Thursday, August 26, 2004

   A little better...

I'm happy you guys liked my view, and to those of you who didnt read it, its not too late... I'm feeling better, but my aunt left today, and its sort of hitting me slowly that I wont see her again for a while... Nataku1 got a job... good for her... anyway, so yeah, stuff like "no more family trips" and "no more BBq's at my aunts house" it just sucks... and my bro ended up stayin'... i was hoping they would at least take him, and give me SOME consolation... but NOOOOO... that would be too good for me... 'till next time... AleXavier

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Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Why...?

Why do I feel like this? Today, and yesterday... I've felt like crying, I dont know why, but nothing ever comes out... I just get that feeling... it feels so bad. I wanst going to say anything, but I dont know who else to turn to, all my friends arent home, so I came to you guys... (of course youre my friends also) Please somebody tell me why it hurts so much, just to live? It's like I'm fine one moment, and then I feel like my hearts been trampeled... I just want to be a happy, normal guy, so why? Why do I have to go thru all of this!? I try t hide it, but theres no need for that here... I dont expect any real answers... just... I dont know, I'm just so sick of it all... 'till next time... AleXavier

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   new idea...

I just had a new I dea for posting, I decided that every now and then, I would share my opinions with you guys, you dont have to agree... just tell me what you think! Todays view is... HUMAN KIND! My philosophy on humans is that we are creatures of habit, we feel safe as long as our little bubble of reality is neither breached nor destroyed. Humans become accustomed to whatever they deal with in everyday life and even grow fond of their rutines... if some one says theyre tired f theyre life, smack them! They are lying and they know it. If someone of trully upset with the way they live then they will find a way to change it, no matter how difficult it might prove. We grow in our civilizations, our religions, and our cultures... but who are we to say that the way we do things is the RIGHT way? However, we are still powerless against ourselves, because no matter how hard we try we can seldom escape our roles in our everyday cycles. People who are always around others become acustomed to this and become lonely easily, but people who are used to being alone become frightened when in groups of people. This is another show of simplistic human nature, even when we want to, if we become overwhelmed by the people around us, or by the lonelyness in our hearts, we still continue to live our lives in hopes that someday things will work out. Well in short, people are simple beings, in some ways, and we tend to make these little shields in our lives that stop all the pain from coming in, but also stops the anguish from escaping, making our lives endless cycles of pain, and joy. 'till next time... AleXavier

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Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Aw man....

I was just posting and this damn thing closed on me!!! NOw I have to start over... So yeah, Whats up everyone? I just busted out my new Vans! These are the confiest shoes ever!!! Very roomy... but it might have to do with the fact that they're a size too big... Oh well, I still have to get a cap, and my other pair of sneakers and my first-day-of-school-outfit will be complete! I will wear a black shirt, khakis, black vans and a black cap... Amazingly enough, I will be wearing no red! (I always wear red) My friend Dashary says everyone exept me always looks different the first day of school... so I will wear no red! And I wanna get my ear and eyebrow pierced... I changed my mind about the red hair... 'till next time... AleXavier

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Monday, August 23, 2004

   Yee-haw!

I'm slowly, but surely easing back into my life here in MyO! Althought I still have to go to the lybrary to go online its getting to the point where I just dont care, just happy to post, and see what you guys are up to! For those of you who dont know I live in Providence, Rhode Island... and so does My Aunt, Mari (pronounced in spanish. But not for long, cuz shes moving away... on Wednesday! Shes going to Florida! Tampa!!!! Who even lives in Tampa?! I'm angry cuz shes taking my my little cousin with, Edmarie, with her! And thats my little baby... *sob* I'm kinda down about that... 'till next time... AleXavier

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Thursday, August 19, 2004

Didn't know anyone cared...

I really apreciate you guys being here for me, but this time I'm not gonna make a long sob story out of it... Hey, I wanna mention my New pal Vilefantom, check him out, hes a kool guy, he really cheered me up, (not that the rest of you didnt) hes a really great friend, and hes not afraid to joke around with some stuff... Also, I just got My School Schedule for next year, and now I think I'm gonna graduate! Yay! Just looking at my classes, and my teachers, its given me hope! Also, Nataku1 had a teacher in Hope High, Mr. Malardo, he quit and now theres a Mr. Malardo in my school... and hes gonna be my teacher, I hope its the same guy, he was really cool, I met him, and I think he will make a great adition to the central High Staff... 'till next time... AleXavier

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Tuesday, August 17, 2004

   One by one, the penguins steal my sanity!

Today I am doing a decent post, so If I dont get to go to peoples sites it means I ran out of time here at Knight Memorial Lybrary! First of all I've been really lonely lately, I havent had a Bf in a while and its just sort of HIT me lately, I try not to think about it, but I cant stop... I really want to be with someone, but how do I know whens another guy is gay? And even if I could tell, I dont have the guts to take a shot... Also, I got a kitten, my bro called it Kit, and so now I have a gray kitten called Kit! (redundant? I know) It has these really cool loking lines on its face, but shes awesome, she need some potty training, or litter training I guess... I also want to point out that I'm trying to be more open about my being gay, but its not easy... I told my mom the other day, shortly after I posted here, and she took REALLY, REALLY well... I wore Kahkis today, which is very rare, I ike them, theyre nice, and I'm planing to dye my hir red! And pierce my eyebrow... as soon as I have the money Ill do both, and if I can, Ill try to upload a pic of my self, but I cant promise anything... So thats all I have to say, Bye everyone! 'till next time... AleXavier

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Sunday, August 15, 2004

   Thank you, Oh most wonderful of friends *Does Blorgian happy dance*

I wanna thank everyone for being so nice about my last post, thanx for showing your support! I gotta go now, but at least I had enough time to read all yours posts, thanks! 'till next time... AleXavier

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Thursday, August 12, 2004

*Pull all courage toguether!*

I have decided to let every one here on my otaku know the truyth abou t my self... I am a 600 year old hermaphrodite from planet z-3-11 and I am here to steal your souls... nosa, but seriously, I consider you all my friends, and am hoping that you will all accept this! I am GAY, yes is true... pealse let me know what you think and tell eveyropne to come by and tell me what they think, since I dont get to talk to eveyrone I want to I'm telling everyone now, tbnat I am tired of hiding it, an dI am gay... 'till next time... AleXavier

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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

   Crap

I've got two minutes to post cuz the lybrary is closing! Any way! I got a job... go by Natku1's site to learn more! I want to apologize to everyone cuz I heavent been aroun I feel like I'm losing my friends, and I feel lost and left out... this sucks, please dont forget me my friends! 'till next time... AleXavier

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