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Tuesday, September 6, 2005
why the fuck do i worry like this every fucking time for every fucking day! i hate this! my god! im freaking out! again!!! fuck, i need to get out of here now. im going crazy! i have so long to wait. i cant do it. its so hard. i dont want to do it. i dont want to wait longer. oh, but fuck, been such a fucking dissappointment to everybody lately, i dont deserve what i want. this is why it is happening to me, making me crazy, making me feel so much fucking pain, so much worry. i am being punished. i deserve it, for i have done the same to the people i love, now, if only i was loved back. i kno i am cared for by many, but there are some who only pretend, in order to get what they want from me. oh, and i know about it! i cant let this happen! what the fuck is the matter with me?!what the fuck am i doing? its all my own fucking fault!god, someone help me. fuck no. nevermind. i dont need help. i can handle it. it my own mess, i goina clean it up then. fuck, how could i have let myself get fucked up like this? god dammit! god, i want to see him. i need to see him. but i can't. i kno what i'll see. hate, shame, fucking dissapointment. god, why isnt he ever there? fuck, it aint his fault. i should have gone to see him. it my fault. he very busy all the time, so i should have gone to see him. oh, but i cant now.
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