myOtaku.com: Aikou no Shinzui

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1989-02-25
Gender
• Male
Location
• Ask I'll be glad to tell you.
Member Since
• 2005-04-12
Occupation
• O.o Meh
Real Name
• Ryan.

Personal

Achievements
• Um..Being able to write decently. Becoming good at RPing. Being able to keep myself entertained for large ammounts of time.
Anime Fan Since
• Pokemon came out? XD
Favorite Anime
• Bleach/Full Metal Alchemist/Naruto/Outlaw Star/DearS. Manga: Aishiteruze Baby,Futari Ecchi, Bleach, Naruto, Ai Yori Aoshi.
Goals
• Find a goal...::Sigh::
Hobbies
• Anime, Reading manga sometimes,Writing, Singing...Rping.
Talents
• Giving Advice, though I may be somewhat cruel when giving it. Singing, Rping, Writing(Poetry mostly).

myOtaku.com: Aikou no Shinzui

Friday, May 27, 2005

Meh.
Well I'm sittin' here at...4:11 AM, and I'm lonely. God, why doesn't that suprise me? Probably because it happens too often...Damn, I'm adgitated...My room is kinda warm, and I feel like pounding the shit out of someone, but then I don't...Meh...Maybe Its just the slight heat in my room, or maybe its some kind of...well I don't know, but something else I'm not aware of.

All I know is, I'm lonely, and I have too many things going on in my head...sorta. Maybe I'm just thinking too much, and becoming frustrated........Fuck I don't even know.

I'll share someone with you all, though. I kinda have a crush on two people, Danielle, and a really, very close friend, Jackie...Jackie is one of my dearest and best friends, and she lives in oklahoma, unfortuantely, but...in any case, maybe the flirting has gotten to me, and I stopped dating long distance a while ago, as did she...so..I know nothing will happen, but while I know that, I feel somewhat drawn to her. But I'm willing to bet if we spot flirting it will stop...::Sighs:: God I hate having such a complicated heart...

Then theres danielle, the local girl I met at crossroads last week, who broke up with her b/f zack(of which I know). But---Never the less, I feel a bit...I don't know, frustrated, maybe a bit angry torwards myself for letting such things frustrate me...Ugh, I dunno...

You know whats horrible? When you go to bed at night and are stuck thinking about things you wouldn't have too so much otherwise. Your stuck, laying in your bed, pondering the things of your life and you just wish you'd fall asleep in hopes that a happy dream will take over your then unconcious state and rid your thoughts for the hours that you lie in bed...That seems to be one of my only salvations...

Sleeping and dreams, that are purely fictional...

Take care all.
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