Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Today.. Sucked. But I had a huge smile on my face in the beginning of 9th period for no reason at all, which was creepy... But my attitude changed back to "please shoot me" so yeah... My english class is super fucking annoying, annoying enough that if my teacher doesn't start sending people out of the room, I'll try to get a green slip.. By any means necessary. I'm a good student, but when someone pisses me off, or if a teacher treats me like shit.. Oh they'll regret it. I'm gonna try and get my computer formatted tonight... Maybe that'd fix some problems on this piece of shit. I was reminded of something very painful today, which put me in a upset mood, and I ended up going down a street on the way home that is.. a reminder of that painful something too.. So yeah... Hopefully work won't be so bad today. Thats all I guess.
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Sunday, January 29, 2006

^___^ I just had to best sleep ever. I feel so happy, and so.. refreshed.. All because of something that someone said... Man, I hope work goes by quick today!
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The show was aweeesome! I was totally into it! Ended up taking Ryan instead of Trevor, because he had other things to do.. But it was cool. Had fun.. ^_^;; Well, thats all.
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Friday, January 27, 2006

God today was fucking awesome... Mike said nigger in burger king, and there was like 20 black people there and they really wanted to beat him up.. Was hilarious... I walked into a group of angry black people to talk to this one guy I knew and I was like, "Jay.. I really don't want anything to happen to my friend, please don't let anything happen, he was just joking around." then this little guy came up and he really wanted to fight Mike, and I was like, "what the fuck, you say it all the fucking time, so don't get bothered when someone else says it!" I got scared after that, but luckily, Jay cleared everyone out... Man.. That was funny but scary. Went to Jims.. I think Melissa hates me... She gave me death glares and rolled her eyes at me.. ._.; I got kinda worried. I don't want to get in a fight with her, but hopefully Amber is gonna try to straighten things out between me and her.. But I had loads of fun talking to Eric today.. ^_^ Which also helped my day at work go faster because I was super happy.. Haha, I can't wait til tomorrow. Jons party and the show. I'm gonna be going with Tammy, Eric and Trevor. Its gonna be awesome, I really can't wait to see the show and see Jim in it! Well, thats all for now!
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Thursday, January 26, 2006

Today wasn't as fun as yesterday, but it was pretty cool. Two easy exans.. One mid-term, one final. ^__^ I got to "work" at Jims for a bit.. lol I was behind the counter and Allan had me put some money in the cash register. Also I was helping him put some nintendo games away. Allan also said he'd teach me how to play some cool songs on the guitar! Hes soo cool ^___^ I'm gonna go there tomorrow. I don't have any exams soo I think I'll show up for attendance. I don't know what I'll do after that tho.. I saw Mike Pasun at Jims! I haven't seen him in FOREVER! I was sooo excited. He walked in and I was like ":stare: He looks kinda familiar" He looks different from how he did before! I was shocked. He needed to bum $20 off me, but I'll get it back when I go to Jims tomorrow, because he traded in some video game stuff but the store didn't have any cash, so he got a "raincheck" kind of thing. So he gave that to me and Allans gonna give me the 20 tomorrow, so its all cool. After I get that back I'll have 95 dollars!! Sooo close to getting that DS, sooo close... I want it soo badly. ^_^;; Hopefully I can get the teal one, if not, I'd be kinda saaad because I want a cool color. Yep yep.. I was kinda bummed out because I didn't get to see Eric today, oh well.. Its not like I'm gonna die if I don't see him, ya'know? Well.. Guess thats all for now, see ya.
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Today I got to sleep in late, yeeess.. My second history exam.. blah I did bad on it like majorly. Went to Jims.. Had super fun.. ^_^ Josh was there, Antonio, Mike, Eric, and other people. Eef showed up later.. But, I had tons and tons of fun thanks to someone. Not mentioning any names.. I played some Soul Calibur III and was doing pretty good for it only being my 4th time ever playing it.. >_> I hope Roseanna gets me the game for my birthday like she said she was gonna. Sometimes I can't rely on her tho. Jim said hes gonna get a teal Nintendo DS in for me! Yay! Two week baby <_< Two weeks.. Man I want one sooo badly... Man I'm super happy about today... Well, I'm gonna go take a bath ^___^ Because I can and baths are awesome! So yeah, thats all for this post. Later.
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

myOtaku is being a bitch and not letting me upload a new picture! Anyway.. Had Math and English exams today.. I think I did okay.. Maybe not tho. I'm tired but gotta go to work in 2 hours and 18 minutes... Maybe I'll take a nap.. ^_^ I get to go in late tomorrow, which means... I get to sleep until 9! Wahoo! So yeah, thats all for today.. Matta ne.
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Monday, January 23, 2006

Maaan. I just woke up from a wonderful wonderful nap. From like 4pm to 10pm.. That felt nice. I gotta start preparing for my english exam thats tomorrow.. I gotta write a freakin' big essay which my teacher will grade pretty tough. Luckly I'm kinda good at essays.. But she doesn't know that.. >_> I've never done an essay before in her class, because, well... I'm lazy. Yep.. Marine Bio wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.. Nope.. And History I kinda wanted to fail. I rushed through it so I could sleep... So yeah, I should start preparing for english now, and probably math... Buh byes.
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Saturday, January 21, 2006

Haven't posted in a while.. Oh well.. ^__^ I've been having fun lately. I get sad at times, but my friends always know how to pick me up sometimes! I went to Pets Plus to get a name tag for Eric, because I'm gonna make him a collar.. Haha.. Well, I ended up buying two rats and a cage instead. ^^ took them to Jims, everyone loved them. Jim was like, "Hell yeah those Rats are welcome in here!" It was pretty cool. I decided not to go to the Junior Prom unless I get asked, it'll be such a pain anyway. And I'd have to find a date soon, so I would have time to actually plan.. Totally don't think thats gonna happen.. My brother wants me to play ffxi again, but I don't really think I should.. Also.. I've been pretty happy thanks to one person. ^__^ I shall not say any names.. but yeah. I'm totally just chillin' round my house with Yuki on my shoulder (my white rat.. my sister likes Zelda, the other rat). Its amazing. My dad doesn't mind, and my mom doesn't mind. Yay! Oh well thats all for now. I gotta work tomorrow and I have midterms starting on Monday, oh joy! See ya!
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Monday, January 2, 2006

I want to be the wind...
A wind like a breath...
At times,
I want to be the wind that fights against you...
The wind that dires your tears...
Or the wind that eases your tiredness.
I want to be a wind like that.
And I want to fly.
I want to sweep up the sadness,
And spread happiness.
When you're sad,
Just cry. I'll be there.
When you're happy,
Just call. I'll be there.
There are times that you get tired.
There are times that you hold back your tears.
So in times like that,
I'm going to come flying down to you...
So hold me in your ares gently.


Up until now, there has been some bad times, lonely times, happy times and really great times... Looking back on the past year, it'll always be in my memories. I won't look back on the past with regrets anymore, I am going to look proudly forward, and back at the past with a fond smile. I'm not going to just let myself be sad without a fight, I'll be strong and I won't hide my tears or hold them back. Being able to let those tears out is an act of courage. To be not scared to cry, is to be strong. To be able to say that you are lonely and not hide it, I believe that is being strong. But... I'm not alone. I may feel lonely at times, or even most of the time... But... I am not alone. I have my friends, and there will always be someone in my heart. All the things that have happened up til now, the sad, the happy, all of it is what makes us who we are.. And I don't see that as a bad thing. All these things that happen, don't make us weaker, but stronger. It builds who we are, and I don't regret anything.

My new years resolutions are to truely be who I am and not hide anything anymore. I won't hide my tears, or my fears. I'm going to be strong, and support my friends without letting myself get any doubts about myself. I'm going to believe in myself, and have courage. I'm not going to be scared of the lonely night anymore... I'm going to walk forward and not look back with any regrets.



I'm going to believe in myself.
Even if I'm weak, lonely, or can't do anything...

I'm not all alone.

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