Tuesday, January 25, 2005

GRR TO THE WORLD!!
I feel like crap! I don't think brooks lieks me any more first off! He smiels at me but he like just logged on and instead of saying hi he just loggs off and he does this all the timebut if it were jennifer who he is liek really close with he would have stayed on jennifer is cool but I think they both like eachother and I am sick of being alone!
Bryce made me feel bad today **don't metion it n e more Rachel already put her foot in his mouth** and he was askign me how hot my mom is and I am all wel I don't reate my mom but htey say she looks like m if that helps you n e and he goes O then forget it and it really hurt and then this guy cris stated talking about lipo sucktion and how my family probably needs it though they don't know I herd them. Then Jess called me a fat lard and ugg I feel like I am ungly and unwanted the only person who listens to my problems is Rachel and even then she has her own jukn to deal with. I am just so sick of ebign alone and have no guy to hld me and hug me and tell me everytihing is goign to be all right like I used to. I just liss it so much and then I got all depressed last night and Bryce sayign what he said it shows me hwo everyone around you can effect anorexia and bulemia I didn't eat lunch today partly becaus ehe made me feel fat and because I was upset about him and junk about brooks. Man I am just sick of the world.
then I have jessica and huong to worry about huong I love you and DON"T SMOKE DOOBAGE!!!!! JEss is cutting again she says as long as she is cutting she willeat and when she stops eating she will stop cutting and she has like this huge cut on her leg that I am afraid she has tried to burn and I fell lik any minute now I am gonna start crying! DAMN THE WORLD!
On a happier note I just found out my Bio teacher used to sell hippie apparel and she sold bongs **for you illiterate people that is what they use to smoke pot in** which is like really weird since she is like in her 60s or 70s. so WOW!
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