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Friday, February 3, 2006
i can't stand any of this anymore. i am not to talk to travis anymore. he told me to stop talking to him, and he willl stop taling to me. fine. i don't fucking care anymore. i don't need him or greg or anyone else in this fucking place.
i am still mad like crazy at greg. i can't help it. it's like he likes slapping me across the face. but, even when i'm mad at him, i still can't seem to say a word against him. i guess i can say that i'm mad at him, but mostly only on here.
problem is, i think i may have becoma a little dependant on him. i mean, like every time my dad calls....like today....i always talked to him. most of the time anyways. he, at least, told me the truth. but, whatever. it's good i'm mad at him now. i can't be dependant on anyone. and i can't deal with my dad by cutting my arms either. so, i guess it just means that it's time to find some way to figure it out on my own without physical pain. whatever.
bryce keeps calling me, asking me out. i am hoping it only cuz he's bored. that's what he sais. i think i believe him.
i've been getting into bad habits again. from a few monthes ago. i really have to stop. at least im not cutting again, although, i kinda wanted to today after dad called.
travis sais i have to write something new on here. he sais i always write the same stuff. that was a while ago he said it. a month or something ago. i will try harder not to write down any of my feelings on this particular site anymore. i guess i just got back into the habit after i tried the first time. he is right, i guess. it's better to write about my dumbass weak feelings where nobody i know can see them. i guess i just don't write anything new cuz i ain't feeling anything new. i still secretly bleed from my heart when it comes to my dad. i still want to cry alot, for no apparent reason. my headaches have come back. i'm still trying to hate greg, or at least stay mad at him, with not much success. and, i'm still completely confused about my whole fucked up by my own stupid slef life.
have any advice?
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