Wednesday, June 16, 2004

   hrrrrrrmmmm

Hmmmm, I'm even more pissed at that person today...feel like just going to bed.

Thanks for the feedback 'bout the poem. I'm happy that you liked it.

I'm gonna go to bed now, cause im tired as hell and i don't think im gonna be able to stay standing...or sitting...watever...Im hungry...haven't eaten anything yet

I'm gonna go...

<(=Y~Y=)> say bye sad kitty

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

   Yay!!!

Lots of things today. 1st, I LOVE!!! my friend. She is the greatest. My birthday is coming up soon and she bought me the 2nd book from the Chobits manga series. They didn't have the 1st so she ordered it for me ^_^ It's in french, but that's ok cause I understand most of it. At least it's not a DVD or else i'd be lost :S But she's so sweet. I gave her a great big hug. Her birthday is 4 days before mine, so i'm gonna buy her a poetry book. Her fav. poet, if I can find it.

I'm a bit pissed at someone at the moment. A "friend" of mine who thinks she's always right has to just screw my life up...Every day. Today she decided to get ahead of herself and make an ass out of her, not me, just her. She assumes too much and is getting on my last nerves. I feel like slapping her.

But, then, um, to not dwell on the negative. I wanted to say something to someone here on myotkau:

angeleyes: HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!

She's always so nice and always hopes me and wishes me a great day. So now it's my turn. (I don't know if she knows but it makes me smile everytime I see it :blush:)

Now, the final thing. I'm going to post a poem. Nice comments were made in relation to my last poem post and so i decided to post again. Atlen's begging also helped ;P ... It's a poem I like very much but that at first may seem a bit negative...or very negative. But for me its quite positive. The ending is why. You have to read it to find out. So, here goes:

...:Train:...

I'm sitting at the train station
Staring into nothing...
Feelings of hate, anger, sorrow and self-pity come over me
My broken mind lays helpless inside me
The only way I can fix it; the only way for it to mend is if it were to be inside my broken body...
I: my tainted self.
I search for freedom
For the end of my pain
I find myself in a weakened state...
In a rare moment of unconsciousness I stand
I lift my body from the cold seat and I make my way to the platform's edge
Still staring into nothing I regain my consciousness and jump down onto the train tracks
My strange act is seen by some
Confused stares turn to frantic screams as the sound of an approaching train grows louder
A swell of tears and courage come over me as I make my way down the track and towards the train;
Towards my release.
In a single moment a lifetime of memories flashes before my eyes;
Happy memories, sad memories...
Tears and smiles, hate and anger, love and loneliness...
I open my eyes
I see the blinding light in the darkness...
I take my last breath and open my arms
Embracing this speeding silver bullet;
Embracing my fears and my sadness, my hate and my despair.
Embracing my end.

...

My shattered body lies in a pool of blood, on these cold train tracks
I can see myself...
Then I realize it;
I realize the sweet truth...

I am free.

I am finally free...

What do you think? Please comment.

I'm gonna go lay down now, cause it's my first day of freedom: no more tests or assignments. I was able to finish my assignment for history of art but i only finished at half past midnight and then i had more to do in the morning. But i handed it in so its all good. Not really, cause im pissed off but watever.

Tell me what you think, i hope you all have a nice day.

<(=^_^=)> Kitty says bye bye *waves*

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Monday, June 14, 2004

   Poem info

The poem in the last post is sort of unfinished, cause what I posted is what I liked from the original. So when you read it it tends to go from one part straight to another. I have more poems, one that I especially like. I just don't know if I should post them or not. The one I especially like is sorta. Well, I might post and show you. For now I have to work. 10 page assignment on funerary and religious egyptian arquitecture *mumbles under breath...* I have to hand it in tomorrow. Note: never leave 10 page long assignments, in which you have promised to do a hell of a lot (cause it's not just arquitecture. It's bout the religion and stuff also) and in a different language might I add, to the last day. It's not healthy. Talk to you later. *hugs*

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Sunday, June 13, 2004

   Here: --> Poem Modification

I wrote a poem to put on DevArt but it won't let me post so I'm putting it here. There's something wrong with their server that denies us the ability to post ;_;

Anyhoo, what better time to make my poetic debut here than now?! So here goes:

....:Let Me Drown:....

You lock my heart,
My body, my mind.
The key you take,
I'll never find.

You've torn my wings
And chained me down.
The drops of blood
They stain my gown.

You have her all
But still use me
A darkness here
Is all I'll be.

So now I sit
In a pool of tears.
No one will come
To take my fears.

You've killed me once,
Don't let me down.
Tear out my heart
And let me drown...

...Ok, what do you think? I'd really very much appreciate comments. Thanks.

That's all for now.

<(=^_^=)> Bye

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Friday, June 11, 2004

   ooooOOOOoooo

I tried with 2 names...they're both right...

What Kind Of Soul Do You Posess? by inuyashalkagome
Your Name:
You Are:	Calm
Your Talent:	I have no talent
Weapon You Use:	Magic
In A Bad Situation, You Would:	Fight
Your Favorite Color:	Black
People Think Of You As:	Laid back
Your Soul:	Happy
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

and

What Kind Of Soul Do You Posess? by inuyashalkagome
Your Name:
You Are:	Too happy
Your Talent:	I make friends easily
Weapon You Use:	I don't need a weapon
In A Bad Situation, You Would:	Talk things out
Your Favorite Color:	Purple
People Think Of You As:	Brave
Your Soul:	Heartbroken
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

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~~~~-^ OPPOSITE LOVE^-~~~~
Your love is wierd. You suddenly fell inlove or
have a cruch on an enemy or someone you though
you never date. You seem shy,silent,and nicer
to that person. tip,so you like an
enemy,oppisite always attrake.


LOVE SECTION, Whats your love type? very,very good pics.UPDATED
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That's all I guess...I think i've gotten worse...I can't lay down cause when I get up I have these strong painful dizzy feelings...yuuck...

Today, after school, I went to something called CAD '04 --> CAD -> Casa Decore. It's basically heaps of designers were invited to come and design a room each on 3 floors of a hotel. Basically, the ground floor was "made-over" then the 1st floor, the 2nd floor and some of the 3rd floor. They obviously had to pay for the space (I think) and then they decorate. SO BEAUTIFUL!!! Amazing rooms. My fave bedroom has a musical theme with elegant pink colours. It was called "Quarto de Princesa" (Princess Bedroom). You walk in and there's a small sitting room, with a nice classical theme and a big bass. You walk down this small corridor and to the left there's the bathroom (so nice) and then you continue to the bedroom. I was like O_O OMG!!! The bed beautiful Everything so classic and musical with beautiful elegant pinks. Like soft pinks nd deeper pinks (not Barbie pink...ick)... There was this huge mirror which was stained to make it look old. The varanda was beautiful. The door was to the right. You get out and to the left there's this big matress to sit on. There was this book and we all wrote really great things about it. Btw, the bed was like a Queen size bed. Very nice. There was a kitchen. Apple green walls. BEAUTIFUL!!! Truely amazing. The normal fee is 10 euros but we were told it was free so we "bargained". We said we were on an excursion. We were art students coming to check this out because we were exploring our options....It's all true except we were only 7 and it wasn't a real excursion. 2 of the ppl that went weren't art students, but whatever...

All in all I had a great day. I got a 14.5/20 in my Portuguese test (excellent....my grade raised)....then, the icing on the cake: i got 19.5/20 in philosophy!!! That's excellent. I was like O_O *_* O_O !!! I almost swore near the teacher when I recieved it. He said, before I went up: "everyone give a round of aplause to Joanna." Then when I sat down he complimented my work. He said I showed a very strong critical spirit (in Philosophy criticising isn't necisarilly a bad thing. It's more like judging something. Giving your opinion and presenting reasons and explanations). He said that I had very strong ideas and that it showed that I studied. He also said something like I'm a very persistent person. I find somthing and I never give up. I don't let go. You know those things that get stuck to ships that have been underwater for a long time. Like on the bottom of ships....He compaired me to that! xD It was sweet cause it's a positive comment and aparently lots of teachers say that about me! ^^



Well, I talk too much. I'm gonna go now. Bye!!!

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Thursday, June 10, 2004

   Sick....

Wow, I was really sick today. O_o didn't think I was that bad. I felt so icky today. I couldn't find a comfortable position. Everything was aching. When I came home from my friend's house I checked my temperature...O_O 38,01 degrees...I was shocked... And in pain. I went to bed and my mum (aww, so sweet) gave me a tablet (2 actually) and after I took them I couldn't fall asleep. The tablet was for the flu. What it does is it makes you sweat to bring down your temperature. My temperature sure did drop but it was so uncomfortable laying in bed sweating... I had to take the covers off and then I would get cold, so I put them on again. Such a vicious cycle. Anyway, I'm not completely healed but I'm getting there... Should get my Philosophy and my Portuguese tests back tomorrow. I think i'm going to go have a shower. Then i'll go to bed.

I've been thinking of my birthday, which is coming up...I don't want to do anything. I hardly want to have my actual birthday. I just want it to go by unnoticed. It's not that I don't want to turn 16, cause I do. I just don't want anyone to make a fuss about it. It's just another day to add to my life...another year gone by...so what?....anyway, still got to think about it...


Bye for now...

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Hmmmm

Girl next door! You're friendly and helpful! Your
boyfriends Mommy will love you! You're a
down-to-earth girl. You alway act natural and
fair! You love to dream and hang around with
friends. Fact: You're the kindest person on
this planet!


What's your female appeal? ( with pics! )
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LOL!!! I'm the nicest person on the planet?! ROFLOL...

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You are an Anime Cute girl. Nobody really kows you
for your looks, infact not many people do know
you, But if they did they woudl see that you
are a true artist and that your beautiful
artwork is meerly a representation of your
inner beauty.


What Kind of Anime Babe are You?
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Cool. I like this one...

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sleeper!
dreamland lady, in a realm all of ur own.
wake up and make that dreamland a reality.


what r u? (girlz) (anime pics)
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Cool

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Dragon Wings


What Kind of Wings are You?
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kewl

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That's all. I'm gonna go get ready to leave now. I'm a bit sick though. My throat feels swollen...whatever...Bye, be back later!...

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Wednesday, June 9, 2004

   hmmmmm

You have an intense kiss! You and your partner
connect when you kiss and you forget about the
rest of the world. Hey, call me!!! ^_~


What anime kiss are you?
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   The poem i thought i had lost....

You drift through life
Sad and lonely
Thinking no one cares
Your heart is weary
Soul is dreary
Dealing with their stares.

But what you think,
Your view on life,
The way you think they feel
Is not all true
They don't hate you
You just need time to heal.

Just so you know
You're not alone
I'll be here by your side
To help you out
When things are tough
In me you can confide.


--> It's missing the last verse...i can't remember it ;_;v

What do you think?

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   _ _; *sigh*

I have so many people around me that are depressed....i don't know what to do....When I talk to them they make me feel bad. They don't realise that they have heaps of people that care for them. ARGH.....












I don't know what to say... Bye

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