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Saturday, April 9, 2005

Listen to Someone Who Knows
There are rumors going around my school that the dress code is going to change saying that you can not wear all black, because it is related to Satanic beliefs......

BULLSHIT!!!

These are nothing but conformist remarks, and it makes me sick! The color black was never related to Satanic beliefs, people made it that way just as they turned the word Hell, and Ass into curse words.

If anyone really wishes to know the reason why these so called "goths and satan worshippers" wear such things, then listen to some one who KNOWS.

Like me...Now here is the truth

Most of these people who wear "goth" related items are WANNA-BES! These are people who think that it is just so 'hard core' *Valley girl laugh* and want to be 'feared' by their peers
and be 'hard core'. It's THESE idiots that started the rumors you now hear.

I, however, wear all black everyday to public places without even TRYING! You can ask Xero Hopkins yourself. I have to TRY to wear another color besides black.

The reason why I wear this color? It's because people scare the HELL out of me... And since people relate the color black with evil, I wear that very color that drives others away. It also caused the people who once teased me to leave me alone. So It was for my own protection against people who judged me before they even knew what my name was.

It's VERY true. If people won't socialize with you because of the way you dress, then they are APPARENTLY NOT your REAL friends now are they? You know it's true.

This is how I met my FEW very close friends. Like Xero, Kara, Angel, and etc...

TRUE, I did have run ins with the Wanna-Bes who thought because of how I dressed I was in 'THAT' crowd. But I am always able to tell.

In truth I only have 5 friends, including my Darkside Mark, who love me because of who I am and I love them just as much and more. My best is Xero, and I love that kid more than anything and would GLADLY take a bullet for him.

I'm afaird I'm still like this now. I'm, in truth, not the constantly smiling Akane I draw. I hardly EVER smile when in the presence of someone I don't know.

It's also hard for me to even express my own beliefs and feeling verbally because they may sound stupid to everyone. Then that will just lead to misunderstandings.

I can easily write my feelings down without it sounding so stupid to myself, but also because (like now) I can't see anyones faces on here.

People scare me more than anything. I feel that they are always looking at me, talking about me, or mocking me because of something I MUST have just done but I don't know what.

Anyway, the reason (for me atleast)to wear these colors is to push away the ones who will hurt me, and filter out the ones know will love me for the socially shy and pathetically timid person I really am. Though I also get some of the 'OTHERS' that only wish to socialize with me because of dress, I always manage to close them out until they get the point that I know why they are really trying to talk to me.
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