Wednesday, February 27, 2008

hey

lifes been pretty oksy... i suffered a bout of stress/depression the other day.. no worries i'm fine... well.. now i am. >.>

i wrote a smut story in school and got caught by my classmates.. T_T they were reading it and going all.. "omg.. aiko ur so horny" and stuff... well, maybe i am.. ARAGAGAH. i dont want to be and once again LS, I'M NOT AN ANIMAL IN HEAT. anyway, the smut story was for my own purposes.. to keep me entertained.. (i write stuff to entertain myself) yea... apparently it was pretty good. nonethelss, none of them had erections (all of the people who caught me are guys). so yea. i told myself tat i will only write smut story if really nessary. for example when i'm REALLY bored.


i think if i were to compare my old enteries in earth gal and my enteries in AikoKuroBara, u'll see a MAJOR diff. like for example... the most obvious one, the horniness and the "maturity of my tone" XD i think if my old self saw myself now, i'ld go

OMG. ge-ge-get a-away from me u-u-u- VILE BEAST!

poo. from an ugly duckling ,instead of turning into a beautiful swan, i've turned into a vile beast. rawr. beware. i eat boys and i grab girls boobs. raaaaawwrrr...


i remember i didnt even dare to say the word sex. i would just go, "umm.. u noe... IT, yea it!! argaahh!! u dont get it.. okay i'll spell it.. S-E-X" now i say it half the time. no... not really. i say fuck half the time. sex is just.. a quarter of it maybe? gah. i'll say it when nessary. lol.


and i realise one thing too. my girl friends in my class are really... STUPID AND GAY. the're like, "s-s-s-sex? EEEEEEEEEE.. get away from me u pervert!" whereas, my guy friends go," sex? wad abt it? " and then start probing me for the girls point of view when it comes to sex. lol.

well, heres a little question to u guys.

if ur past self saw u now, wad would ur past self say?
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

valentine's is tmmr...

and.. this year.. fo some reason..

i have ppl coming up to me telling me they like me and stuff... O.o

first; alexander.. who btw was really sweet.. i'll get to tat later. and then this guy called wilson; who wrote to me my first ever love-note. last month, alexander told me he liked me.. this month wilson tells me he likes me.. does this mean i'll have ppl coming up to me telling me they like me every month? O.o

something tat i'm not really happy abt is that.. they have only met me for s short while and then they suddenly say they like me.. i mean their still in the "attraction" stage not the "like" stage and here they come telling me tat they like me..... raaawwrr

okay. i shall tell/show u wad alexander gave me.



its a bouquet of lolipops and a pair of cat earings! coz lately i've been addicted to lolipops and the earings because i lOOOVVEE CATS. i was like, "awwwwww thanks!"

but somehow it kinda made me little sad.

u noe why. i dont want to elaborate on it coz its boring and sickening and moaning abt it wont make things better.



i might not be able to post tommorow, so heres to u guys!

HAPPY VALENTINES!!! ^_^

btw, I'M NOT AN ANIMAL IN HEAT DAMMIT.
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Tuesday, February 5, 2008

hello there my little friends..

well, i told alexander about me dating aufa the other day and somehow he got turned off. lalalala.. so.. the problem solved without me having to do anything hurtfull.

but the sad thing is,

my sexual appetite has been going barking mad ever since marcus left me. and somehow, whenever i see him, i just feel like raping him right on the spot. its scary really. i thought only guys were like that. so i dragged him to a corner, took him by his collar (hey! it ryhmes~!) and then snogged him. the poor guy was really shocked.

i noe i noe, its bad, i'm giving him the wrong idea.. but i think not! he thinks i'm "addicted" to him which i am not. i just have a sexual appetite which is going raving stark mad. but yea. i hope u get it. he doesnt think i'm interested in him. he just thinks that i "need his kiss" but in reality,

i just need a guy to ease my sexual appetite.

sure sure, i need to find other ways to ease my sexual appetite and not use someone. but STILL

i sound like a person who is desperate. BUT I'M NOT DAMMIT. its just my.. ARRRRAAAGGGGGHHH!!


*goes into hentai website*

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Friday, February 1, 2008

hello.

well, my life has been a drag.

asher doesnt like me. boo hoo hoo..

was expecting it ANYWAY. i guess fate wants me to have a horrible year this year. -.-

my date (alexander), is freaking me out. i'm finding a way to get rid of him in a way that wont hurt him. hes saying stuff like

I LOVE YOU

sounds familiar? yes. remember HIDEKI? THERE U GO PPL. the repeat of hideki. and thank god not his horrible english. i'm scared of thatw ord really. when ppl say it to me, i feel like smacking them... kicking them, bashing them, burn- you get the idea. coz when they say it, they most probably dont mean it,

AT ALL.

they just fell like saying it for the sake of saying it. they misinterpret 'like' for 'love' and claim their 'love' for me. which i realy hate due to my recent past experience. i've sworn to myself never to say the words "i love you" to a guy unless i really do and i'm sure of it.

wow wheeee.. i'm having a briliant year! are u?
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Monday, January 28, 2008

hey there.

terribly sorry.... i've been really busy and stuff... graaaaaahh

well, after my recent break up, i've resorted to dating to help me move on.. which has not been very sucessfull, i still think abt him now and then.. and then start crying. which i feel is a waste of time because,

he's never coming back.

no matter how much i may cry or wail and say how much i love him, hes still not coming back coz he doesnt give a fuck.



oh well,

datings going pretty fine, aufa is DEAD, so i shall leae it there and now, i'm dating this guy, alexander who

doesnt really understand the whole concept of dating.

i'm starting to feel that hes taking me too seriously, and once in a while i do remind him that we are, after all, DATING. but i think he forgets somtimes. oh well, i'll just continue to drill the poor guy.

and also, hes starting to have a fetish for girls in cat suits becoz of me. lololololol.

poor thing.
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Thursday, January 10, 2008

today was really werid.

very werid infact.

and not in a very good way.

i met my one of my best friends bf at this schools open house. which was really really reallly werid. then i got seperated from my class and i decided to join him and his friends due to the fact that my classmates abandoned me... and i've got no where else to go so yea. then after that, things got werider.

all his friends left. leaving the two of us.

i was okay with it at first, and i kept my distantce. and then boom

the bus came. it was crowded.

SQQQUIIIISSHHH...

he held my waist. i was quite shocked. but i knew that he wanted to prevent me from falling down which was really nice of him and ... i had to tell him to let go coz i felt AWFULLY WERID. then after that, we were squished into very akward positions.

aiko was not a happy bunny.

then yea. he offered to walk me to my doorstep and i nearly died.

yes yes, it was nice of him but.

HELLO,

U'VE GT A GIRLFRIEND.

so i pushed him towards the MRT train. no way i'm going to let a guy whoes attached walk me TO MY DOORSTEP.


in the end they broke up, due to some other incidents of their own and maybe this as well.

i have no other comment.


except,

sorry if i caused anything.
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Monday, January 7, 2008

hellooooooo

the new year has started.

and so has the preparations for my major major major major exams.

if i dont pass this and do well, there goes my dreams of becoming a manga artist... >:

though, my art has been reconigised~! WOO~! i'm going to join this doujinshi group called collateral damage who are a bunch of highly talented people~! YAAAAAAYYY~!!! I'M ONE STEP CLOOOSEERRR..

okay.today is the proper starting of the school term.. it was erm.. okay actually. >.> though i think it must be in the citeria for science teachers in my school to have horrible english in order to teach science. SERIOUSLY. ALL my science teachers in this school speak horrible to not fantastic english.... raaaaawwwrr..i cant study when i'm distracted by the horrible pronounciation of english. and have to control my urges of correcting the bloody teacher.. grrr..


how have u guys been? :D
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Sunday, December 30, 2007

well, life isnt that bad now.

i'm much happier,

i hope.. -.-

i hope i didnt ruin ur christmas. i went for a christmas dinner... met my mums friends son named asher.. who erm.. i have alot in common in. esp in drama.... so both of us were chatting away and my sister did something i never thought she would do.

she gave my number away. she plotted against asher and i with ashers brother, ashley. and both of us were like.. wtf?

aufa thinks asher is gay.



i think he's actually, somewhat, jealous!


hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

thanks for ur supportive comments.

i've got to love u guys. :3

maybe its the whole hormones thing as elves said. and maybe i shall go blame the elves who ate ur ramen. XD

and no jia. i wont kill u for saying that.

thanks twist. i'll cheer up~!

i guess i was feeling lonley due to the whole break up thing. the first guy i was really serious about... gone. just like that. i guess that why i feel really lonely somehow.

and moving on is not as easy as i thought it would be. oh well. i bet he's having a ball of a time finally getting rid of his werido girlfriend. *points to self*


sheesh i'm being all gloomy on christmas.




merry christmas u guys~!
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Monday, December 24, 2007

i've just been so darn lazy lately. i dont feel like doing anything at all...

i'm currently dating my ex aufa... remember? yeap. things arnt exactly moving between us at all... oh well, all the more. i feel like i need to sort things out in my head.i dont feel like myself. + he lost his phone and is waiting for a replacement.

its like. i dont know how to explain... i feel really empty again... i feel almost as if i'm going into depression again. My school people taunted me online. saying mean stuff to me. indirectly saying that they hate me and have no respect for me etc.

and i'm starting to feel lonely.

i dont noe why. even though my best buddies are still talking to me and stuff, i still feel really lonely.. my phone is awfully quiet... no ones calling.. no ones smsing me just to talk anymore. Even though i'm really not alone.. i feel that i am alone.

gah. there i go again being my emo self. my family just called me sick just because i like yaoi and draw... naked women... its a different form of art. and i'm sick for drawing a different form of art. how nice. so what. i must draw butterflies and faries and women with clothes on. and no,no, there must not be a single drop of blood in the drawing. otherwise i would be "sick"

i got to admit. my drawings are a lil mature. if u cant accept it, then shut up dont call me sick.

and all that just made me feel lonlier.














i really miss him.
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