Wednesday, September 29, 2004

   Ugh...

I just can't wait for Challenger, I'm just watching the clock go back and forth. I miss Friday! x(
You guys probably don't know why I miss Challenger, huh? Well, it started today when I missed Challenger even more, with one sentence:
What's so great about leaving me?
My god, this girl Briana seriously need an ego check. She hates all of my friends, she even hates Chelsea the bubbliest one I know. They're all so cool. She drives me away from them. I want to go one way, she drags me the other. I was talking about Jessica again today, because I was really ticked off about the "best friend" comment the other day so I wanted to remind her about Jessica, and she's like, What does that make me? It's always about her, like how it's always about me nowadays. At Challenger, I cared more about others than myself. Here, all I want to do is save myself from her. I am so incredibly ticked off. I can't wait to see people who actually care and KNOW me. She doesn't know my favorite colors, she doesn't know my history, she doesn't know what I like to do, she doesn't know what I like to talk about, or what I like to watch, she doesn't know about my pros and cons, and she doesn't know ME. I know, I should give her a chance. I already know one of her really gross dark secrets. I know she got a lot of detentions for flirting. I know she gets bad grades. I know she has an ego problem. I know she's selfish. I know she hates reading. I know she hates my friends who she keeps me away from so I can't know them better. And I know that she went from liking three guys to a final one in two days. She isn't funny. She isn't cool. She's definitely not sparky and cheery. She thinks my hyperness is bad and wants me to stop being so sugary all the time. And she wants me to stop worrying about grades. I don't like her. I hope that next year, she'll just not be in any of my classes. I don't hate her, I just wish she wouldn't be there every day, every second, in my face. I spend most of homeroom and tech, trying to be me. But when I'm around her, I hate to talk and joke, because I'm scared she'll laugh at me. I hate to do anything. I just do nothing. I am so glad I'm going to be free on Friday. I can't stand her anymore.
I can't wait for tomorrow lunch either. I get to get away from her at lunch for Banner Committee, she was one of the reasons I joined. Tomorrow I go to Yearbook too. w00t! I'm just so ticked off. I can't stand this. This unbearable weight is on me. And it's not helping talking about it on here, because this feeling isn't going away. ><
I'm ticked off.
Archto be with me.

Keep Smiling. ^_______________^
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