Tuesday, March 1, 2005

   I'm feeling all fangirl-ish... 0.0 (Scary thought.)
Konnichiwa, my home skittles. Yes, I am even more crazier than usual in case you haven't noticed. That is because I only recieved 3 hours of sleep last night because my dog slept in my room and kept me awake all night. That's okay though because he's so sweet, kawaii, and has little doggie ears like InuYasha-kun. ^^ I think the lack of sleep has gone to my head because today bloodandtears and I were talking about how bad the writing prompt sucked and then I went on this entire rant about anarchy and over throwing the tyrant called democracy! I've also had caffinee today, so that also contributes to the cause. I have realised that I have been listening to more American music now. It's probably because I only have one Japanese cd, Vulgar by Dir en Grey. I wouldn't be suprised if I had New Age Culture memorized. My Kyo sounds so morbid in it!!! ^^


^^ Aww...


This is Kyo's school appliacation sheet. Looks like he had fun. ^-^

T.T I want Withering To Death so badly!!! I must hear Kyo-sama's melodic... er, obscure voice. :P I also want to get The Code of Vulgar[ism], the tour DVD of their adventures while singing different songs from their album Vulgar. Making all these italics are annoying. -_-;

Today was the writing test for me. It really sucked, the prompt was so boring. We had to write a letter to our principal of which of the improvments of our school we would like the most out of the following- A picnic area, new equipment for the gym, or laptop computers for the students to check out- and why. It was really stupid and a load of crap. I hated it. I still think the government is out to get us students. And squirells are out to get me... *eye twitches* You see, when I was a young lass, I was a girl scout (SHUT UP, BAKAS!!!) and when I went to go to the bathroom on a camping trip once, I saw a squirell and it looked at me like it wanted to eat me. I got really scared and I ran away screaming. Everyone calls me "Squirells" because of that incident. -_-; Oh, god. I'm reflecting on my childhood. I truly am going insane. 0.0

Today I was bored so I decided to see if I like Naraku's (from InuYasha) voice in Japanese or English. And I must say, Paul Dobson has a GREAT voice that makes me want to melt everytime I hear it, but sometime it has little high-pitched kinks in it that make me want to kill him for doing that to Naki-sama (hai, I call Naraku Naki... I'm not crazy, shut up! >_<). However, Toshiyuki Morikawa has the same deep voice as Paul Dobson, but his has more tone to it. He doesn't have the little kinks in his voice that make me want to go on a homicidal rampage and he does a great job in catching Naraku's character. Also, he's Japanese. ^_^ So, everyone give a big hand to Toshiyuki Morikawa!!! :P


Sorry it's so small, it was a really weird image search, though. o.0

Can I put up pictures now? You know, even if you say no, I'll still do it? Okay, I knew that you would agree. ^^


Spiffy pic, no?


This little inu comes up in every Naraku image search. Isn't it cute? ^^


Muhahahaha... fear the almighty Naraku with a topnot!!! >=)


Gotta love that glare.


Naraku in his tripped out kimono! No, I just kid. This is where he becomes... (spoiler) A FULL DEMON!!!


Aw... it's Hitomi Kagewaki, the prince Naraku controlled for quite a while. ^_^

Sorry that all of the pictures were of Naraku-kun. I'm just feeling very anime spaztic today. I'll rant later, 'kay. I gotta go lay down... X_X
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Monday, February 28, 2005

   WILL IT NEVER END?!
Okay, I know that Kei-chan told me to shrug it off, but I can't! My parents did it again!!! Yesterday we were watching a commercial for underprivledged children and a picture of a little asian girl smiling really wide came on. I started talking about how cute she was and my mother glared at me and said, "There are people up in the mountains that are starving!" I looked at her and told her that I knew and she said that it seemed like all I cared about was the asians! How dare she! I care about less fortunate people all over the world! If bloodandtears and I become famous, we plan on donating money to people and animals all over the world that don't have the riches like normal people and we have been planning things like that ever since 5th grade. In 5th grade, we were planning on building a school and making it a pleasant atmosphere. And I know for a fact that I give more money to charities than she does and I'm only a teenager. She had no right to talk to me like I was heartless. Also, my father was watching Braveheart and he said that if he could, he would grow out his hair to Braveheart's length. I looked at him skeptically and said, "And you pick on my j-rockers why about their hair?" He got really angry and he started screaming about how they style their hair like women, wear dresses, wear high heels, and crap like that. IT'S THEIR CHOICE AND THIS IS WHAT I LIKE SO THEY NEED TO SHUT THEIR FREAKING MOUTHS!!! After that I shut myself in my room and listened to Dir en Grey and finished coloring Kyoko's kimono and wings. Then they acted like nothing happened. When we went to Jack in the Box for lunch, they asked me what was wrong. WHAT KIND OF IMBECILE FOOL WOULD ASK THAT AFTER WHAT THEY HAD DONE?! I told them and then I ran in the bathroom and locked myself in a stall and cried. I'm tiered of being teased by my family and everyone else around me. Home is where you're supposed to feel safe and where you are accepted. Instead I just want to run away. It's not fair. I don't want to be a teenager. I want to go back to believing in everything. I want to go back to when I would be afraid that there was a monster under my bed and my parents would let me sleep in their bed and I would feel safe in their arms. I want to back when everything was alright. After that, we went back home and I posted on the internet and my mother yelled at me for not getting off when she told me to. I ran in my room and locked myself in there for about three hours. I wrote, I listened to Dir en Grey on my stereo instead of headphones as a sign of rebelion, I layed on my bed staring at the ceiling, I read a magazine, and I took pictures. I took pictures of all my asian trinkets, my plushies, my anime trading cards, my mangas, and myself looking miserable. I finally came out of my room to eat dinner and paint my fingernails black and take a shower. After that I went to bed. I'm still angry at my parents.

Today was a snow day so I suppose I'm feeling better. I got to sleep in until noon but my mother woke me up. I ate a grilled cheese sandwich, listened to Dir en Grey, watched my brother watch The Proud Family, and here I am on the computer. I'm listening to Evanescese to fit my angsty mood I'm currently harboring. Hopefully it will fade soon. The snow outside is already melting. What a pity, I'm always happy when the snow is in the grass. But now it's gone. I also feel like I'm getting sick, the third time this year. I think I'm gonna watch Saw and The Ring to cheer myself up. Maybe I'll watch some episodes of Invader Zim and The Nightmare Before Christmas as well. Maybe even Army of Darkness as well. I have way too much spare time. -_-; Here are pictures for you all to enjoy and a big "SCREW YOU!!! to my parents. Please enjoy.

Harleyquin Mana-san. :P


Aww... sleepy Mana. ^^


The entire group


So colorful.. X_X


MALICE MIZER PLUSHIES!!! How kawaii... ^^ *hugs*


The true colors of Malice Mizer.


Gackt was unwise to leave Malice Mizer, but you have to admit that he is doing well on his own... and is hot. ^o^

I think this post has been long enough. Sorry to ramble on. Sayonara.
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Sunday, February 27, 2005

   *sigh* Hello.
Hi, everyone. I'm sorry that the post yesterday was so long, but I had to get some things off of my chest. Today I am really angry too so I will probably have a long post today too.

Last night bloodandtears wasn't able to spend the night because her parents wanted her to go skiing with them on Sunday. SHE HAS TO GET UP AT 6:30 IN THE MORNING. What kind of parents do that? Luckily, they let her come over for two hours. We watched Saw and ate a lot of candy and she ate popcorn. (When we left, I gave her a lot of candy to smuggle back home because her parents are health freaks.) Saw was an awesome movie and anyone who hasn't seen it needs to. If your parents disagree because it's rated R, tell them it teaches life lessons such as don't smoke, don't do drugs, don't have affairs, etc. It's awesome and really hardcore. If you can't take blood or people fishing through intestines to look for a key, this movie isn't for you. I still like it though. ^^ Last night's InuYasha episode was gay, for the second week in a row. I bet next week's episode is going to be stupid too. I mean, what kind of a demon is a HAIR demon?! God, I hate that crap!!! I hope Naraku or Sesshomaru show up soon so the episodes will stop sucking. -_-;


Naraku, the masochist and my dark overlord. *bows*

Last night I also started drawing a picture of Kyoko, the mascot of Blak Angel, the band that bloodandtears and I are planning on starting. I'm still coloring her kimono. -_-;

I would tell you guys about my day, my stupid parents are making me get off. I HATE THEM. Bye.
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Saturday, February 26, 2005

   J-rockers...
Last night I read an article on The Ring Two and how other Japanese movies came to America. It was pretty cool, I guess. I can't wait for that to come out in theaters, though. My family went to Wendy's for dinner because everything else was packed (ew... greasy fast food >,<) and I read it there because the line was really long. When we started eating I was humming Malice Mizer's Beast of Blood and my parents asked me what I was singing, so I told them. Then they and my brother went on this whole entire rant about how they think j-rockers are homosexuals and look like girls and wish they were half as succesful as American bands. I started screaming at them in the middle of Wendy's and this old man started staring at me like he was really scared. I told them that they weren't open to Japanese culture and if they didn't like what I liked, that was just too bad because this is who I am and they can shut up. They continued to badger me and I slammed my head on the table and screamed, "NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME BUT MELODY (bloodandtears)!" They were quiet after that. I'm so tired of this crap. They do it to me EVERY DAY AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM. And they wonder why I used to cut myself. Once we finished eating, we went to Target and got a birthday card for my friend Rachel and my mom got some consealer for me because staying up 'till 3 a.m. is really taking it's toll. After that, we went to Blockbuster and I got Saw. I haven't watched it yet, I'm waiting until bloodandtears and I can watch it together because that's the only way she can see it. My father also bought me a Fangoria magazine with an article on The Ring Two. I think it was a peace offering, but I was still angry. Last night I also watched Malice Mizer's Beast of Blood PV because I've had it stuck in my head all week. I also instaled a link to it, but you have to be really patient because it takes a long time to load, but it is well worth the wait.

Today I got ready for the party and listened to Dir en Grey while I read Fangoria. All I really read today was an article about this Sundance film called Dead Birds. It sounds really cool. It takes place in the cival war and it's about these soldiers that rest in a haunted house with many spirits lurking about. When there were people living in the house, the wife of the husband that lived there died. He was utterly heartbroken so he began to practice different occult rituals to bring her spirit back. He would sacrafice the slaves he had and when he killed them all, he bought more and continued the slaughter. I believe that he practiced the ritual until he died. But for a Sundance film, the special effect were breathtaking. I showed the spirits to my dad because he is terrified of horror movies while I just smiled at the little child with gouged out eyes, rotting flesh, and a fanged pair of teeth. I personally thought it was quite cute. Anyhow, at the place they were shooting Dead Birds, strange occurences began happening. For instance, there was a bridge that the cast walked over called "Cry Baby Bridge" because it was a spot where a mother drowned her baby and they swore they heard crying. Also, one of the crew members asked his friend to take a picture of him near the barn and in the photograph, there was a person hanging from the roof. When they looked at the barn the next day, there was nothing left but a red smear. Spooky, eh?

I went to Rachel's birthday party today and it was really fun when we were at her house and we attempted to play pool and darts. I ended up throwing darts at the dart board and having them fly off and stick into the carpet, so I stopped. And I got to have a piece of cake for breakfast/lunch! Yay. ^_^ After that, we went to the bowling alley because that's where her birthday party was and we started making up all these "ball jokes." It was great. I would scream things like "my balls are too heavy" or crap like that. It was really fun. ^_^ (Except for the bowling part... -_-;) Rachel's older sister took a balloon and sucked the helium out of it, it was so funny. She started talking sort of high pitched and her eyes were really big. Everyone started laughing. Bloodandtears was really hyper today because she started dancing and stuff like that, I got a little consearned. After bowling, we went back to Rachel's house and I played with her cat, Malley, who is really sweet. I would scratch her behind the ears and she'd flop down on my feet, it was really funny and cute. I love animals. ^^ I was going to post some pictures up, but the computer shut down on me. Gomen nisai. :/ See you guys later.

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Friday, February 25, 2005

   Randomness
Hello everyone. I guess I'm pretty happy today, but a little weary. Bloodandtears isn't sure if she can come over to my house this weekend because her family is going snowboarding again. Curse the board of snow!!! Curse it!!! Oh, today bloodandtears made up names for us. Her name is Chiyuki and my name Shiyume. Chiyuki means "BloodSnow" and Shiyume means "DeathDream." Pretty, ne? ^^

Today I had no homework so I am very thankful and happy, blah, blah, blah. Stupid teachers. But on the way to school I almost cried because there was a dead dog on the side of the road and he had a collar on. He must have been hit by a car but nobody care enough to drag him out. His owners will never be able to feel his tongue against their face anymore... they will never be able to throw a ball and have it returned to them by him. They will never see him again. It was a beautiful golden retriver and he wasn't completly grown. I know that I'm going on and on about this dog that I don't even know, but I think animals deserve this world more than we do and it really upsets me to see an animal killed by a human's ignorance. Also, I have a dog of my own that has been with me before childhood and if I were to lose him... I don't know what I would do. Poor dears... they all deserved to be offered salvation.

Today we were studying poetry and everyone was being stupid. It really made me mad. Not many people understand the significance and beauty of poetry. So I got all "inspired" and I wrote a song. Here it is.

Sakebu
So cold and alone
Why did you leave me?
My heart coated with ice
My eyes void-like
In a blank stare
Reality is blurring
Where did you go?

I can't hear you
Over the screams, my darling
I can't feel you
You're so far away
I can't see you
Have you left me?
I can't taste your tears
Please don't leave me here

The snow outside
Reminds me of
The days we spent together
Laughing and kissing
Our frostbiten faces
Glowing with love
But now it's gone

I can't hear you
Over the screams, my darling
I can't feel you
You're so far away
I can't see you
Have you left me?
I can't taste your tears
Please don't leave me here

Paint myself crimson
To be with you
You still remind me
Of the red razor
Never leaves my mind
We can be together now

I can't hear myself
Over the screams

Just incase you guys are wondering, "Sakebu" means "Scream" in Japanese. Anyway, bloodandtears sent me a gallery of Nightmare, the j-rock band that is more hyper than 5 year olds on crack. Here are some pics!


Hitsugi-kun!!! Isn't he hot? ^^


Ouch. Those piercings must have hurt. >_<


Hitsugi wearing a paperhat. ^^


Yay! Yomi-kun!!! So hentai. ~.^


Yomi is so crazy. I love it. ^^


Hitsugi-kun and little doggies. ^o^


Someone's toe... bloodandtears usually draws on my feet. ^^


o.0 I think this is Yomi pretending to be a dog....

Bloodandtears and I are almost identical to Nightmare because we're hentai and more hyper than 5 year olds on crack. Especially when you give me chocolate... ^^ Yum... I'm eating a bag of raw ramen but the powder is kinda spicy... my lips are burning. >_< I gotta go, homies. Peace out in the hishouse, G! :P

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

   HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHINYA!!!
Yup. Today is Shinya-kun's (from Dir en Grey) birthday. I think he will be 27 or 28 today, I am not sure... Anyway, we are all very thankful for the rockin' drummer of Dir en Grey! And his little doggie that keeps him motivated and Die who always picks on him, but in a cute way. ^^







Sorry for the lack of pictures... there aren't many Shinya fans out there. Today bloodandtears wasn't able to make name tags for Shinya's birthday, but that's okay. I announced it to everyone I knew. Since it was Shinya-kun's birthday, I crimped half of my hair like in the first picture and people stared at me more often than they usually do... oh, well. Screw them. Mr. McCrackhead and my orchestra are being more annoying than usual. I think they're begging me to kill them. Mr. McCrackhead gave out homework again and my orchestra teacher was harping on me about my clothes again. I was wearing all black today, but I usually wear black pants or a black shirt everyday and she looked me up and down and said, "What's with all the black?" I just gritted my teeth and said that I wear black everyday, in case she hadn't noticed. Bovine imbecile. Bloodandtears decided that we were going to save up all of our money and buy j-rock CDs and DVDs. Our total is $350. Quite an amount, eh? We are thinking of opening up an LEMONed aid stand (Heh heh, we love Hide-sama) and putting nicatine in the LEMONEDed aid so that they will keep on coming back. I don't know how we'll get the nicatine, though... o.0

I don't think I have anything else to say except that bloodandtears will come over this weekend and we'll get to go to Rachel's birthday party. Yay! Hopefully bloodandtears and I will be able to put some nonsense up on here. Gotta go... later.
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

   New layout!
Hello, little peoples. Do you like my new look? It's Mana from Malice Mizer, isn't he gorgeous? (Eh... that sounds kind of odd when you're talking about a male, isn't it? o.0) I hope you guys do because I was getting a little tired of the Dir en Grey background and everyone voted for Mana when asked who wanted what background. Hope all of you that didn't vote are happy with it.

Today in sex ed. we learned about STDs. It was so repulsing that I asked my teacher to go use the bathroom just because I couldn't stand it anymore. So disgusting... >_< Luckily, tommorow the boys and girls will be split up into different classrooms so bloodandtears and I can totally ignore the teacher and babble about j-rockers and the crap that we usually talk about. YAY. ^_^

Today I had homework in 5 different subjects today. I swear, the teachers are trying to kill us. And I have a question for everyone. WHAT KIND OF BARBARIAN FOOL GIVES OUT HOMEWORK IN STUDY SKILLS?! I mean, it wasn't hard, but come on! Mr. McCrackhead apparently has been hitting the rocks harder lately.

I listened to Dir en Grey today so I am happy. Perhaps I will watch Malice Mizer's Beast of Blood PV to satisfy my j-rock hunger. Speaking of j-rock, bloodandtears gave me some really kawaii pics of Nightmare today, most of them with Yomi and Ruka. But Hitsugi is so adorable! Even if he does scare people with his makeup and piercings on...



In conclusion, I had a fairly decent day considering all the crap other people go through. I'm worried about Purgatory... she's so miserable. Poor thing.

OH! Before I forget, please visit Nippon Fever, I site hosted by Kei-chan and one of her friends. It's on MyO and it's very cool. So please be a friend and visit their site! I gotta go. Bye, crazies. See you later.
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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

   Hello.
Hello, everyone. Sorry I didn't get to do a long post yesterday, it was just that kind of day. Today was odd. I can't think of any other word to describe it. I mean, it was good, but I wouldn't say that it was the best day of my life either.

In intramurals, bloodandtears and I were sitting in the stands and she was showing me the pictures she drew over the break and she drew a hentai one! It was so funny because the rest of the day we were screaming "HENTAI!!!" in the halls and no one had no idea what we were saying. Also, we tried to see who could do it the fastest, it was fun. ^^ Today I had to start study skills with Mr. McCrackhead (the student's affectionate name for him). He is so annoying. Every few seconds he says, "Quite down, children. Settle down." in this little gay voice and he bounces up on his feet. I made an immitation of him and bloodandtears loved it. ^_^ Also, today was progress report day. *shudders* Luckily, I made all A's. Yatta! ^.^ Today was the first day in Sex ed. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, but it's just embarassing talking about it to a teacher and with all your classmates in the room. Stupid school. Ov coarse, I suport edukation. :P

I'm so bored! I listened to Breaking Benjamin today but I need Japanese music! JAPAN!!! X_X Kill me now.

I want to change my theme because I am growing tired of looking at it. I mean, I love Dir en Grey and all, I just need a new wallpaper. If you were to vote on the following themes, that would be great.

+Due Le Quartz
+Miyavi
+Malice Mizer
+Mana
+Another Dir en Grey wallpaper
+Any other J-rock band

Thanks! I don't think I have anything else to babble about so I shall give you the power of J-rock!!! ^^


Toshiya-kun... so kawaii...


Die pimpin' out his zombie look.


Wassat?!


Kyo-kun is so kawaii! ^^


I love Shinya and his fluffiness!


0.0 Kyo's scary without his makeup.


Kaoru-san!

Hopefully my parents will let bloodandtears come over this weekend and we shall watch Saw. I want to see that, Constantine, and Boogeyman. Oh, yeah, all those and The Ring Two when it comes out. The previews looks awesome! ^^ Sorry, I'm a movie junkie. Gotta go.
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Monday, February 21, 2005

   Konnichiwa....
Sorry I wasn't on all weekend, I had spent the night at a friend's house and I had to return TONS of guestbook signings. X_X Ugh... did you guys see the InuYasha episode on Adult Swim on Saturday? OMG, it was so GAY!!! I hate Koga and Ayame is gorgeous, but stupid! And Naraku-kun wasn't in it!!! I would erase this episode from my memory if I could!!! Grr...

Sorry, everyone. I must be PMSing or something... -_-; I'm thinking of changing my background. I love it, but I'm getting tired of it.

I gotta go. My mom finally gave me my computer privlages back and I want to keep them. WHY MUST I GET OFF?! Eh... I gotta go. See you guys later.
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Friday, February 18, 2005

   'Tis the sleepy one...
Konnichiwa, peoples. I woke up at 11:00 today, which is early so I could get on MyO. I'm always happy when I'm on MyO or with bloodandtears. Perhaps that is why I have been so ridiculously preppy lately... it's sort of making me sick. I haven't done much, just basically visiting people's sites and posting tons of Dir en Grey quizzes up.... watching The Nightmare Before Christmas (one of my favorite movies) and listening to Dir en Grey. I'm really angry at Fuse, the t.v. channel. They keep on playing a bunch of poser's music videos. For instance, I listened Dir en Grey because I couldn't stand listening to Story of the Year's "Sidewalks" or My Chemical Romance (no one please take offence to me mentioning these bands. I realise that everyone has their own opinion and I respect that. I'm so sorry, Purgatory! T.T). I HATE THEM. AND I HATE POSERS. I think I may be turning into a poser... -_-;

Last night I was reallly angry because at Aikido I had to work with a little kid that almost broke my arm, caused carpet burns on my chin because he threw me so hard, and laughed whenever I groaned in pain. I want to quit Aikido because it's taking up all of my spare time, I'm not learning anything, and I'm tired of doing my sensei's work. I'm tired of it, this is a load of crap. Anyway, I blew off some steam by drawing a picture of a girl and it sort of looked like me or bloodandtears. A lot of people ask us if we are sisters and her father even said that we looked alike... I don't think that's a bad thing though, because I think bloodandtears is beautiful even though I'm really ugly. But bloodandtears said that I was really pretty for an american chick, so that made me feel good. I wish I were asian though, they are gorgeous. I'm rambling now, aren't I? Gomen nisai... -_-;

Here is a random quiz result.


You are.......Die's shoulder pads!! You're just
frightening...


What random Dir en Grey fashion-don't are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

*shudders* Those shoulder pads are scary. Last time I took it, I was Kyo's radioactive rabies. So kawaii! ^^ My brother is watching Kangaroo Jack right now. I utterly dispise that movie... grr.

I'm really worried about Purgatory. She tells me not to worry about her, but I can't help it. She has tons of crap loading down on her and I can't stand to see her this way. I've been looking up wicca spells to help her... (yes, I am wiccan and if you have something to say about it, say it to my face. I dare you.) Hopefully I will find something and everything will be alright... I'm just really worried.

Who0t!!! It's a 4 day weekend! That's the only time I'm reallly thankful for out presidents' births... -_-;

I can't think of anything to say. Perhaps I'll post up pictures of j-rockers later. Bye.


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