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Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Am feeling sorta lonely today... Feeling more and more disconnected with Oleg, as we dont really talk...I miss him, and it makes me sad that I am without him, but I dont really know what to do. I hope he receives his christmas present soon. He has not yet, and i really wanted him to receive it before christmas. I am trying to keep my hopes up in this respect.
Things with Eric are going fairly well. he is still my playmate, and a fantastic cuddler and i love to sleep next to him, but there are still no butterflies....
I am a little worried aabout an old man at work, in a position of power over me. he helped me get ahead in this job, helped me get a permanent position. and although i had the idea that he was a dirty old man, because of him jokes and the vular way he talked, it still does not compare to what was made obvious to me yesterday. he wants me. he wants a fling. he said it, out right. no matter that he is married, and we work together, and he has children that are too old for me to date. it really bothers me to be reduced to object yet again. i was thinking, oh yeah, this nice, somewhat high strung and dirty, but lovable old man with a good heart, wanted to help me get on the right track and get me a career. fucking bull shit like what the fuck is there not even one fucking man in this world that doesnt think with his dick? i am so sick of being concidered an object, its not even funny. all of this shit just makes me want to cry. and the fact that i got my hopes up about the possibility about men with even some morals makes me want to throw up! I know better already, I have been taught that lesson! I may aswell just kick my own ass if i keep letting myself be vulnerable like that ! fuck fuck fuck FUUUUCCCKKKKK!
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