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Saturday, May 13, 2006

do i want it? do i need it? should i accept it? try to change it? i don't know anymore. i am so tired of it. is it because it's not there anymore? it's so different for them. i am tired. i dunno what to do. it's all so simple there. it's not here. heart, broken. wretched out. every time. scared senseless. hiding under the blankets. i screwed it up again. i can't stop thinking about....i don't know! fuck you! you have no fucking idea! just as i said you would! i didn't! i was suppose to, but i didn't! you don't fucking get it do you? it's not that fucking simple! don't! why would you do that? you say you wsant to try! you fucking lier! you don't even know how! broken heart. bleeding. crying. hurt. ugly. pitiful. pathetic. you want more? fuck you! makw up your own. just look at me, and throw em off your fucking tongue! look at me and tell mne howe pathetic i am! if only you could read my thoughts, you'd know how much deeper the ugliness goes! you fucking whore! you don't even know me! i was supposed to get over it! i can't stop thinking about that! i can't believe i am still defending him! i stil hurt if they say anything about him. i hit her. i should not have. it's not my fucking resposibility. i am so tired. i want to lie down. to sleep, for as long as it takes for all of this to go away. i messed it up, once more. at least, i don't feel threatened anymore, by them. but i can't talk to either of the others. i am making excuses this time. it hurts. i can't talk. oh my god. i don't know. i have to go. b7ye.
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