Thursday, May 11, 2006

just got back from full moon meditation. it was amazing. there were twelve of us there, coincidentally, twelve in the same number of full moons in a year. fancy that. anyways, there is be a celebration for the begining of summer next month. i forget the name. it will also, i believe, be amazing. i can't wait.

yuki was back at school today finally. she didn't stay the whole time, cuz she didn't feel well, but at least she felt well enough to come for the time that she did. we were all getting worried.

i have no school tomorow, but, i am working the day friday. that'll be good. i need another shift or two. thankfully, i'm going to start getting more shifts now. i only didn't have many cuz so many people were being hired.

i can't go camping next weekend, with lizbef and her family. i have to work friday and saturday. oh well, i guess it was jsut not for me. i will have my oppertunity when it's the right time for me to take advantage of an oppertunity.

i have had a.....mixed up day. was thinking on alot of stuff, on how messed up things were getting, on how fast the time is passing.i was thinking, for real, to stop going to church and koz. only, for the simple reasons, that i love it so much, and feel so wonderful when i do go. i don't want to say goodbye. greg will be graduating in two school years. no, one! i'll be graduating in two. oh my goodness. in about 5 monthes, i will be in grade eleven. it's really hard for me to believe that. i just got into high school. in only one year, i'll have to say goodbye to greg. naudia too, and david and a bunch of people. that will be sad. i hate goodbyes.

i don't know what to do now. she, seems very sad, worse. i dunno. i wanna help. i am still worried. i hope she will be ok. sshe will. but i just hope it soon.

it feels so clear on my own, doing something that reflects me, like climbing or singing or swimming, all by myself. exploring, touching every leaf, smelling every flower, breathing in the sent of nature. that is me. if only i could get to that....

i wish to find my path in life. i want to learn everything. i want to do good in life. i've been cauing only bad things to happen lately. i want to be better.

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