Sunday, September 5, 2004

Since the first time I saw you I could not quit thinking about you. I could only imagine spending my whole life getting to know you and only you. I want to get to know you so I can fall in love with you. I have longed to be in love once more and you know all about me. I know only a little bit about you and I will always strive to learn more. I feel an odd warmth in my heart when I see you. My lips long to touch yours, just so gently when I think of kissing you my heart beats faster then it has ever done before. I wake up and smile because I imagine you are beside me but then I open up my eyes and realize that you are not. I slowly become cold, distant, and my smile fades, as I sink into a time of depression. I call you to hear your voice, it makes me happy, my sadness becomes happiness when I see and hear you.
I will always long for you in many ways and I always feel a bit of love when I say your name. I hear your name everywhere and I look around for you but I cannot see you. I am happy for the brief moment I hear your name, and when I imagine you near me. I would give my heart for you, if it made you live... I would love to see you for that last minute of my life. You are the only one I care for now. And you will be the only one I will care for, for the rest of my life. I have dreams of you, and I cannot get you out of my head. The dreams take place under the moon, and you cannot imagine how beautiful you look, how radiant you are. I see you under the moon and just love watching you run your hand through your black hair. It looks almost platinum in the moonlight as I see your beautiful body bask under the full moon. I can only say three words but speaking them would either end our friendship or turn it into a relationship. I did not want to risk it but I couldn't help it. I love you, I will always love you and I cannot stop loving you. I cannot help but tell you how much I care for you and want to be with you. I will always love you, you are always there for me and you will always be my friend and I can only hope that you could return my love.
You said you would have to think about it. And when I woke up I was saddened. I called you first thing and confessed my love for you, but alas it was the same, you had to think for a while. I waited for hours, which felt like years. When you finally called I could only feel hurt, I thought you would say you could not love me but you finally returned my feelings. I almost passed out, I wanted to tell you over and over how much I loved you, and wanted to be with you but I could not speak.

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