Monday, January 2, 2006

I want to be the wind...
A wind like a breath...
At times,
I want to be the wind that fights against you...
The wind that dires your tears...
Or the wind that eases your tiredness.
I want to be a wind like that.
And I want to fly.
I want to sweep up the sadness,
And spread happiness.
When you're sad,
Just cry. I'll be there.
When you're happy,
Just call. I'll be there.
There are times that you get tired.
There are times that you hold back your tears.
So in times like that,
I'm going to come flying down to you...
So hold me in your ares gently.


Up until now, there has been some bad times, lonely times, happy times and really great times... Looking back on the past year, it'll always be in my memories. I won't look back on the past with regrets anymore, I am going to look proudly forward, and back at the past with a fond smile. I'm not going to just let myself be sad without a fight, I'll be strong and I won't hide my tears or hold them back. Being able to let those tears out is an act of courage. To be not scared to cry, is to be strong. To be able to say that you are lonely and not hide it, I believe that is being strong. But... I'm not alone. I may feel lonely at times, or even most of the time... But... I am not alone. I have my friends, and there will always be someone in my heart. All the things that have happened up til now, the sad, the happy, all of it is what makes us who we are.. And I don't see that as a bad thing. All these things that happen, don't make us weaker, but stronger. It builds who we are, and I don't regret anything.

My new years resolutions are to truely be who I am and not hide anything anymore. I won't hide my tears, or my fears. I'm going to be strong, and support my friends without letting myself get any doubts about myself. I'm going to believe in myself, and have courage. I'm not going to be scared of the lonely night anymore... I'm going to walk forward and not look back with any regrets.



I'm going to believe in myself.
Even if I'm weak, lonely, or can't do anything...

I'm not all alone.

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