Wednesday, December 2, 2009

i think ill get out of here where i can run just as fast as i can to the middle of nowhere i swear you are just like a pill instead of making me better u keep making me ill. i cant stay on your life support there is a shortage in the swich i cant stay on your morphine cuz its making me itch. i swear your just like a pill intead of making me better u keep making me ill.

i dont wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest or the girl who never wants to be alone i dont wqanna be the girl at four oclock in the morning cuz i am the only one you know who wont be home. thats not the way i want the story to end why do i feel this party is over no pain inside your my protection but how do i feel this good sober i dont wanna be the girl who has to feel the silence.... please dont tell me that we had that conversation because i dont remeber. i am safe up high nothing can touch me you lack perfection...

when i see your smile tears run down my face i cant replace

small simple safe price this is not a small cut that scabs and dries and flakes and heals whats left but a section of pigme size cuts my sad sorry selfish cry out to the cutter i am crying trying to picture your black broken heart love is not like anything especially not a fucking knife i am the cleanest i have ever been . just look at me look at me now im a fake.

we had fire in our eyes in the beggining i never felt so alive in the beggining you you blame me but its not fair when u say that i didnt try i jsut dont wanna hear it anymore i swear i never meant to let it die i jsut dont care about you anymore its not fair when u say that i didnt i just dont care about you anymore we had time on our side in the beggining we had nothing to hide you you blame me but its not fair when u say that i didnt try i jsut dont wanna hear it anyhmore i swear i never meant to let it die i judt dont care about you anymore its not fair when u say that i didnt try i jsut dont care about you anymore.

everything that freaks me out the lighthouse gleams has just run im cold AS cold as cold can be
let the hurricain set in motion let the rain of what i feel right now come down let the rain come down. where is the coast guard i keep looking each direction for a spotlight give me something
im reaching for the life within me how can one man stop his ending
somtimes it feels jsut like im falling in the ocean let the hurricain set in motiong let the rain of what i feel right now come down

closed off fromm love i didnt need the pain once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
something happoened for the very firswt time with you my heart melted to the ground found something true
i dont care what they say im in love with you they try to pul me away but they dont know the truth

im killing time and time is killing me
pease juswt follow me i thought you wanted me cuz i want you all to myself make me feel like someone else please jsut follow me i thought you wanted me cuz i want you all to myself im under the gun your like the only one i just cant decde what your running from i cant keep my fucking mouth shut
i wish i could breath without getting it stuck
i thought you wanted me cuz i want you all to myself i can try to suck it upo i just cant swuck it up i want you all to myself i can to suck it up i juswt cant suck it up make me feel like someone else


i hear glasses breaking as i sit up in bed i told dad you didnt meant hose nasty things u said u fight about money about me and my brother it aint easy growing up in world war three i dont want love toi destroy me like it has done my famnily


i dont want love to destroy me


daddy please stop yeeling i cant stand the sound make momma stop

i love you troo i ran away today ran from the noise dont wanna go back to that place but dont have no choice no way

cant we wwork it out can we be a family promise ill be better ill do anything can we be a family i promise ill be better please dont leave...

you left already u never coming back you never felt about her the way u did mer. u are happy now with your new family love them more than life u look so happy so fake hope u hapopy cuz i am here without you a\nd always will be this will nbever change i will never get better i will always be this fucked up little girl and i will not get better not for you or mom or anyone. u will never be hapopier than the day i die i promie you i will make sure. u will no longer have anything to be ashamed of because your family will surely make you proud AND happy i have no doubt and neither shopuld you. i will not be your little girl and i wont try to make you happy i will only be myzelf in all the inglorious horrible ways that i have always been im sorry ic ant change for you anymore i have been trying aking myself sick i cant fit into your perfect little picture but i can make my own little warped world with what i have now i dont need you here anymore i only wish u were in my memories around me making me hapoy instead of making me feel the way u did it does not matter anymore and i know it was my own fault but it does not matter anymore u are the adult

i cant stay on your life support there is a shortage in the swich i tried to call the nurse again but shers being a little bithch
i swear your juswt like a pill stead of making me better you keep making me ill

jsut run as fast as i can to middle of nowhere


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