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myOtaku.com: ange-noire


Wednesday, August 16, 2006

he sais there is nothing i can do. he is right. why do i have a sudden urge to cry my eyes out? we are falling apart. its going to end. it would be pretty easy right now to tell you that i hate life, but i dont want to take the easy way out. i am begging for numbness to come over my and inside my heart again. i will not cut for this. it will come. it always does. give me an air of indifference. the opposite of love is not hate. it is indifference. that does not matter right now. i dont know what to say. im scared. i am not brave. i want to go home. this is not home. i havent found home yet. i think, a little part of me wants to take the easy way out, and go out and get drunk. or high. or soemthing liek that. ive done neither in my life, but for once, a little part of me wants to. maybe it will make me forget. but then i remeber, i dont need alcohol or drugs to forget. all i need is that preciouse numbness to come to me, fill me completely and send me into a kind of daze. i don't know what else to say. i am going to go now. i dont know where i will go after i get off the computer. maybe ill go read a book. that always makes me forge. whatever. goodbye for now.
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