Friday, April 1, 2005

   Please, please, PLEASE tell me about the anime fanfic site ElvesAteMyRamen-chan!!! PLEASE?!?!?!

Okay, here's how my life's been lately:

-->my flashdrive crashed so I lost documents
-->my Microsoft Word program ran out of the free trial so I lost more documents
-->my mother's ready to kick me out of the house again
-->I've been having trouble eating again, but I had a glass of milk and two whole pieces of toast this morning at least
-->I have TWO Inuyasha fanfics in the works but I lost the documents; maybe or maybe not permanently

So how's everyone else?
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Thursday, March 31, 2005

   GOMEN NASAI!!! GOMEN NASAI!!! GOMEN NASAI!!!
I am SO SORRY for disappearing for two-and-a-half weeks, you guys!!!!!!! Onegai, ONEGAI don't skin me alive, even though I deserve it...

Where have I been? Heh... um... *scratches back of head rolling eyes innocently* ...well, I've been online... but spending ALL of my time on fanfiction.net... (you created a MONSTER, ElvesAteMyRamen-chan... but a very thankful monster. Domo arigato!!! I LOVE that site!) Of course, this is no excuse... that being why I deserve the skinning-alive thing. But please don't anyway. You guys are my friends... *right*...? *looks at you warily before sidling away slowly*

So, um...
Um...
Yeah...

I may or may not update everyday and get to peolple's sites... gomen nasai again for that. But... I'm so... preoccupied... heh... I refuse to get into why I'm letting myself be eaten alive by that website... I REFUSE because that would be defeating the purpose.

Like I said, it's no excuse, but I thought maybe you'd like to know where I've been, as in "not dead", and I thought you'd also like a chance to yell at me for not having a good reason for abandoning you, my friends...

So go ahead! Shoot me! Or sword me! Or Sankon Tetsuso me! Or whatever your special move is!!!
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Sunday, March 13, 2005

   Spring Break!
I have spring break this week so I can stay up all night and sleep all day the way I want to! YAY!!!!!

And yesterday I got to read Fruits Basket 5 and start 6!! And my nii-san let me bring home his Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic RPG since he's got classes this week and I don't! Don't I have the nicest nii-san in the world? When I asked he told me he was planning to let me before I even said anything! He's so nice and thoughtful!!!

*content sigh*

For the last week or two, every single night, in the wee hours of the morning, I find myself on fanfiction.net reviewing yet another VERY long InuyashaxKagome fic... with a migraine... and being over-medicated, over-Pepsied, and barely competent to the task of expressing myself... it's fun, but I get these weird reality shifts... I get those anyway but I've been getting them everyday... makes it hard to sleep when I go to bed at dawn. I usually daydream about anime to fall asleep, but it's hard when my brain is locked in a certain plotline from the fanfic, cuz it's always some story that took me hours to read and my brain likes staying put ONLY if I've forced it to for hours... *sigh* ANYWAY never mind all that.

Poem! Okay, I'm rather embarassed about this one... I... I wrote it... trying to describe... me... *deep blush* how I'd be in some sort of... alternate reality... or something... *blushes more*
~*~~~*~~~*~
VIII(8)
the sun was gold upon her golden hair
her eyes a cerulean blue so fair
and all the things for which she cared
were closed to her, and she dispaired

her heart longed for a new enthrall
a place not so provincial
a place that she could call her home
even if everywhere she'd roam

she wished to turn all dark to light
to rid the world of evil night
save all those weary from the fight
ensure that all that prevailed was right

despite her strife, she lived in hope
she was one who rarely spoke
courage in her heart awoke
a song her heart bravely wrote

no one new of what she thought
who she was could not be caught
what she felt she never taught
her deeds they could explain not

yet life shone bright in azure eyes
despite her grey cloak of disguise
upheld the truth instead of lies
looked to save innocents from demise

to her the sky was always blue
and then all of her fears she slew
and in her heart she surely new
that light would overcome, though few

yet no challenge could be found
she "hopeful but yet lost" was crowned
her quest of light was yet drowned
all fought to keep her tied and bound

still with the wind she sings on
her hope will never be all gone
she searches to bring light upon
so those in dark will have new dawn
~*~~~*~~~*~
*still blushing*

Um... a-anyway...
I'm definitely only gonna be able to visit the sites of people who comment on mine this week cuz with no classes I'll be at home the whole time with my crappy, slow dial-up. Sorry, but it takes more time to load someone's page than to read and comment on it, so I have to limit it if I don't want to spend every waking moment on this. So... I'm sorry!

Oh! The tape stopped... gotta find another movie to watch... *curses* I've been watching the SAME ONES over and over and over...
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Saturday, March 12, 2005

   "The true tragedy of human life is not that we lose, but that we almost win." --Heywood Brown
No, that has nothing to do with my mood today, I just thought I'd get your attention XD so there.

I'm happy! Sitting in my bro's dorm room (different school than mine... an hour's drive from home) and he and my mom are talking about physics... I usually talk about it too but I'm dizzy already. No thanks.

Since we're here, my mom and I are gonna stop at bookstores on the way home! A Barnes & Noble and a Borders!! I GET TO READ MANGA!!!!!! *thrilled screech*

So... um... another poem...
From here on these were written somewhere during the course of high school... I can't pinpoint exactly when, but here ya go. I think this is the last cheesy one.

I think.

VII(7)
some people spend their lives
dreading this world of dread
the way they perceive life
makes them lively as the dead

they get up out of bed
and look the window through
a pounding in the head
see gray skies despite the blue

then i look above my head
see stars shining oh so bright
see the moon of silk ahead
see the sun in morning light

sapphires in the sky above
all the plants of emerald
water sparkling crystal clear
and i think they must be mad

joy is bubbling in my heart
courage coursing through my veins
laughter melting tears away
fire sparkling in my eyes

So I'm off to do... something... now my mom and bro are talking about the politics of his university... *sigh* so booooooring...
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Friday, March 11, 2005

   WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Okay, can someone PLEASE TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON?!?!?! I keep hearing all this stuff and it's driving me NUTS!

What's all this about needing Shikon no kakeru [Jewel shards] in order to cross through the Well?! Is that how they explain it in the anime?! In the manga, they have NOTHING to do with it! The only people who can go through are Inuyasha and Kagome and there are no special requirements for it to work! I mean, come on! That first time Kagome came back to her world running from Yura she didn't have ANY of the Jewel, and when Inuyasha came to get her, he didn't, either!! DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm getting FRUSTRATED!!!

I'm also getting frustrated with the fanfic authors who have these happy ideas about letting all sorts of other people go through the Well! Let's let the rest of the group go to the future!! Let's take Kagome's family to the past!!! WHAT THE HELL are these people THINKING?!?!?!?!?!?! Maybe they're NOT!!!!!!! Do they know how STUPID that sounds?!?!?!?!

*breathe*
*breathe*

*sigh*

This has been a furious message from Aliryn. Think about it. Or she might have to haunt you...
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   ...huh?
Sheesh...
First I notice my new fanart STILL isn't up...
And then I notice that people's music on their sites here starts working on my home computer for NO GOOD REASON WHATSOEVER after NEVER HAVING WORKED BEFORE...
Sheesh...
Want another poem...? I love today's... I think it was my first really good one... it's also the first freestyle I did...

IV(6)
i'm looking around
and wondering now,
how could i have been so blind?
"be yourself—we like you that way"
isn't that
what they always say?
why did they lie?
they don't smile
when i'm me
not even
condescendingly
i'm trying to see
a reason to be
something other than me
but i'm not finding
anything
why is my heart roaming free
refusing the chains of
life's agony?
i see lives around me—
sickly wisps barely seen—
locked up in cages
of worries
why don't they fly?
i see them before me
and cannot deny
the thought in my heart
that perhaps i'm better off
with my wings

Heh heh... needless to say, I was VERY antisocial my freshman year of HS when I wrote this... of course I did have philosophical reasons...
Ah, never mind.
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