im sad.
ok jason(palm bay dude, same name as james real)and i started talkin over the summer. we met through a friend of mine and his worst enemy, lets call him shigure. anyhows, we met and we started talking often online and on the phone. we never got to met though, which upset me.
one day jason said that he really liked me, and i really liked him too, but i was having issues with shigure and andrew, so i said no when he asked me out. i was sad because i had to hurt him, but we stayed friends, and openly talked about relationship stuff. i had every intention of going out with him within that month. he had other plans. bout 3 weeks later, he told me a girl he dated still liked him, and he liked her. so they were going to go out. i was stunned, hurt. luckly though i still talked to him. then issues began to form and he and i stopped talking nearly as much, and i was hurt, but i had andrew, so i was better off. well, then he told me that he still liked me, and that he wanted to go out with me, and that he broke up with his g/f. somehow shigure found out(i didnt tell him) and this whole thing started and i got blamed(suprise..) so then he stops talkin to me, and i was sad.
then just as quickly as he stopped, he started agian, and told me that he couldnt stop thinkin bout me and blah blah blah. i was just happy he didnt hate me. and then i realized i still liked him, so i told him this. ha! he called me this morning and said he couldnt break things off with kt or his friends would hate him for it. and nows hes back to the whole not talkin to you again, i feel like being an ass thing. and i hate knowing i could have had him, i hate knowing i lost him, and i hate knowin that is wasnt my fault.

and all thi makes me see how much i really like him and andrew and how much i really just wasnt to talk to them, want andrew to just hold me, want jason to just talk on the phone and whisper that he cares for me more than i know. i dont want my life to just have a shaded figure haunting my dreams as it does now. *sighs* well i have to go finish my spanish...later

kk
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