Monday, March 12, 2007

   ???what happened???

On Saturday I was able to make it. Joe was just on time, but i wasn't able so save him a seat, but he did sit near by. After the last scene of the Act I(which was some weird sex scene, quite disturbing especially if u know the ppl) he sat next to me. I was so happy. we chit chat a bit about spoiled kids and Don Pablo and then the next Act begins. It was quite uncomfortable watching the lame, fake kissing scene with him next to me....ackward........then when the play ended to a unexplained ending he had to go right away. I was quite sad. I wish i could have been with him more.

then a crap load of crap happened today. First he ignores me in the morning then, i missed lunch with him, then i had to pay for a T-shirt i didn't really want for $16, then he ignored me in the hallway. It blew my top. I was going to tell him. At the end of the day, he comes up to me and says 'hey.' That's all he ever says to me, unlike his other friends he actually has something to tell them. I say enthusiastically "ohayo!" and that's when i started to hope for a chance in my decision. We talked and i followed him upstairs, then he ignores me for some reason. that's when it began...

(i tap his shoulder. He hushes me for a moment and then listens)
Me: joe, i have another present for you^^(i gave him a lot this year...)
Joe: How come you give so many presents
Me:(um..you're welcome?geez)Just come! It's at the library
Joe: Okay
(annoying boy thinks i'm gonna rape him. I punch his arm)
Me: Keep going...okay are you ready?
Joe: What is it the people in the hallyway? The door, trash can?
Me: No^^ It's um....*looks at the ground*
Joe: What is it
Me: It's....*tries to keep the usual happy face*
Joe: What?
Me: I won't talk to you for the rest of the year^^
Joe: how is that a present?
Me: I'm annoying and so i should stay away
Joe: from what
Me: you
Joe: why?
Me: because you think i'm annoying. Okay?
Joe: um okay*chuckle* see you tomorrow
Me:No. I mean it I can't talk to you
Joe:why?...
*Mr. B tell walk by and we wave at him. I then drag Joe to a deserted area.*
Me:This is your senior year and i want you to be happy. So i go away...
J:why?
Me:because i'm annoying
J:so is Letitia and Rosie. Rosie hits me a lot
Me:I go away
J:why?
Me:you won't get mad
J:why?
Me:because...........
J:Let's go to the court yard
Me:wait
J:Let's just go to the court yard
Me:wait!
*I grab his jacket*
Me:it's because i still like you and i know you don't want me to so i have to let go...
J:....
Me:.....*i let go of his jacket*
J:...sorry
Me:*blushing(what the hell did i just say?!) No it's okay. Isa will just go away now, okay?
J: we can still be friends?
Me: i tried a long time ago and it isn't working, i have to let go
J:...okay
Me: so we're not talking to each other anymore, okay?
J: We can't be friends?
Me: no, we can't talk to each other anymore..
J:wait, then that just makes it complicated...
me:...just pretend you don't know me...okay?
*i'm about to crack. My lips quiver with every word that comes out of my mouth*
J:okay
Me:so were not talking anymore, okay?
J:..okay
*i walk away slowly*
J: bye


I don't know why i couldn't say my last goodbye to him. I felt a bit relieved as i didn't have to worry if he still liked me or not, but i still miss being with him...but i know i have to let go completely. It's not like he'll notice any difference. He's much happier with other people. ...i don't know what to feel right now. maybe...i'll go cry now...because i want to.

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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