Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Date: Monday, August 13th, 2007.
Time: P.M.
Mood: Depressed as all hell.
Standpoint: Let me talk first or I'll bleed for you.
Listening to: Korn - Evolution, Dimmu Borgir - The Serpentine Offering, Flyleaf - Red Sam, and Lacuna Coil - Enjoy The Silence.

Hey y'all... It's been bad lately...feels like every day Kitty(my gf) and I get into some sort of argument. It's all my fault though...I'm just a horrible boyfriend. I deserve to go die and perish for what I've all done. Yet I can't because so many people want me to hang on to the shredded strings of life. I loath myself. I am the reason why people think all humans need to die. I seem to manipulate every person I talk to. Yet everyone tends to like me in the long run, then when they become more and talk to me more. They don't like what is me. I'm crying and I hate it, I want to flush out every emotion I can feel except for love just so I can love my girlfriend and never feel another thing. It's me and I know it is...I cause all the problems...and I seem to help other people with theirs. Can nobody see that I am corrupted as a human being. I shudder when I think of me as being human. No human should be this irrational about themselves that they want to take the nearest object, no matter if it's sharp or blunt, and hurt myself with it. Yet I can't just because I want to be with my girlfriend. And I'm just gonna go... I don't deserve to be on this site or to have anyone care about me...
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