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• Kationok
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• Been to Hell and back
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• 2001
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Friday, August 4, 2006
dont know what to say. i felt like running after you. right now, i feel sick. i may have caught a cold. but why would i then have a lump in my throat hat refuses to go away, and refuses to let me breath clearly? why would i have an ache in the pit of my stomach? or a trembling that doesn't seem to want to stop. in my mind, right now, i embrase the darkness. i embrace whatever force that keeps it numb. is it a drug, maybe? a natural drug that my body provides itself when things like this happens? in some ways, i hope it is, so that i wil never let my emotions get in the way again. so that i will never let my dumbass fucking emotions have this kind of controle over me. you have paid me, in full. just like you've paid all the other ones. paid me with thoses lies and looks. i cant believe i never saw it. i knew it was there. i lied to myself, because i wanted to believe in a dream. no fucking wonder u dont want me to know the truth! i was stupid to ever think it could happen. doesnt matter anyways. plans change. i am not going to live in my own place here. i cannot stay here. i am leaving, just as soon as i can. you may have made me realize how stupid the idea of true love, dreams coming true, and happily ever after is, but u cannot take my life from me. if u want to do that, u will have to kill me. u want to? go right a head fuck and fucking try! i dare you! but this time, i'm going to fight back!
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