Monday, November 13, 2006

headaches and hwk....the joy...
hey.wow well i kno i could have updated like all week last week but i was too lazy and my fall break wasnt all that exciting anyways.lol.well sunday was great i hung out with my two bestfrends Charlotte[hikari x] and Fiona[sayokyoku] =] all i can say is fun.fun.fun.day =].we went to Chuck E Cheese =] lmao.and played video games nd stuffs @ Fiona's house =].im kinda short so i felt tall when i seen all the little kids in Chuck E Cheese =]

kay last night i went to bed @ like 12am or 1am...couldnt sleep nd woke up @ like 2am or 3am fell asleep @ like uhh 3sumthin in the morning.nd 2daii woke up early[6am] to finish readin my s.s hwk..ended up fallin asleep.woke up couple min after and i couldnt read cuz i hadda go to school nd whatnot.

got to school was tired as hell.3rd pd got quizzed/tested on quick breads for home ec.it was really stupid and gayy and i wanted to slap her across the face.lunch-fun.nd heard a story bout some weird dream my frend had.s.s was okay..i got my extra credit all riight!!!yaaay!!i was so happy cuz i worked really hard on that extra credit =].spanish,gym,and math - wanted to slap my teacher across the face.

i had a huge headache in school and i still have one.=/ 2daii just isnt my day =[ and to make things worse....i have a shitload of hwk.just funderful aint it? ehh i complain wayy too much for my own good....not like i mean to or anything.

on the brighter side of things....this morning when i woke up my kitty was right next to me ^-^ aww i heart my kitty cat =].uhmm i ALMOST ran 12 min straight in gym.i got to see my frends at school.im making poems like crazy.and some quotes too.oh i got a 98 on my s.s notebook which i organized last night...i think i got like some points off cuz i had hearts and drawings on some of my papers...but thats what i do when im bored in class.lol.yeah well imma go now and i prob bored you ppl with my day nd stuffs nd whatnot ahaah i like saying that whatnot whatnot whatnot...=] im weird and i love it lol.kk well hope yall have a great funderful fantastical magnifical fantastalious day =]
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Saturday, November 4, 2006

just some poems.....

Broken

i feel broken
i feel unloved
i act like im fine
act like nothings wrong
but you dont see the scars i hide
you dont know the real me
fuck i dont even know the real me
i died one night
never to return again
just living like im supposed to
trying to be happy
trying to be a good friend
trying to live a good life
but all this shit brings me down
and i just dont know anymore
im lost
cant find my way out
dont know where to go
cant move
cuz im broken
little shards everywhere
cutting into me
and i just watch
just stand there
crying out
'help me'
and you all stare
and keep your distance
as you watch my death
cuz you know i cant be saved
so you dont even try
your just like me standing there
watching me die
until i exsist no more


&& is it just me...or am i all alone?

all alone
no one around
isolated
in solitude
its like im trapped in a CLEAR box
watching everyone and everything living
having fun
...while im stuck...
trapped.
with no one...
...wait....do you hear that?
the box is cracking....
is that a good sign?...
now everyone stops and stares
as the box breaks
shattering...
all over me
cuts...blood...
all around...
everyone goes back to normal
while i lay there
bloody and broken
cant move
for if i do
i'll cause my death...
...too late...in my stupidity
i moved...
and now im dead...
a living spirit
walking around aimlessly
trying to find a place where i belong
dead and broken inside
happy and alive outside
soo its like im lying right?
to myself more than others...
i hate this...
i hate myself...
why did i become a spirit?
i should have been with the rest...
dead..
and never to return...

Questions

who do i trust?
who do i believe?
should i just keep to myself?
what should i do?
so many questions spinning around me
so little answers
with questions comes more questions
so its like...i'll never have an answer
and i'll always be confused
and i'll always wish that...life wasnt like this
horrible.lovely.sad.happy.
soo its like....im not even here
im just a wandering soul...
trying to find a place to stay
a place where i can feel like i belong...
and it looks like i'll search forever..
cuz everywhere i go...
i end up leaving...
i can't stay for much longer...
so...what keeps me here?
should i have died already?...
shouldnt my soul already rest in peace?...
why...no...how did i turn out like this?..
i guess i'll always be...
broken.alone.confused.angry.sad.happy.hyper.
...so why is it that life seems so hard?
i mean friends...
thats the key
but...how do i know which ones are real?
how can i tell which ones are fakes?
...i guess i'll never know...
and i guess i'll never get an answer...
...oh,look at the time...
im leaving again....
i don't believe in goodbyes...
so i guess i'll see you later...
maybe this time i'll finally return...


uhmmm so these are just some poems i wrote...not saying when i wrote them....soo uhhh tell me if ya like em or not...or what you thought bout em...nd be honest[i kno u prob will be...its juss sumthin i always say...]soo i hope yall have a great day laterz.
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Friday, November 3, 2006

bus rides <3
kay so i thought my day was going to suck today...but it didnt! =] the bus ride made my day =D but b4 i ramble about that XD i gots ta tell u pplz sumthin.1st pd-quiz. 2nd pd-funny..this kid was rapping XD. 3rd pd-boring.but it was okay. lunch-fun =D.5th/6th-s.s preformance assesment essay =/.7th/8th got my test back i got a 80!!WHOO!!lol.but yeah that class was okay. 9th/10th- presented...i dont think i did too good...but idk.i dont like that class anyways.11th-ehh it was gym.but they played music nd this kid was dancing lol.12th-test!i didnt get to fuckin finish!!!i left like 3problems blank...nd ugh it sucked...im failing that test i know it =/.kay so now for afterschool =].walked with vinnie.kyla.mike[my bro].nd jen. mike finally met vinnie...lmao.nd kyla met me...apparently she didnt kno i was mikes sister...lol.=/ i didnt wanna miss my bus cuz my backback was HEAVY!!so i didnt walk with vinnie and kyla....i should have tho...lol.soo yeahh the bus ride...was hilarious.this kid...made my day =] lol i think he made every1s day...well like the ppl he was talkin too.kay so me.andre.chris.mike.brianna.ashely.and john. were sitting in the back of the bus.i hit chris cuz he called me stupid...i like elbowed him nd hes like oww that hurt.nd then i said sucks for you.lmao.soo anyways john made us all laugh!hes hilarious =] nd he just made my day.but anyways bus ride was fun..we were almost @ my stop nd then our bus driver got pissed @ me.brianna.john.nd mike.well mostly brianna..i think.he yelled @ us nd cursed too[hes like i know what u guys were saying...blahblahblah.cuz like some of us were talkin in spanish...so yeahh..]!!nd we were trying so hard not to laugh!!lmao.so then me nd mike get off nd start laughing.lol.then mike says...i didnt know that we had a different bus driver?...haha cuz he wasnt our usual one soo yeahh.it was soo funny...i cant even explain..it was one of those had to be there moments.lmao.yeahh so anyways i have a week off from school!YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! =D its for fall break =] kay imm stop boring u pplz now...so hope yall have a great funderful fantastical day =D
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Thursday, November 2, 2006

tired.bored.idk....
hey.soo i woke up @ 430 in the morning 2daii to finish all my hwk.doesnt that sound like so much fun?....yeahhh....NO.i only got like 3-4 hours of sleep.soo when i finshed all my hwk nd my mom was dropping me nd my brother off @ school...i started laughing hystarically for no reason.lol.sooo the only parts i enjoyed in school 2daii was....home ec.cuz one girl from our group wasnt there.so we kept messin everythin up but it was fun.we were the 2nd ones done =] lol.@ lunch when they played um bop..my frend kevin started singing it!!lmao.lunch time is always a fun time.hahaha.after lunch!!well i went to my locker with my frend marygrace.but i didnt wanna be early soo she left me...nd then i seen my frends naveena and vinnie.hahaha we were going back and forth in the hallway cuz theres this teacher that always yells @ us tellin us to get to class nd stuffs.so yeah.but yeahh that was fun.ohhh i got a 90 on my s.s quiz i took 2daii ^-^ YAAAAAAAAAAAY! =].uhmm i still wanna slap my spanish and math teacher.nd yeahh thats basically all that happened 2daii.the bus was fun =] but this kid said i was like weak or sumthin so im thinkin wtf he doesnt kno me all that well nd shizz.so i smacked him!!lol.nd he said he whatd u do that for?ur not supposed to smack me!i helped u in science last year. nd im like yeahh....so?lol.soo yeahh my day was pretty okay i guess...well im finding my song 2morrow cuz i gots hwk to do 2daii =/ soo yeahh....hope yall have a funderful day =] laterz.
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Wednesday, November 1, 2006

fun bus rides =]
kay well lest just say this halloween sucked...well for the most part anyways.well i stayed home.did my homeowork..for a little.then i ended up falling asleep on the couch...got up and finished my hwk and went back online.doesnt that sound fun?haha no!..yeahh 2daii kinda sucked to.1st pd my class got yelled at....oh the joy.2nd pd was boring as anything.3rd pd...was boring..but @ least we had a fire drill.4th lunch was...lunch.5th/6th...got yelled at.7th/8th.....boring as anythin.9th/10th got yelled at by my teacher for not bringing some stupid shit in...even tho no one really fuckin worked on it in the first place.11th...boring.12th...boring and i dont like my teacher she always gives people these glares its annoying.the best part about my day was...the bus =].kay well i was sittin with my frend nd my frends frend nd they were boring as hell.nd then one of my other frends was in the back of the bus so him,my brother,nd some other people were callin my name.then i got this aluminum ball nd threw it back..uhh it missed cuz i threw with my not throwing good arm -_-'.so i eventually went to the back of the bus.nd it was fun we kept throwin the ball @ each other nd junk.yurp so there was my boring ass day that probably bored u all...but anyways hope yall have a great day =] nd im srry if i dont comment u pplz...blame my stupid teachers for giving me a lot of hwk....=/.
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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Happy Halloween!!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! =D kay well this year im not being anything or going trickortreating...but anyways....my teachers actually gave me homework!!! thats retarted..i mean its halloween!!yeahh soo not much happened in school just the same old stuffs.cept fer ya kno some people wearing costumes.yeahh soo uhhh this post is pretty short..soo uhh hope ya'll have a funderful day trickortreating and for those of you who arent trickortreating i hope u have a funderful day too =D
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Monday, October 30, 2006

just another day.
hey ^-^.yeahh so im still lookin fer a song for my new theme...but i think i know which one i MIGHT use.soo not much happened in school 2daii.my frend brought in a monster[energy drink] to school for a frend.i wanted it tho...ahaha i never had one...yet..but idk i juss wanna try one....uhmm i got my grade sheet for s.s im gettin a B =].umm...i wanna slap my spanish teacher cuz idk i just don't like her.gym-me nd my 3 frends were just talkin the whole time.math...i wanna slap her...she annoys me nd idk i just plain don't like her.yeahh ohh i got my phone back =].yurpp so anyways tomorrow is halloween!!what r u ppl being?idk what im being...but imma prob not be anythin this year cuz i don't gots any one to go trickortreating with that nd idk what to be nd junk.soo yeahh hope yall have a great day ^-^ laterz.
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Sunday, October 29, 2006

help?
hey ^-^.church went by fast.boutta go watch the omen.nd then do my hwk or sumthin.soo u like my new theme?...be honest.uhmm so i need a song..any ideas?if u have any song ideas then leave it in a comment,im,or pm or sumthin...thanks.uhmm don't think that u have to help me...im juss askin...its an option....uhmm yeahh....soo uhhhh im weird....nd uhmm.....imma go now...nd stop typin....yeahhh....don't mind me...so hope yall have a great day ^-^ laterz.
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bored =/
hey.soo uhmm wow im updating on the weekend again?...i usually never do..oh well.soo right now im bored.its like 12am nd no1s on...whered everyone go?!uhmm so far my weekend is pretty boring...i guess.my mom rented the omen!![new version]so i'll prob watch that later.uhh not much to say.imma prob go to church round 12pm/1pm.yeahh i'll prob end up falling asleep or something.ohh yeah soo im thinkin bout changin my theme....cept i need a song....i think i kno what song im gunna pick but idk....yeah...soo uhh laterz i guess.hope ya'll have a good day ^-^ [yeah i kno this post was pointless but oh well.lol]
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Friday, October 27, 2006

walking home fun nd not fun. =] nd =/
hey.so 1st pd did a word puzzle thingy cuz the teacher was absent.2nd nuthin.3rd muffins!!=] lunch..my frend threw something @ my nd my other 2 frends.were like whatd we do?nd he's like i throw things @ ppl i like.nd then my frend anna said...wow...what do u do to ppl u love?...like throw cannonballs @ them of somthing.nd my other frend[his gf]was there nd shes like ....thnaks for giving him those thoughts/ideas.lol.then he like attacked her to giv her a hug =].lol.after lunch nd b4 s.s i was hangin out with my two frends in the hall way.it was fun =].s.s - sang happy bday to my teacher[shes cool =].]english-nuttin exciting or worth talkin bout..same for spanish,gym,nd math.so me,my brother[mike],nd my frend andre missed the bus 2daii...that or it never came.so me,mike,my frend andre,mikes frends will,matt,steffi,and kerry were all walkin home.it sucked like hell!!@ 1st it was fun tho...later on it was juss me,mike,andre,matt nd will.andre was throwin rocks @ mike...some of em missed tho.lol.then it was me,mike,matt,and will.then it was juss me nd mike.we were so close to home nd i was like omg!look!were so close!!sooo damn close to civilization!!!lmao.nd mikes like...i kno!!!lmao.so yeahh thats pretty much my day so far.uhmm i dont have my fone right now...but i might get it back later...long story....not really...but yeah...lol.well i hope yall have a great day ^-^ laterz.
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