Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Today i feel tired and i want to see Scotty but have to wait in till tonight then i can go see how is he is doing hope he is feeling better maybe we can talk some more if he not still mad at me anyways me and some friends are going out to the park soon its nice out today i'm feeling happy.
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Oh my gosh today was just err i have no words for it i got to talk to Scotty bro today and we talked on lots of things like what had happened that one night and how Scotty was scard and how i did something maybe i shouldn't have done but talking it over with him was good now he understands what happened and how we just need to talk it over with Scotty and work this all out but when me and his bro got down there we had seen that Scotty had done something so dumb he had hurt himself by cutting himself really bad and was just laying in bed bleeding he had to of done it some time a go cause it was not that big a cut but there was lots of blood so he had to of been like that for a long time for there to be so much anyways he is at the doctors now and seems like he going to be there for a long time but i'm going to be going there a lot to be with him and me and his bro talked some more and had been thinking its would be good for some one to stay with him so this does not happen again so we talked and when Scotty gets out if all works out he will move in with me so i can make sure this does not happen again and his bro thinks that would be good to but anyways i went back to his house to get something of his and such and had seen the little suicide note that we did not see befor my god it was so dumb how he was saying all his friends hate him and how all he does is make thing hard for every one and how he deserves to just die and how he thinks noone would care and well there was lots more but i don't want to say any more of the sad thing that was on it anyways he never was like this befor this all started like two or three months back he has been so damn sad all the time and lost in his damn depression its actually very Interesting how he takes thing so hard now i think this started with some girl he meet online and how she hurt him so bad and this i guess a lot of it would be with friends that had died that he new he had a really hard time with that then he got really bad when he move out of his bro house so he been on his own for like a week now and he was doing good in till now with this hole thing and now his bro thinks it would be good not to leave him alone just for a little anyways so that why me and his bro think he should move in with me so then i can make sure he gets better and all i just hope he is ok.
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Monday, July 11, 2005

Today i feel so dumb my friend Scotty has be doing thing that are just bad his bro call me to day and say a hole lot of shit to me someone been putting a lot of bull shit in Scotty head my gosh i don't know what the hells worng with him anyways his bro called me and said that he wanted to kill him self and that it was cause of me damn shit i was so mad i had to tell his bro all that had happened then he new it was all just bull and such so his bro going to talk to Scotty for me and well i want to help him but i'm just going to back off in till his bro gets back to me i mean this is all so dumb and the thing he is thinking god damnit it so shity. . . err i'm so mad now.
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Today was boring did nothing but talk to some friend on this little thing, I have to worry on Scotty cause of the things he has been saying to some of are friends on how he wants to kill him self i mean really now no proble is so bad where you would want to go and do something like that he is such a little baby he is worrys to much and crys over little shit oh well i'll make sure to help him with it and stop him from doing all the shit he has been doing he going to be hard to work with at 1st but he will get use to it then thing will start to look better for him.
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Saturday, July 9, 2005

Today i'm pissed off cause last night this thing with Scotty i give him some sleeping pills but he didn't know it and i got him to go lie down on my bed then he fell a sleep and well me and my friend went out to a party and i got a little drunk so i went home and got in to bed at the time i forgot Scotty was even there and well i was drunk to so he was there and all so i was rubbing up on him and hugging him and all maybe i was getting to close but nothing was going on and when he did get up i guess he was scared cause he didn't know what was going on and he was all bitchy asking what happened when nothing happened but anyways i been trying to call him but he is not picking up the phone so he not talking to me now so thats why i am pissed off.
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