Friday, December 7, 2007

   Happy lucky holidays
HALOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! hey everyone! it's been so looooong! XD i've been busy with DA and schtuff (which reminds me: if you want art, go look at my DA account) and school, and being depressed and all kindsa crap.

so, all my friends here: I STILL LOVE YOU ALL. IT WAS MY FAULT. I'M SORRY. ;D


NEWS: I went to bumbershoot and got to see Panic! at the disco live! it was soooo awesome! and the lead singer kissed the guitar player on the head after telling everyone it was the guitasrist's b-day. you could hear the screams(of fangirl joy) from there to mexico!

also, between their songs, the lead singer was talking and he was like

"This next song-"
and then i screamed at the TOP of my LUNGS (i got to the mosh pit during the act before them so i was only like twenty feet away from the stage.)
i screamed "YOU'RE SEXY!!!!!!!!!!"

and he was like

"...So, this next song...it's....it's sexy. *chuckle*"

OMGOMGOMGOGMOGMGOMGOMGOGMOGMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOMSIOPHGiluawhgjilo;r'piUJihOPJGIOHWSONJIODGHIO iowhy80t2y075!!!!!!!!!!

CAN YOU BELEIVE IT!


nd afterword i met this cute guy who i wlked with back to the parking lot (arm in arm) and then havvy called me a slut for that, after he left and i had his phone number, and then we were locked out of the festival! dad was my ride back, and i'd promised to meet him next to the fountain, inside the fence we were now shut out of! so i asked one of the security guards, and se said i couldn't go back in. and i told him aboutdad and he was like

"Omigod, tall that BIATCH to come pick up his daughter!" and i was like

"If i said that i would get grounded but you can say that if you want." and then i called dad, and told him i couldn't get back in and he asked 'really?' and i handed the phone to the security guy to convince him. and hte security guy was just like:

"yes, sir. she can't get back in sir. sorry sir."

and i hung up and then was like "You didn't say it?!"

and he was like

"yeah, well...." and then we both cracked up. ^^

then havvy....she hid from me when i was walking around, and it scared the crap out of me. i mean, she didn't have a cell phone, i didn't know where she was, and we were down toen right after a concert with loads of people around. havyy's like a sister to me, so it seriously nearly gave me a heart attack. and then i went around shouting her name.

and then she jumped otu at me from behind a fence. i nearly started screaming at her, but i didn't. havvy, i know you're reading this........>:( for that.

then we were just waiting for my dad to show up, and there was this guy with his friend and one was hobbling (#1) and leaning on his bud. so we went over and offered to help. so #1 with the hurt foot leaned on hanna, and i talked to them and asked if they needed ice. then #2 who was helping was all like

"no, we're just gonna get him back to our car."

and havvy and i were like "okay."

we helped them some more, and were getting to the farther (darker) side of the parking lot, and i decided it was time to go. i mean, who knew if his foot was really hurt? (havvy's so nice, she was like 'no, lets help them!') so i grabbed havvy, and we left.

also, there was this cute asian dude with awesome hair who havvy liked who was the friend of the boy who liked me. havvy made me promise that if i ever saw him again i had to give him ahug. then a couple weekends later, i saw them at the mall.

so i walked around with them for a while, and cute asain dude, at one point randomly said

"Mrs. Packman gives the best blowjobs! she's like 'angnangnangnang' and then you're like 'SHIT! where the fuck did it go?'" i was like...wow....but i ended up giving him a hug and then explaining about havvy....he said he didn't remember her....>:O stupid jerk.



MORE NEWS! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE IT'S IMPORTANT!


GUESS WHAT! YAY FOR ME! i STOPPED CUTTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOO.....;_; cutting made me really happy tho....so now i'm kinda depressed again.

i don't know if many of you knew that i was cutting. well, i'm going through smoe tough stuff. mom and dad finally hired a lawyer for the divorce. and for a while....every week every time i was with mom...she would explode and start cussing about dad at least once. she'd be like "i WISH I HAD NEVER MARRRIED YOUR FATHER! HE'S SO IMMATURE HE COULDN'T EVEN DO ONE THING FOR ME! HE GOES ON HIS HOUR LONG BIKE RIDES AND THEN IS TOO TIRED TO TAKE OUT THE TRASH!" and then after she did that, she would start crying and saying how horrible she was that she was saying that in front of me....that was the worst....that she was breaking down because she said that too me. it's like it was my fault. but now she's happier so i'm happier and she has a new french boyfriend, who gave me a violin for christmas (early) but who still makes me feel uncomfortable....but at least she's happy, y'know?

but dad. i'm vegetarian, i don't eat sugar, or wheat. and dad doesn't really have food for me in his fridge besides corn tortillas and cheeze, which is REALLY not healthy to eat all the time. and when i tell him that, he hits me. but the bruises don't last long at all. no, dad hurts my feelings most cuz whenever i try to give hima hug heshrugs it off, and then i watch my friend Ally, and as soon as her dad comes home, she jumps on him, and then can sit together on the couch all that stuff. and i don't want to be jealous of one of my best friends, but i am.

so yup. i was cutting. and all those stupid, idotic things about "oh, they do it to match the pain on the inside. they have a disease" are all crap. (hee hee...while i was still cutting, my grandma gave me a lexture about how i should 'tell my mom if any of my friends did that, it's a disease, and they're not thinking strait.' i nearly burst out laughing in her face, and later i was glad i had been wearing gloves.)

no no, i didn't do it cuz other people were mean to me, really. it's stupid to hurt yourself for OTHER people's problems. but i did it cuz (the first time) i was really depressed, and then i found out....that it made me happy as hell. i'd cut, and then i'd bounce around for joy until the stinging stopped hours later. i would giggle fo like...five minutes strait. and blood is a pretty color (not other ppl's tho) it was crazy good, i mean, if it's cut or be put on happy drugs, i'd SOOOOO rather have scars. those drugs to all sh*t to your immune system.


but mom found out. and didn't even scream, was just quiet. and told me i wouldn' be allowed out of the house, i couldn't play in the soccer Presidents cup tournament, and i couldn't see my friends if i did it again. and then she checked my wrists every night for a week. i really thought about cutting on my legs but people see those. and my neck would have been fun, but that'd make mom freak double...and then i stopped feeling so extremely depressed: mom was happier, Ally stopped being a jerk (i think she might have been being mean BECAUSE she knew i was cutting) I talked to Havvy's younger sister, and managed to cheer her up, i realized how cute some of the boys in my public speaking class were.....

And now i hardly ever want to cut. i got my joy back. i'm back to, fo example, on long nightime drives, being able to stare out my window for and hour straight, and just feel soooo happy it hruts my heart, just because the stars are so pretty that night. so. i did my emo thing. i'm not sure if i will go back to it. probably not, now.

OOH! and HENRY gave me a HiGH FIVE when i told him i'd stopped. XD henry did....whoooo. should i ask him out> he's cute, and goth, and thinks i should be goth too, but i told him that i had too much blue and purple in my wardrobe (emo colors) and that my hair, being purple and blond, not black, was not goth. and that i wouldnt' dye my hair black. he told me to buy black clothes, i said i didn't have the money, and he told me to buy them anyway....XD

i got him a bottle of black nail polish for christmas.

but, despite all the awesomeness (except when he gets all smart-a$$y) his MOM....oh good god....she's SOOOOOO over protective! we go on a trip to oregon to track animals in the sand dunes, and she asks if we're gonna BRUSH our TEETH. FTW? my teacher was liek "yeah, if they do...they will...ther is a bathroom at the camp site." my god lady, we're a bunch of 14-17 year olds. will they tuck us into our sleeping bags too? ahhg....so i don't think i'll ask him out, because of his mom.



Other OTHER NEWS:

I'm GOING TO DIE IF THE NEXT THEIF BOOK DOESN'T COME OUT SOON!!!!!!!!! MEGAN WHALEN TURNER, GET IT MOVING PLEEEEEAAAASE!!!!!!!!!


OTHER OTHER OTHER NEWS:

now into 'Le Chevalier D'Eon' teh anime, because its fricken awesome. check it out. i researched the entire history of the real person the main character is based off of. i could recite it right now. but i won't, cuz tis post is long enough already.


WHO WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT THE TRIP TO THE OREGON DUNES WITH PERVY JOHNOTHAN, AND ANDREW-WHO-OBVIOUSLY-HAS-A-CUSH-ON-ME AND GOTHFUL HENRY, AND DEVON-WHO-PROBABLY-HAS-A-CRUSH-ON-ME?????


tell me, and i will say all about it. it was one helluva fun place. if someone tells me how, i can post some pictures from the trip. YAY!


Luvs, AllE K.



P.S.

EVERYONE who already asked me for a pic i haven't drawn yet, TELL ME. i was in a slump (a bleeding one) and now i'm back,high and dry, and ready to draw!!!!

list of ones i remember:

Ed doing alchemy for: Valentineismine (i think)

Happy pride ed for: Chocolatealchemist (i think not so sure one this one)

now, tell me the rest since i haven't been here in months. tell me quick, i might start charging soon, someone requested a print on DA. ^^


MERRY CHRISTMAS BREAK! christmas will be here soon, sit tight and hope for school to get out, everyone!

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