Monday, May 2, 2005

   ::Yawn. Sigh.::
Hey everyone,I forgot to post earlier, so now, I'm posting at about 5:30 Am...Yay...no..oh well, on with it.

Last night, I was realllly.....sad, lonely above all...I listened to Ever The Same for like an hour and cried a bit...just to vent, just to get it out...

I keep looking at my past relationships, and saying 'FUCK!'Because, I feel like...I'm never going to find that one person that will stick out above the others and take my hand. >
::Sighs:: Tonights basically a rerun of last night...so yeah...

Take care everyone, later...
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Sunday, May 1, 2005

   o.o
New background! What ya'll think.

DOES ANYONE know how to get my background to stop repeating? If so PLEASE tell me.

Today was pretty ok, nothing bad happened, but!! I got to take a ride on a four wheeler! XD That was hella fun.

I slid on some mud, that sucked. -.-

Well thats about it. XD

Take care everyone, later! ^^
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Saturday, April 30, 2005

   Happy face icon..yay! ^^
Hey everyone, today was...actually good!! I'm pretty damn happy at the moment. Someone magnificent helped me to achieve this, of course, her name being Rena-chan! Thank you sooo much! You made my day!!

Because of this! I'm dedicating this post to her, because I can? o.o ::Blinks and hugs her.::

Take care everyone! ^-^
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Friday, April 29, 2005

   Meh.
Hey everyone, shall we once again go down the path of never ending BULLSHIT? Lets, shall we?

Well well well...another somewhat fucked up day...HORRAY!!!!!...Meh

Well, I'm still slightly sore, by the end of tomorrow it SHOULD be gone...thank the lord..and damn my freaking unathetlicness...o.o

For the most part the day was OK...but....alot of confusion on my end...

Lets see, first off...the girl I like, sorta...well..said she might like another dude, but that quickly faded to my relief...I believe it was just a want for a boyfriend, more then anything else...jealousy...is a bitch..ah well...its over and she dun like him..so its all good...Sort of.

Well then,theres margot...she told me something, somewhat interesting before bed. She had told me her friend, that is similar to me, asked her out...after a little more talking...she said she was going to bed, I tolded her to wait, and asked her if she made a decision or not, she said she hadn't...then..after a min or two, before she went to bed, she said, "And just to let you know, I liked to be loved and cared for" "Hint hint " "-_-" So....erm...any idea what the hell that was about? ::Raises an eyebrow slightly.::

Well besides all that, which wasn't too bad. A hour or three ago, I found myself...kinda upset, a lil emotional, which isn't a suprise or anything, I'm an emotional guy, less then I used to be, unfortunately. I preferred being emotional than somewhat numbed, compared to before I am...because...well for instance, I could cry often...with ease..it isn't so easy anymore. My friend and I came to the conclusion that its because I don't think about the past, and because of that, its have an effect on me emotionally, and how I handle things...great. ._. I did finally let out a WHOPPING TWO TEARS....sad that I could count them...gah.

Oh well..anyways, that was my day, hope everyones was good! And will be good. Take care everyone, later!
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Thursday, April 28, 2005

   .........................
Well..lets see, yesterday was...in short? Painful, yeah...and...allegies ...really suck...I hate sneezing! I'm glad I didn't get another headache, though..that would have sucked.

Damn I hate being single!!!
Just had to get that out. o.o

Anyone ever seen Ichigo 100% or aishiteruze Baby? Both good mangas. ^^

Such a pain to find manga online ::Sigh::...Oh well...

Well, I said next to nothing here. Mostly, though...its the same 'ol same 'ol, probably why...now I'm beginning to go into a slight rant, so, before I do that, I'll just go.

Take care everyone, and have as good a day as possible. ^-^ Later.
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

   Meh.
Today was...well...::Shrugs::...

Went outside for once, hah...what a miracle that was, played kickball and football...Damn aaron for being so god damn persistant.

Well...it was alright..exept for the sinus headache, and that time I dived to touch someone (It was two hand touch, 'cause there was alot of younger kids) and I missed, hit my chest on the ground, and my back arched......ow....yeah...

Anyways...It was an ok day...I guess...

On a sorta brighter note, I'm not lonley..exactly..which is sorta unexpected, maybe it just hasn't hit me yet..::Sigh:: I dunno. What I do know, is that I hate being single...gah.

Oh well...Hope everyones day was good. Later.
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Monday, April 25, 2005

   Mwhahahahahahahaha.
Hey everyone! What do you guys think of the new background? I made it if you couldn't tell, I can't do much with PSP/Adobe, but I DO like what I can do.

Today went pretty well, thankfully. Though, the girl I kinda like said she didn't like me, though she doesn't know it, lol...

Anyways, I don't really have much else to say, but does anyone know of any good manga sites, with some good shoujo? If so, let me know! ^^ And, directmanga.com, and stoptazmo.com, don't count :P

Take care all, later. ^^
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   Yay! Happy face icon, woot woot.
Yes, as the icon says, happy! Well sorta happy, anyways.

Feeling much better today ^_^ Thanks for everyones advice and helpful words, I apperciate it alot!!

Though, as I said, I slept it off, mwhaha.
I'll probably post later, who knows.

Oh! What do you guys think of my avatar? I made a new one, thinking about redoing it.

Take care all, later! ^-^
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   Eep?
Yeah, ok..well..I fucked up, I'll admit it. Emotions get the best of me, damn it...THOUGH! I WAS NOT COMPLETLEY CONQUERED! OH NO!! I HAD MY STAND UP COMEDY TO KEEP ME ALIVE! And that it did, it kept me quite happy most of the day, erm, well, SOME of the day...

Being an emotional guy can suck, sometimes I wanna just give a shout out to all the numb people, so I will

ROCK ON!!!!!!

Now that the urge is gone, I can continue.

Today (Technically yesterday) blew! Why did it blow? Oh, well, I'll explain my fucked up predicament.

Well since I'm on the rebound, my heart likes to jump from place to place, how horrid, right? Yes well, it really is. Because, for the next day or so, unless I sleep it off, I'll have to contemplate my feelings for now ONE, but TWO individuals, ahhh the glory of being on the rebound! Fantastic , isn't it? But...its starting to fade, after thinking about things rationally over and over in my head, and slight more depression...

Anyways! Tomorrow I should be as good as new, and please, please hope so.

I know I shouldn't let this crap get the best of me, but...I'm an extremley empathetic person, and I take things as they come, emotions too...Its like, I can take whats happening, but no matter what, the emotion of what happened will still hit me full force, one way or the other. I don't honestly think I can help it.

Take care everyone, later.
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

   Iaya...
Well, today sucks! Woot...!!

Mehhhhh...I feel crappy, I suppose I'm getting the after effects of the break up, woopie...really, woopie...

This morning it was depression, then lonliness...no idea what it is now...I don't...sucks, though...

::Sigh:: Oh well, I'm trying not to mope, but damn it...It isn't easy, but I won't...I won't let this get the better of me...I hope...
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