Saturday, July 30, 2005

I am so HAPPY but yet SOOOO SAD...
Sorry for those who are regularly visiting my site(if there's any!) coz I didn't get any update lately,that is b'coz I am already working for about a week and a half now..this week I am at the night shift and as in "NIGHT" coz my sched. was 6pm to 6am. It was great and of course sooo stressing coz I only got to sleep for 6 hrs. and that is so little compare to my usual sleep when I wasn't working yet.Right now I am still on training and the training in TIP was so long b'coz their process is so complicated so they have to teach you step by step procedures again and again until you get it all correctly..and when you get it all right that's just the time that they will endorse you to your proper area or dept.

The training was so hard that you might quit on the spot added to the pressure your trainor are putting on your shoulder by shouting at you and preaching you about what might happen to your product for just that one little mistake that you did..the proof is,one of the employee on my batch already quit just this morning b'coz she cannot take it anymore,thinking that she's not yet on the proper area of working...*whew*I was so close on quitting too just this thurs. night.b'coz when it's already my time to demonstrate for the calibration of the Torque driver(just some terms that we use)the trainor was already on the bad mood b'coz of the last trainee who's not yet prepared, added on the very late time w/c is already 4am..Well at least I didn't quit coz I was thinking of the money that I or my parents and older sister lend me just to apply for that company..so that became my inspiration.
I'm sorry if I'm bugging you all in telling this nonsense.I just can't get off this things on my head so I have to tell anyone about it!Coz I'm not seeing Yuripriss again since the time that I started to that sh*t...

So let me tell you the bad side..but don't worry It's not about the work anymore...It's about "myOtaku"(now you're all alarmed!)yes you read it all right. I just want to say that "I'm starting to get bored on this site!"(don't get me wrong!) maybe b'coz I don't get enough comments than what I'm expecting for..or the same feedbacks from the people/site user that I visits....sorry if I offended some of you.But you just don't know how hard it is for me to try updating my site as often as I could(just like what you expect) just by renting PC..I am not so vocal about this kind of feeling coz I know that you might think that "who am I for you to care about!"But this past few days I've trying to share some personal issues about my self but It's keeping me of the thinking that you might don't care at all...just like Yuripriss,w/c you all know is a good friend of mine,I also make this place an escape from the real world that I live in,So I expect to meet other people that I may not get connected to personally but still can make me feel that I belong...there it is I said it..."I feel that I don't belong here at myOtaku".You all can ask Yuripriss how many times I tried to live this plae for good,but she kept saying that "you can't do it,b'coz you will missed all the people here" and she is sooo right!. That is the reason why I am still here,trying to get your attention by opening my heart and soul...I just hope this works!!!

Well don't worry I am a very patient person so don't think that I will quit on all of you,coz I won't,never!

So I guess that's all I can say for now...until next week myO friends!!!












Ciao!


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