Sunday, February 20, 2005

   Sooooooooo... erm...
Hi!

I got a hat last week...

Well...

There's nothing going on here -_-
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Saturday, February 19, 2005

   ick...
(Still late on Friday here)
Sorry I wasn't anywhere around today... I'm sick. Blah. My throat hurts and my head hurts and I feel just plain icky.

Oh well.

So... nothing has happened today. Because I've been sick in bed. Asleep. Crap I'm bored. I don't feel like doing anything. I guess that's why I'm sitting in front of the computer. Wait... I do that anyway...

As you may have noticed, being sick impairs my thinking skills massively. So does having a headache.

So I'm gonna try to see the sites of people who updated while I was fitfully sleeping...

So...

Yeah...
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Thursday, February 17, 2005

   Hellooooooooooooooo!
So how's everyone? What's up?

(Oh, yay! a song I love just came on the radio! But that's the only place I've heard it so who knows what it's called. Even if the dj says I tune the djs out. Just play music already.)

Soooooooooooooooo I've realized that, not only am I way too obsessed with my obsessions, everything besides Inuyasha and Immortal Rain only enter my consciousness in a distant, vague way... I think most of my mind is lost in a thick mist most of the time... and that's where everything else is hiding. But guess WHAT!

I DON'T CARE!!!

So. It's... cold... yeah... I had to walk to the bus stop at six this morning... and I was late... so I was half-killing myself going so fast... literally, with my asthma... and even though I was exerting so much energy I was still freaking cold the whole time... so it was really cold... and on the bus... they don't heat them well... at least I have a vague memory of those things...

So... in theatre design (which I had this morning at eight and which is why I have to get up and go out so early) we've been working with this program called Viz (no connection to the anime/manga American company Viz, though it sure as hell caught my attention when I first heard of it) Autodesk which is the most awesome graphics program I've ever worked with. Actually considering the only others I've worked with are paint, terragen, and java applets, that doesn't mean too much... but it still rocks. So bad... the things I could do if I could just play around on it... instead of... you know... do specific things... for assignments...

ooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo last night we went to get some stuff from my brother and went to the bookstore by his university (cuz my mother's sick of the one by our house) and... and... I read Immortal Rain 2 and parts of 3 again... I love those... I think I was finally getting through to my mother by saying how I kept reading the same ones over and over and she asked how much just one would be and I said $10 and she said she wished she could but she didn't dare, at least 'til she balanced her checkbook... of course I'd want to get 2 because I'm psychotic about getting things in order but they only have three near my house. We'd have to go a fair way to find 2. There's 3 bookstores we could find it at but... erm... we probably don't have the money anyway. Damn. Really. Damn it all.

My eyesight keeps getting worse and I thought maybe I'd call my grandpa and ask for some money to go to the optometrist and get new glasses or contacts or whatever (I'd vastly prefer contacts. VASTLY.) I don't know if he can though. He owns a pharmacy (and he's the pharmacist too), you know, those old drugstore-type thingies you hardly see anymore but he lives in a tiny valley in the mountains. Though Super Wal-Mart in its immense magnanity is swiftly putting him out of business. So first he's making less money and second he's been helping with our bills, so I don't know if he can. Dang. I'm tired of squinting. No matter what I try to see I get a bloody headache from eyestrain. The only way to avoid it is to keep my eyes shut all the time.

Yeah, right.

So...
erm...
I think I've rambled long enough.

So, how is everyone? What's up? (because I think you will have forgotten by now that I asked up at the top. because of my rambling. oh YAY another song I love on the radio!)
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Haha oh look I did get to everyone's sites. Probably because only like 5 people on my list updated.
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IT'S CREEPING COLD!
It might even be a little warmer than yesterday but today for some reason I'm really, really cold. And I hate cold. So I'm really miserable right now.

Anyway, I probably won't get to people's sites today. Sorry! My mother and I have to go to my brother's university to get something from him... some kinda paperwork... or something... like I pay attention to that. But even if we don't stop at the bookstores on the way (please!? I hope I hope I hope!) I have to write an essay tonight and then tomorrow is the day that I have to get up at 6 *blech* so I don't want to be up very late. Especially since I've only had mediocre amounts of sleep so far this week... overall... so...

I'm feeling so overboardly obsessed with my obsessions right now... I absolutely hate thinking about anything else... I'm so preoccupied... not that that's very new. But when I try to read or watch a manga or anime or whatever I somehow can't concentrate... which is the only reason I'm tempted to actually get tested for bipolar disease. I don't mind being hyper. After spending most of the last eight years in deep depression being hyper the majority of the time like I've been lately is wonderful. I love it. But it isn't good for me... and my mind won't stay on the same track very well at all... gr. So I really don't know what to do. If they diagnose you with bipolar they give you medicine to even you out... but I've spent enough time not feeling anything in particular, and I think that might happen with that medicine... so... I dunno. Dang.
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

*twitch*
sudden... irrepressible... urge... to go watch... Inuyasha movie 1... *twitch twitch* but it's at home... and who's got time...
*huge twitch*
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   WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!
Ok! I'm in hyper-mode again!
For your own safety, be prepared to duck at all times.
So today I went to people's sites who'd updated FIRST before posting or anything else whatsoever. GO ME!!!

So anyway.
Erm...

Oh yeah! It's cold. Really, really cold. Not super cold, but really, really cold. For someone with probably less than 10% body fat anyway. I lost track of how many layers I put on. I didn't have to walk to the bus stop... I asked my mother to drive me to school... I just didn't want to spend an hour walking in all that snow and inevitably falling several times before riding in cold, unheated busses... (sorry, ElvesAteMyRamen-chan. No falling today. You'll have to get your laughs some other way! Mwahahahahah!!!)
but I feel really, really bad... because she's sick... and she needed to sleep... I could have walked... I feel like a big meanie. Urg. Could someone step on me now?
...please?

So back to something less depressing. What does everyone think of fanfic? I mean, in general? Ghost Xi here on myOtaku and a friend of hers have some pretty good Yu-Gi-Oh stuff going on. I don't know anything whatsoever about Yu-Gi-Oh but I like reading the story phases because... despite my lack of context... I rather like the stories. Also they're very well-written. Grammatically and spellingly (ok now who's the hypocrite, that's not even a word) correct all the way, not to mention the style is commendably good. I've seen worse stuff in print. Seriously. They'll publish anything these days, but most particularly if it's bad.
Ah anyway.
So I said something about Inuyasha fanfic yesterday...
And I just wondered. How many people think it's a good idea? Or that it sucks? Or do you read it? Do you write it? What do you write about (specifically)?

Ok, just wondering...
My brother never reads it. He's not into anime, he barely knows what it is (infidel) but he's into The Lord of the Rings and other scifi/fantasy-type stuff.

I hope everyone has a good day!
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Monday, February 14, 2005

   Uh... hi!
So... erm...
hi!

So ElvesAteMyRamen-chan helped me get my sticky background. I'm liking how my page is going--more complicated and cool. Oh, and I changed the intro if you didn't notice yet. I got tired of the other one. I'll probably get tired of this one, too... (I get tired of things fast... especially when it's stuff I made -_-' no I don't understand it.)

So anyway I'm awfully bored at the moment... I'm feeling very blah... I stayed up 'til like six this morning and was supposed to leave at eight but slept through the alarm and thus missed my computer lab... oh well. There's others this week I can make up (the one part of an early Monday lab. if I miss it there's lots of chances to go to another one) but that's a boring topic, now isn't it.

So I'm really, really wishing I had some money... as stated before, I'd like $30 for Immortal Rain 2-4 and $20 for Inuyasha movie 2. I'd also like $50 for a new cd player... I figured out what was wrong with mine. The little lazer-eye thingy that reads the cd is broken--it can't move back and forth, and I don't think I can fix it.

Ah, drat.

Not to mention that I'd also like however much money it would take to get a bunch of Inuyasha dvds... and maybe some other series... and maybe some way to get cable, so I can watch stuff... like Fullmetal Alchemist, which I somehow love to death and is one of my favorites even though I've only seen the first two episodes... I'm just glad I taped them. I watch them over... and over... and over... as well as whatever other anime I managed to tape... do I get sick of them? NO!!! Blasphemy! But I do wish I had others. I catch myself thinking "I want that episode! And that one! And the one where... and and the one where... " ad infinitum.

Well anyway I've been in a weird mood... I was super-hyper last night, and read some Inuyasha fanfic over at deviantArt, some of which rocked and I was sooooo much even more hyper... and then I read some which were depressing. They killed off all the main characters in rotten, mean ways... well, what did I expect? It's fanfic, and that's precisely why I never used to read it. But I read one Inuyasha fanfic because it went with a picture I really liked... and got hooked. It's still probably the best I've read, but... *GAH* like I need another sub-obsession! I've got enough of those for each of my many major obsessions it's ridiculous!

Oh well. Such is the life of a fangirl... not that that bugs me *huge grin*

Anyway, I need to go. I've got history in a few minutes. I'm going to try to get to people's sites later, and I apoligize for not coming all weekend! My home connection is slower than... than... than...
Erm...
I hate cliches so I'll just say it's really slow, even though that's not terribly descriptive.

Anyway, I hope everyone's doing awesome! Have a good day!

Oh and go see ElvesAteMyRamen-chan's realistic Inuyasha pic!
(Especially the girls... he... hehe... ^_^' )
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Friday, February 11, 2005

   Does ANYONE know where you can download Inuyasha episodes for free!? I've been looking everywhere and I keep running into one kind of wall or another!
*FURIOUS AURA*
Isn't there ANY way to get them!?
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   blah...
So... I'm gonna leave up the last post cuz I put it up late on Wednesday and on Thursday everyone said "oh look it doesn't say today, she didn't update" but now it's 2am so it'll show up as Friday and I can get people to read yesterday's (okay, okay, it was yesterday for me) post. Go do that now.
*waits*
Okay, I hope you actually did cuz I'm going to write more about what happened. Sooooooo I was up late Wednesday because I was doing stuff... that wasn't... really... anything... I told my mother I was doing homework... and I was up 'til like... four... and I needed to get up at six today to catch the bus to my class at eight. My mother felt bad for me, though she said I ought to do stuff more ahead of time, and said she'd drive me to another session of my class at ten, so I wouldn't have to get up 'til nine or so... but... she's so terribly sick... and I felt horrid... but at the same time, I was dead tired (yeah, yeah, I know, it was my fault) and also I'd had a migraine all day (still have it, too) and I just in no way felt able to haul myself to the bus stop and drag myself through the day. And as I said, I felt horrid about my mother driving me. But I slept through my alarm--therefore not waking up my mother to take me--and didn't go to class.
I did it on purpose.
So anyway.
don't have to get up 'til eleven tomorrow, which is good, because I'm not tired yet. I didn't wake up 'til after 7pm. That's how my body wants to sleep, early morning to early evening. But it doesn't work with the rest of the world. Sucks. I've been fighting it my whole life. So has my mom. My brother, too, but he has more self-control and doesn't have the mental illnesses that my mom and I have. When you're major depressive, and you're feeling really bad at the moment, and all you feel like doing is staying up to read or watch a movie or spaz out in some way or another instead of laying in bed being too depressed to sleep, and there have been a thousand nights just like it, and you've gone to bed like a good little girl for all of them, there's a point where you just don't give a damn anymore and you do what you feel like because it's the only way you can help yourself a little. Ooooooooo look I wasn't gonna go off on some depressing tangent but that's what I did.

So I changed my intro... waddaya think?
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