Saturday, September 13, 2003

Kanojo ni Kokoro Modoshite..
Well... hello again after a while. Nothing terribly of interest to say, other than I got another Mods choice on Elfwood. A sort of double edged sword however. It's nice when people see your work, but it's irritating as hell when morons with no balls make stupid comments under anonymous, and criticize you unconstructively, and often crudely. It all comes down to simple common courtesy, but oh, I forget, that seems to be lost among the people of today who feel liberated by the anonimity of the internet and a screenname. One such courtesy is, If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all, or rather don't fucking waste my time with flames on my work. It's called creativity for a reason, people. I'm sorry if you don't like my work, but I'm not about to change everything I do, or bend over backwards to please one schmuck who thinks " BISHOUNEN SUXORSZ I RULE JOO HAR HAR HAR". I do what I do because it make me happy, and whoever thinks my happiness is unworthwile can go and fuck themselves, or better yet, die. I'm sick and tired of people asking me why, but not even bothering to listen to my explanations. I write intros and cautionary explanations, but they are still ignored, and it irritates me to no end. I often wonder why I even try to have even a minute speck in people. The only thing I can truly depend on is stupidity, which will endure, undoubtedly, until the end of time. I finished my peach girl flame for my friend and she will post it on her site at geocities. I've done a great deal more artwork, but none that I really feel like posting because I'm tired, at least momentarily, of explaining my self to others. Here's hoping the angst will fade and my faith in humanity will be restored!

dare to dream.


Other shit:
You Stuff~
001. What is your name? Alexa Hansen
002. Spell your name backwards: Nesnah Axela, cool shit
003. Date of birth: June 24th, 1987
004. Male or female? Wouldn't you like to know?
005. Astrological sign: Cancer/crab, very befitting to my personality.
006. Nicknames: 'lexa
007. Occupation? Student/artist
008. Height: 5'7
009. Weight: 163
010. Hair color: Black
011. Eye color: Dark brown/black
012. Where were you born? California
013. Where do you reside now? Washington
014. Age: 16
015. Screen names: Akira0085, Akoewarrior
016. E-mail addy: Akira0085@aol.com
017. What does your screen name stand for? My first rp character, and my most enduring one .
018. What is your LJ name? don't got that sheeit
019. What does your diary name stand for? <^> Bitch,
020. Pets:1 dog
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? hahaha cake....
023. Tattoos? No, not yet, but I'd like one, so when I';m old and saggy, I can stretch it out and frighten small children. I think I'll get one of Kuja.
024. Shoe size: 9
025. Righty or lefty? Righty.
026. Wearing: Black striped pajamas because I'm too lazy to get dressed.
027. Hearing: Bullshit from all sides.
028. Feeling: Murderous
029. Eating/drinking: ice cubes, shades of Narciss.
~Guys/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
030. Have you ever been in love? Hahaha...
031. How many people have you told "I love you"? None.
032. How many people have you been in love with? Too many to count....hahaha
033. How many people have you kissed? Romanticaly? None.
034. How many people have you dated? None
035. What do you look for in a guy/girl? I want someone who can deal with my temper and my strange behavior, non religious, sarcastic and cynical, open, and preferabley effeminate.
036. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes
037. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for? ...Ones that fit my "standards".
038. Do you have a bf/gf? No. ;x
039. If so where did you meet them? Ok, stfu.
040. What do you like most about your bf/gf? Ice tea is good.
041. Do you have a crush right now? yes, on a deliciously sexy group of uniformed pixels.
042. If so who is it? Kuja.
043. Do you remember your first love? hahaha... stalking sucks
044. Who is the first person you kissed? No one.
045. Do you believe in fate? Hell no... ok sometimes.
050. Do you believe in soul mates? Hahaha.
051. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours? Blah blah blah, next question.
052. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? no.
053. Do you believe in love at first sight? In terms of physical attraction, yes.
~Family Stuff~
054. How many siblings do you have? 2
055. What are your parents names? Janie and Rick.
056. What are your siblings names? Arianna and Anika, my parents, by the way, were the geniuses who decided to give us all "a " names and confuse everyone.
057. How many siblings does your mother have? 2
058. How many siblings does your father have? 2
059. Where are your parents from? California
060. Does your family get together for holidays? Yep.
061. Do you have any nieces or nephews? Yush
062. Are your parents divorced? No
063. Do you have stepparents? Nah
064. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? No...
065. Did some of your family come to Canada from another country? What is this CANADA you speak of?
~Music Stuff~
066. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? Gekka no yasokyoku, because I'm fucking loony.
067. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? Boys to men and the fucking Star Wars Symphonic Suite.
068. What's the best cd you own? Malice Mizer.
069. What song do you absolutely hate? Anything rap or by Jennifer fuking lopez.
070. Do you sing in the shower? You bet yer arse I do!
071. What song reminds you of that special someone? Tragedy of Female Fighter (VPM).
~Favorites~
072. Color: Black, or as I have said multiple times on other such rediculous quiz types, the presence of all colors in the absence of light.
073. Food: sushi
074. Song: Ah...... ummm... SYUNIKISS, Gekka no Yasoukyoku, Heartbeat of Shinma, KujaMillenium Theme, Melodies of life, anything by Malice Mizer, Tragedy of Female fighter, Silent Wings, Gackt shit.
075. Show: south park, Evangelion
076. School subject: Art/English/ Japanese
077. Band/singer: TOO MANY ASSHOLE.
078. Animal: Dragon
079. Outfit: Anything that isn't form fitting.
080. Movie: Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust, PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN
081. Pair of shoes: some shit...
082. Cartoon(Anime): Don'teven ask me to choose.
083. Actor: Johnny Depp
084. Actress: Drew Barrymore.
085. Potato chip: Sea salt and vinegar :: Drool.::
086. Drink: -_-..._-_ I'm upside down!
087. Alcholic drink: Plum Gekikan is the shit.
088. Holiday: Halloween
089. Perfume/cologne: Creme brulee
090. Pizza topping: SAUSAGE
091. Jello flavor: Watermelon
092. Lunch meat: Turkey.....hnnn roast beef
093. Board game: >> I dunno
094. Video game: Chrono cross, final fantasy 7 and 9, too many others to name...Seiken Densetsu 3!!
095. Website:I've got a lovely bunch of elfwood galleries...all of them are standing in a row.
097. Computer game: blech
098. Number: 7
099. Cereal: Dunno
100. Comedian: dunno
101. Dessert: PIE..want pie wanker
102. Disney character: Captain Jack Sparrow
103. Clothing store: Don't care.
104. Pastime: Drawing, acting, singing, video games, writing, rp, bitching about everything I see
105. Teacher: Powelson. ;__;
106. Childhood toy: Stuffed bear.
107. Carnival game/ride: I dunno
108. Candy bar: There once was a man named dave...
109. Magazine: Tokyopop
110. Salad dressing: ranch for shizzle.
111. Thing to do on the weekend: draw
112. Hot drink: tea.
113. Season: Winter
114. Sport to watch: Kendo
~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
115. What color are your sheets? I don't OWN sheets.
116. What color are your bedroom walls? I don't even know anymore...so many posters and drawings and shit.
117. Do you have posters on your wall? Yah
118. If so of what? Anime
119. How many pillows are on your bed? 8
120. What do you normally sleep in? random shit.
121. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: random shit.
122. What size bed do you have? I dunno
123. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? No
124. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? I wish I did.
125. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? No, I listen to Harry potter on audio tape, because it's boring as shit.
126. Describe the last nightmare you had: I don't remember anything.
127. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Nope.
128. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? 2
129. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? Sometimes
130. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? NO thankfully.
131. Do you snore? I hope not.
132. How about drool? Sometimes
133. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? Yes
134. What color is the carpet in your room? off white.
135. What's under your bed? Nothing.
~This or that~
136. Coke/Pepsi: Coke, but it doesn't really matter because anything I can drink is DIET ASS ANYWAY.
137. Doughnuts/bagels: Doughnuts
138. Day/night: Nighty...yoru wa fushigi
139. Wicked witch of the East/wicked witch of the west: my ass is more wicked than the two of those bitches.
140. Heaven/hell: There is no such thing
141. Make love/have sex: Fuck fucking fuckers volume fuck
142. Coffee/tea: Both for me HAR HAR HAR CLEVAR.
143. Hamburgers/hotdogs: Hamburgers
144. Rap/rock: Rock
145. Britney/Christina: Both need to die
146. Swiss cheese/american cheese: dun care
147. Real World/Road Rules: DIE DIE DIE
148. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync:DIE DIE DIE!!
149. Silver/gold: Silver
150. Nike/Adidas: ...
151. McDonalds/Taco Bell: ....
152. Sweet/sour: Sweet
153. Punk/emo: Punk
154. Hot/cold: cold
155. Winter/summer: Winter
156. Spring/fall: Fall
157. Operas/plays: ...thats a toss up
158. Read/watch TV: read
159. Cd's/tapes: CD
160. Dvd's/vhs: DVD
161. Old/new: Both
162. Shorts/skirts: Neither.
163. Pink/red: Blood red. Color me blood red! I'm a dork ;x
164. Colored pictures/black and white photos: both are noice, situationally
165. Meat/vegetables: Meat
166. Mexican food/chinese food: Chinese
167. Commercials/infomercials: Commercials
168. Scary movies/comedies: comedy
169. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: One piece
170. Sandals/tennis shoes:Sandals
171. Dogs/cats: Kitties!
172. Unicorns/fairies: Fairies
173. Water/land: Water
174. Sugar/spice: Spice, because my pancreas can't handle sugar because it's a lazy sack of shit.
175. Black/white: Black
176. Ribbons/bows: Ribbons
177. Chicken/beef: chicken
178. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: blah de fuckin blah
179. Cars/trucks: Cars
180. Austin Powers/James Bond: I fucking hate James bond with a firey fucking passion..
181. Popcorn/pretzels: Popcorn
182. Hip-hop/Rock: Rockalicious
183. Passionate kiss/peck: Passionte
184. WWE wrestling/ real wrestling: Kendo up your ass.
185. Back rub/foot massage: Back
186. Picture frames/photo albums: Album
187. Pens/pencils: Pen.
~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~
188. Eminem: Fucker
189. Virgins: As in reference to what?
190. God: Doesn't exist
191. The Osbournes: Hahahah BEEP
192. Reality TV: DIE DIE DIE
193. J.Lo: Fat ass DIE DIE DIE
194. Religion: Waste of time
195. Emo music: ....hahaha PUSSY
196. Valentine's Day: DIE DIE DIE
197. Christina Aguilera's comeback: DIE DIE DIE.
198. Homosexuals: I happen to be a yaoi wench, so it's all cool with me ;x
199. Abortion: Choice.
200. Inter-racial relationships: Love is love.
201. Murder: I quote Rachel:Some people had it coming
202. Death: Too many damn people in the world.
203. Obesity: Welcome to my life.
204. Pre-marital sex: I don't give a rip where you wave your dick, but do it nowhere near me.
205. Terrorism: ....
206. Pornography: Mm..
207. Fortune tellers: Darrrrr.
208. Threesomes: yaoilicious ones, yes
209. Prostitution: ....DIE
210. Politics: Bring it up over dinner sometime. It's quite entertaining to watch angry parents yell and swallow at the same time.
211. Country music: Fuckity fuck fuck, and he left me for that floozie in the doughnut shop.
212. George W. Bush: What an idiot.
213. Cloning: Cool.
214. Britney's boobs: Explode em
215. Gas prices in Canada:How would I know?
~Have You Ever....~
216. Mooned anyone? I want to, scare people with my paunchy white girl ass. fun xD
217. Been on a diet? Suck assssss... yes
218. Been to a foreign country? Nope
219. Broken a bone? yes, fuck yes, OW
220. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? nope
221. Swear at a teacher? No.
222. Talked to an LJ member via e-mails or instant messages? Yes
223. Got in a fight? Tons.
224. Dated a teacher? Nope
225. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? YES... many times when talking to Rachel.
226. Thought about killing your enemy? Deffinately, every day.
227. Gone skinny dipping? yes
228. Met another LJ member in the flesh? yes
229. Told a little white lie? Constantly
230. Told a secret you swore not to tell? No
231. Used a foreign object to masturbate? ::dances::
232. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? Yes... I once said "Fuck me" Instead of "Fuck this"
233. Been on tv? nope
234. Been on the radio? No
235. Been in a mosh pit? nope
236. Been to a concert? Yes
237. Dated one of your best friends? Nope
238. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? Yeah
239. Decieved somebody close to you? Yes
240. Broken the law? hahaha
241. Been to a rodeo? No blech
242. Been on a talk show? No, yuck
243. Been on a game show? I'd rather eat hair
244. Been on an airplane? Yes
245. Got to ride on a firetruck? no
246. Came close to dying? ..Sort of.
247. Cheated on a bf/gf? No
248. Gave someone a piggy back ride? Yes
249. Terrorized a babysitter? yes >D
250. Made a mud pie? Mm~
251. Had a dream that your falling off a cliff? Can't remember.
252. Snuck out of the house at night? Yes
253. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? No
254. Had an eating disorder? No
255. Felt like you didn't belong? Yeah
256. Felt like the 3rd wheel? Yeah
257. Smoked? Yes, once
258. Done drugs? No
259. Stolen money from a poor person begging on the street? No
260. Had your tonsils removed? No
261. Gone to camp? Yes
262. Won a bet? Yes
263. Written a love letter? Yes
264. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? No
265. Written a love poem? Yes
266. Kissed in the rain? No
267. Slow danced with someone you love? No
268. Participated in cyber sex? No
269. Faked an orgasm? no
270. Stolen a kiss? no
271. Asked a friend for relationship advice? Yes
272. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? No.
273. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love? No
274. Gotten a speeding ticket? No
275. Done jail time? No
276. Had to wear a uniform to work? No
277. Won a trophy? No
278. Thrown up in public? Yup
279. Bowled a perfect game? No
280. Failed/got held back? no
281. Got perfect attendance in grade school? no
282. Roasted pumpkin seeds? Yes
283. Taken ballet lessons? No
284. Attempted suicide? No
285. Cut yourself? Nah
~Randomness~
286. Do you believe in aliens? Why not?
287. Name 3 things that are next to your computer: Ramen, sketchbook, and copic markers.
288. Do you have any hidden talents? Fuck if I know.
289. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? Yes.
290. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? A vampire comedy
291. What would your movie star name be? Kano
292. Do you play any sports? Nope
293. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? ....The japanese Ringu.
294. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? PoTC, and VHD: Bloodlust
295. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? The cheetah girls,and Kangaroo Fucking Jack.
296. Do you drive? yes
297. What is your dream car? I don't want a car. I want an EVA.
298. Do you think you're good looking? ...
299 Do others think you are good looking? ...
300. Would you ever sky dive? Fuck no
301. Do you believe in Bigfoot? sasquatch kicks bigfoot's ass
302. How many rooms do you have in your house? Shit I dunno.
303. Are you afraid of roller coasters? Nope
304. Do you believe in God? ...
305. Do you believe in Satan? Sure.
306. Do you believe there is a heaven?...
307. Do you believe there is a hell? ....
308. Do you own a pooltable? Yes
309 Do you have a pool? nope
310. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? Yes
311. Do you like chocolate? god yes
312. Who/what is on your 2003 calendar? The calender of stupidity, daily desktop calender
313. How many U.S. states have you been to? blahhhh
314. Ever wished on a shooting star? yes.
315. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? Aeris gainsborough.
316. What is your weakness? Anger
317. Name something you can't get enough of: manga, yaoi
318. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: Unconventional, difficult, cynical.
319. How many kids do you want to have? No fucking way.
320. Future daughters names:Plaaalalallaa
321. Future sons names: Sephiroth!! ><
322. What is your ideal way to die? Crushed instantly by a mountain of spam.
323. How do you release stress? Malice Mizer and drawing.
324. Are you a trendy person? Fuckity fukilicious
325. Are you an artistic person? Very
326. Are you a realistic person? If I want to be......maybe
327. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? I'm a lazy crap
328. Are you a strong person? Emotionaly
329. Are you a strong willed person? Yes
330. Who is the last person to e-mail you? Elfwood
331. Who is the last person to IM you? Kittendeath
332. Do you hate chain e-mails? Yes
333. Are you a deep sleeper? Very
334. Are you a good story teller? Yes
335. What do you believe is your best quality? Strangeness
336. What is your greatest accomplishment? I don't know, I got two mods choices?
337. Do you like to burn candles or incense?.. Candles yes
338. Do you do yoga? no
339. Do you have your own credit card? No
340. Let's say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money? Buy manga...all the manga >O
341. Do you have a check book? no.
342. Do you like your driver's license picture? No, fuck no
343. Do you tan easily? I burn like a ...thing.
344. What color is your hair naturally? Auburn
345. How many fillings do you have? None.
346. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? None
347. Worst feeling in the world? Failure, rejection
348. Best feeling in the world? hahahaha
349. Is the glass half empty or half full? ::sneezes::.
350. Last thing you downloaded? Music
351. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? No.......
352. What do you think people think of you? That I'm strange and perfectionistic, and arrogant.
353. Are you a likeable person? No.
354. Do you need therapy? Drawing is my therapy.
355. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? None of your fucking business...
356. Whats the best way to be proposed to?....
357. What kind of movie would you star in? comedy
358. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UPS? Purple monkey chowder with flapping pink wings.
359. When are you moving? When I... go Japan.
360. What's your favorite phrase? "I plead the fourth because I drank the fith and smoked the eigth"
(Man, that was a bitch to do.)
--Signing off---Alexa
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