Tuesday, June 15, 2004

   Yay!!!

Lots of things today. 1st, I LOVE!!! my friend. She is the greatest. My birthday is coming up soon and she bought me the 2nd book from the Chobits manga series. They didn't have the 1st so she ordered it for me ^_^ It's in french, but that's ok cause I understand most of it. At least it's not a DVD or else i'd be lost :S But she's so sweet. I gave her a great big hug. Her birthday is 4 days before mine, so i'm gonna buy her a poetry book. Her fav. poet, if I can find it.

I'm a bit pissed at someone at the moment. A "friend" of mine who thinks she's always right has to just screw my life up...Every day. Today she decided to get ahead of herself and make an ass out of her, not me, just her. She assumes too much and is getting on my last nerves. I feel like slapping her.

But, then, um, to not dwell on the negative. I wanted to say something to someone here on myotkau:

angeleyes: HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!

She's always so nice and always hopes me and wishes me a great day. So now it's my turn. (I don't know if she knows but it makes me smile everytime I see it :blush:)

Now, the final thing. I'm going to post a poem. Nice comments were made in relation to my last poem post and so i decided to post again. Atlen's begging also helped ;P ... It's a poem I like very much but that at first may seem a bit negative...or very negative. But for me its quite positive. The ending is why. You have to read it to find out. So, here goes:

...:Train:...

I'm sitting at the train station
Staring into nothing...
Feelings of hate, anger, sorrow and self-pity come over me
My broken mind lays helpless inside me
The only way I can fix it; the only way for it to mend is if it were to be inside my broken body...
I: my tainted self.
I search for freedom
For the end of my pain
I find myself in a weakened state...
In a rare moment of unconsciousness I stand
I lift my body from the cold seat and I make my way to the platform's edge
Still staring into nothing I regain my consciousness and jump down onto the train tracks
My strange act is seen by some
Confused stares turn to frantic screams as the sound of an approaching train grows louder
A swell of tears and courage come over me as I make my way down the track and towards the train;
Towards my release.
In a single moment a lifetime of memories flashes before my eyes;
Happy memories, sad memories...
Tears and smiles, hate and anger, love and loneliness...
I open my eyes
I see the blinding light in the darkness...
I take my last breath and open my arms
Embracing this speeding silver bullet;
Embracing my fears and my sadness, my hate and my despair.
Embracing my end.

...

My shattered body lies in a pool of blood, on these cold train tracks
I can see myself...
Then I realize it;
I realize the sweet truth...

I am free.

I am finally free...

What do you think? Please comment.

I'm gonna go lay down now, cause it's my first day of freedom: no more tests or assignments. I was able to finish my assignment for history of art but i only finished at half past midnight and then i had more to do in the morning. But i handed it in so its all good. Not really, cause im pissed off but watever.

Tell me what you think, i hope you all have a nice day.

<(=^_^=)> Kitty says bye bye *waves*

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