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Tuesday, March 8, 2005

   Hello, what's your name? I believe I've lost mine...
Hello. I feel numb today. Why is it coming like this? Last night I couldn't take my mind off of my ex-boyfriend. I kept on thinking about our first kiss together... I even wore the bracelet he gave today. Pathetic, eh? I just can't erase him from my past. My relationships always end up this way... Yesterday at my psychiatrist, I had to name all of the things I hated about myself and explain why I felt that way. I ended up crying for no reason. I guess it was because I wouldn't feel numb. I can feel my eye ache when I cry. Last night I cried when I thought about my ex-boyfriend too. He told me he loved me countless times and then he would ignore me at school. I know that he would want to keep our relationship a secret, but it hurt. Deeply. Today seemed to drag on forever. I wish it was the end of the world. It took me about 4 hours to finish a poetry project for reading. At least I got to listen to Dir en Grey and D'espairsRay. I hurt, but at the same time I can't feel it. Like when you're foot's asleep and you feel pain rush through it. I can't describe it... I don't know what to do. I think I'll rub ice on my wrists and snap rubber bands across my wrists to keep my mind off of cutting. Bad habit.


I feel that the other me is rising inside of me...

Sorry the post was so short. I had to post on bloodandtears's site and I had to finish that stupid project. I'll try making it longer tommorow. Sayonara.
+Shiyume is in her own DeathDream+
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