Friday, November 18, 2005

Wow. I have mad friends over... Antonio and Mike were over but had to leave at 6 pm.. lmao, and I borrowed Mike's pad.. Which i'm so glad I did.. Jess, Kristin, Samy, Chris(Vikis Boyfriend), Viki, Matt(who is supreme overlord over nothing), Roseanna, umm .. Jen!!! Playing some mad DDR... So.. uh..... yeah, thats all I'm writing xD
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Thursday, November 17, 2005

Had a hot date today... Was pretty hot. >_>
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

School... Wasn't exactly very fun... I've been missing my cat for a week, and I finally asked my mom about him the night before last... She wasn't ever gonna tell me my cat is dead! I'm just.. extremely hurt that she wasn't gonna tell me... And... extremely mad at myself for taking a week to notice... :Sigh: .. It was like this last time... Thats 3 cats in 3 years, gone.. My house is a lonely one now... Any animal I ever get close to dies. Guess I'm just cursed like that.. Well, just as happens that November 15th is the day my friend Justin hung himself, so not only was I depressed about my cat, but about him too.. Its been a whole year now... And I'm still having nightmares about it.... And thats why I haven't been getting too much sleep.. And.. In school, I said something that came out wrong, so now Pat is pissed off at me and twisting it in ways I didn't mean... My day kept getting worse it seemed... When I told my mom I wasn't feeling good and that I was gonna call out of work, she screamed at me and got pissed off.... Making me feel even worse... Also, when people say "Its gonna be okay." or get worried about me, it only makes me feel worse. Worse. I wish people would understand that. I'm not like other people, I don't have anyone to lean on, and its causing my emotions to just... take me over. I know I have friends, but I just can't lean on them, thats not what I mean... I just need someone to give me confidence and strength, but whenever I find someone who can, it.. just doesn't work out. I guess I'm just meant to be lonely in that way. Oh well, I'll survive, somehow. Well, after I called out of work, I just.. slept all day... So... Yeah, here I am now, almost 3 in the morning... Unable to sleep and feeling lonely... Well, at times like these I just need to walk forward without looking back. I'll try my best in doing that. I'll make sure that I have no more regrets from now on.
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Monday, November 14, 2005

Was super tired in school today.. And I seemed to run into Eff like after almost every period in the hallway, we were like, "wha the fuckkk?" Anyway, that was funny... After school I hung out with Antonio, Eff and some other people after school at Jims. xD That was hella funny... Antonio treated me to some ichigo ice-cream.. yay! But the funny thing was... I asked for strawberry ice-cream, and the guy asked "soft or hard?" the guys started cracking up, so I was like "hmmm..... Soft or hard... Tough choice.... I'll go for hard!" The guy was like, "whoa, bad girl. you have 4 guys too." I was laughing my ASS off!! ^^ And after he left we played some 007 on N64, that was fun as all hell. I hung out with pretty much just Eff after Antonio left. Me and Eff went to this crazy ass Chinese resturant because he was making these paper things... Made me a sponge-bob hat. I hate sponge-bob so after we left, I took it off and gave it to Eff. xD I used my ATM card for the first time, bought a cappucino and Eff a bag of chips and candy bar lol... After that Eff split. ^^ Hes uber cool. I need to hang out with him more often. Well, my dad picked me up at Wawa and... Here I am now! Maybe I'll go afterschool tomorrow too man, like before work.. But I gotta go to work at 5 so it would be very... short... Anyway, thats all for now, buh byes ^^
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Sunday, November 13, 2005

... Work yesterday and today, was, well... exhausting. My feeet hurt.... I just wanna lay down... @_@ Tomorrow at school, I won't be surprized if I slip into a few naps, Wednesday too since I work Tuesday nights.. Haha. Seen Phil today, and a couple other people.. Wasn't too bad.. Spent all my money, but I got my shiny card from the bank in the mail yesterday, and it has $50 on it. I can use it as a debit card I believe.. Not sure. Oh well... Thats all for now, see yas.. ^^
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Saturday, November 12, 2005

.. o.o; I'm not gonna use this too much... so uh... yeah. ... I have a journal on greatestjournal and a myspace.. if you want those, just IM me... yeah... >_>;
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