Wednesday, October 31, 2007

what the fuck?! why cant you just leave me alone?! i am doing so fucking good. you have no fucking reason to do that, you motherfucker. i hate it when you traeat me like a peice of shit! well, whatever, fuck you. just leave me the fuck alone and dont talk to me. jerk.
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Thursday, October 25, 2007

well, that was a fun week. happy tho, that it is over. i am exhausted! working this long weekend. already asked what was going on. nothing, because i did not get an answer. don't really know what to do about that, but i guess it doesnt matter now does it? anyways, hope everyone is having a good life right now.
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Monday, October 22, 2007

so utterly confused of what i should do, how i should be handling everything. why can't i forget about him, as he has forgotten about me? why can't my dreams come true. he tells me, and she tells me, both, that to make your dreams come true, you must work hard and want them more than anything else in the world. well, i do believe i have not stopped working to make this one come true, and it is all i ever think about. what is the matter with me?! why can't i jsut forget about it?!
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Sunday, October 21, 2007

what is the right thing to do??
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Thursday, October 18, 2007

beauty in bleeding....
cant seem to want to throw out the fucking flowers, wich is stupid, cuz they are going to die soon anyways. for fuck's sake. i am so pathetic sometimes. whatever.
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you will come to know your mother's body, and you will slay the father whom hath put you in your mother's womb.
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

dont know why, so dont ask. maybe it better. too bad though. i know you dont understand, but i cant help it. i dont know why i am not angry at lil G
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leave it all behind and dont look back.....
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Thursday, October 11, 2007

our right. we are all a joke. there is nothing seriouse about it. i dont have a head on me. i dont understand. i am not mature or grown-up or smart. i don't know how the world works, and i am not much good for anything.

i dont know what to do. i dont like this. i never stop wanting to cry, or cut, or scream. shouldn't i have gotten over this already? for fucks sake. i thought thing would be okay now.

i know i am an embaressment to anyone who knows me. i get it. you didnt have to fuck up to be an outcast. i fucked it all up on my own,and things are not bad for me. i have a fucking good life and i am a spoiled little brat. whooptie fucking doo. doesnt mean i cant feel everyone fucking clawing at me, trying to bring me down, doesnt mean i cant feel you slashing at me with your words and action.s . doesnt mean that you all saying all of that about me isnt making me want to run away. leave me the fuck alone, please, so i can fuck my life up myself, without you hanging over me narrating.
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Thursday, October 4, 2007

sometimes i really have no clue what to do........ it is stories like thoses that have made my dreams grow.......i love thoses stories....i dont think it will ever happen to me.....but i will never stop having hope.......
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