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Friday, May 26, 2006
i don't care anymore. i am numb again. back to my wonderfull nothingness. i left yesterday, cooled off. came back home around 2:30 or something. whatever. i didn't go very far into the forest. i stayed by the stream mostly. then i went on st.anne's road, stayed there for about an hour, walking up and down, went to jamie's bridge, stayed there for a while. it's nice there, at night. there aren't many people out at that time. i only saw three people walking, and one biking. it doesn't matter though. i liked being alone. it's like a preview of how i am going to be for a long time. it's good. i like being alone. it doesn't matter anyway. i fell again yesterday. i didn't notice i was bleeding until about half an hour later. not much. only a scratch. i wasn't hiding though. that is a good thing. i didn't think of that till i got home. i wasn't hiding. at all. i was just...me. well, at the start, an angry, sad, fucked up version of me, but still me. after i cooled off, i became numb again. numb and cold. i like that it always comes back, no matter what. it's like, it's supposed to be my primary feeling for the rest of my life. i guess it'S supposed to feel that way now. whatever. there is always hope, i know. i just don't know where it is now. i have faith is the good of the world still, and i believe i always will. i have to go. i've already said too much.
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