Thursday, November 3, 2005

i don't know how i feel today. a little sick, from not eating much, a little excited, cuz the end of school is soon and i.ll get to see travis, more then a little tired, a little cold, a little depressed and a little sad. i can't figure out exactly what word can describe all of thoses feelings at the same time. got any ideas???
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Wednesday, November 2, 2005

Mon dieu! it's soo true and i compltely forgot! neither trav nor lil'bro can read what i wrote last post. yea! founda new trick! haha, anyways, i only started talking french cuz i was excited and didn't really realize it, or care . lol. anyways, yea. once again in class and trying very hard not to break out into song. lmao. anyways, c ya all later i guess! love ya like crazy love^^!
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Tuesday, November 1, 2005

hullow tous le monde! je suis en detension and je suis vraiment broed at the moment. je suis completement folle de mon amour!!! haha. je vous aime, ous le monde, et j'ai eu une journée merveilleuse! pas que ca vous change la vie, mais quand meme. anyways, yea. i goina go now but probably come back later and yea. really hope it ain't true cuz oh my gosh it just can't be true but no use freaking out over it, just accept the inevitable and go on with life. anyways, love ya all!
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Thursday, October 27, 2005

just finnished writing a 6 page long test in info bout if emboitées. it was purty fun i guess. one of the pages i found kinda hard, but makes the whole test alot more challenging and amusingly fun! i tried to be death today, at skewl, but it didn`t work out as well as i had hoped. lol. i going to the dance tonight. yuki took a picture of me pinning devin. twas a slight mistake cuz after that he pinned me and greg glittered me. i goina get greg back somehow! he gonna pay! haha. he glittered me like 5 times. but that ok, cuz he threw a pink sword at me and now i happy. anyways, yuki goina try and find colin after this class cuz he stole her camera. lol. i goina meet vickie's boytoy guy after skewl. it goina be funny cuz she all nervouse-like already. she was before anyways, now she still doing her test so she ain't really thinking of it i guess. anyweays, i have nothing good to say. miss ya love^^^miss ya lil'bro!
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

i miss you love, and lil' bro too. i miss everyone. well, i guess i got myself grounded. i unno for how long tho. byebyes people. love you!
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Saturday, October 22, 2005

i'm at my dad's right now. we had a talk boutme sneeking out and all that. he actually asked me not to do it no more! i think he even got a little mad! although i hate it when people are seriouse and talking in a calm quiet voice, but still. i'm also happy because i made a new lil' brother! i got in trouble 2 nights ago cuz i stayed on msn talking till 4 am. yea, mom putting a lock on the pc on my name. really sucks so i won't b able to talk to anyone, but whatever. not the end of the world. anyways, i'm goina go cuz shaeleigh keeps reading this and it freaking me out a little. love you!!!
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Thursday, October 20, 2005

god, i don`t know why, but i miss you!
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

if u really think that i could do something like that, then i was right all along. u really don't know me at all. you think you do, but you don't. i don't blame u for any of it though, it ain't your fault. i hope you soon realize who i really am, or at least part of me. you never could really know me completely. nobody does. same as i will never know everything about you. whatever. i'm sorry.
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Monday, October 17, 2005

mika sais she gonna be checking my arms from now on, and i i do it again she gonna call the scary peple and tell them and i don't want them to come. i scared and i don't want to stop yet, but i don't want the scary people come and yell at me. i don't want my mom to find out, or glenn, or jus or dad. they are all already so dissapointed in me. i'm scared and i don't know what to do.
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Thursday, October 13, 2005

you told me it wasn`t true. u told me it was just my imagination. you were wrong. he doesn't want me. he doesn't ever want me. i heard it yesterday. it's the reason for the display of frustration, hurt and anger on my arms. you know, i really wish you would tell me these things to my face. then, it would only feel as bad as a dagger or sword ripping through my heart repedidly. hearing it from someone else, knowing u have once again talking to eachother behind my back, instead of actually saying it to my face, makes it feel more like a thousand flaming knives ripping open my heart, setting it on fire, all the while desteoying my very reasons for living, one by one. u have no idea how much u hurt me. you pretend to care. go ahead and fucking hate me you fucking bastard! but next time, if u have any guts whatsoever, you will say it to my fucking face!
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