Friday, April 22, 2005

Do you see
I remember that day
When you looked in my eyes
You looked surprised
and i was left wondering
if you'd seen the lies
did you see the hurt?

I felt like you saw everything
past my eyes to my selfish soul within

I wish it didn't end like that
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

I am
I am
A dragger
Not a cutter
More pain
More relief
Less scars. Apparantly.
But ever a scar on my mind
Burned in my eyes

I am
Not a wife
But a mother
I'll be there
Hugs and kisses
Sit on my knee
I'll stroke your hair
"you'll catch your death of cold"

I am
Forever an Angel
Forever a Saint
Forever a spiteful pawn of satan

I am
not
what you think
I am

Your downfall
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Buried
I put my feelings in a box
Turned the key
Locked the locks
You'll never find it
In my mind
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Today
things got worse.
They came after me again. Somehow they know exactly where i'll be. I wasn't on my own though so they merely resorted to throwing bread. Yesterday left a bruise, on the left side of my face where the fork hit me. I wish my friends didn't have to be involved, a two pence piece split open Spoon's head today. I wasn't there when it happened. I was told by his brother, and i rushed to see, i'd expected it to be worse. I'm thankful its not.
Damn.
Its my fault.
He didn't deserve it.
I'm a hazard to my friends.
It ends tommorrow
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Little Miss Nobody
Let your eyes slide over me
Don't acknowledge me
What do you want from me?
Flirt with me one night
Ignore me the next
Is this how it works?

I won't let you use me
anymore
I won't let you
Don't talk to me
Don't look at me
Don't let me see you
Don't look at me like
that I
Can't stop you

You know i saw saw you with
Her
I walked right past
I screamed
Inside

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