Wednesday, August 23, 2006

i think im a little creeped out. i got asked out by two guys in the same morning, one through drive-tru and the other walking home. both were significantly older then me, one by probably 5-10 years, and the other10-20 years. one has been passing by me every morning, and keeps offering me a ride home. thats the older one. the other come every night in drive thru. he doesnt creep me out as much. i also met two young women this morning, right after talking to willie(the older guy). they were worried about me cuz they saw me talking to him, and he had offered them a ride a few times too, and scared them, and they saw me walkngi every morning, so they offered me a ride home too. i didnt accept any rides home except from my mom. i told her a little bit about it, and she freaked out, so i told her i will be walking a different way home now. she doesnt want me walking anymore, so we are to discuss it tonight. ive personally decided to start carrying my knife again. it doesnt help much, and i dont know how to use it, but it makes me feel better. anyways, i have been feeling very odd all night. i was really happy at the start, but as night grew to dawn, i began to feel somhow sad and a little melancholy. i burnt myself twice, cut myself once, and got many scratches all over my arms and back, not to mention i have two new bruises on my sides. lol. so, pretty much a normal night of work for me^^. i don't really know what to say. alot is going on right now. i don't think i've accepted yet nearly half of it. i'm pretty sure that for the moment, i hate all guys, with some exceptions. at least guys that if they know u are penisless, they will go after you. i've concidered making up a girlfriend, just to make people fuck off. yea, i think thats what im going to do. makes a good excuse. lol, although, i do like how i am a last resort. makes me feel a little more random then usual. nothing special, kindof. i mean, a guy has to be desperate to ask a girl out in a mc.donalds drive-thru. fuck, i hate guys. ill betcha the only reason that happened is burger king drive thru girls all said no already. lmao. okay, i need more of a life. whatever. i know i am talking of stupid pointless stuff, but if i start talking about anything that is really on my mind, i dont think ill make any sense whatsoever, nor do i know if ill be able to not say things i shouldnt. so i am jsut going to go and leave all important matters unattended, and go to sleep. goodbye and good day.
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