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Friday, January 6, 2006
im so confused about this. i've been wanting to cry again. i've thought of ripping up my wrist some more. i think pretty much the only reason i didn't, the only reason i stopped from starting is that i don't have a godamned sweater here with me! i am trying to make things better, to look at the bright side. i really do think i love him, because no matter how much he hurts me and slams me down, i still am crazy about him and think of only good things about him. lizbef sais i don't love him, i think because she doesn't really think i can figre this out on my own without fucking up or soemthing. she didn't tell me that, but that's what everybody thinks about me right? i'm a stupid little dumbass loser who doesn't know shit about life or living it wisely. whatever, i don't really care. i realized something today. i trust so easily, it's my own fault i keep getting hurt. i am stupid when it comes to that. i trust people i shouldn't, even after they've lied to be and broken my trust numerouse times. i can't even trust myself anymore. i wish i could get slugger hard every time i meet someone new. so then, i could keep from trusting them, kinda like a reminder to my dumb self. not like i could think of anything myself right? i don't really know whats wrong with me, i'm getting all bitter and depresed again and i don't like it. i don't think i like to grow. the more i grow older, the more complicated life gets. at the same time, i wish i was older already, so then i coul at least have my freedome to do what i think i need to do to make this all better.
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