Friday, October 7, 2005

A strong psychological and physical craving or compulsive obsession for something... or possibly... someone.

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Otherwise known as an addiction.

Hehe, sounds like love.



Bleh, my mouth is so messed up. Ma top lip is basically unusable because of a cut/blister, and my tongue feels like all the skin has been ripped off of it. Stupid band makes my legs hurt like hell too, I'm like a car without shock absorbers, I can feel every little bump when I walk. GRRRR.

There's some sort of rumor going around about my squad leader and I going to homecoming, more bleh, I don't dance! GRAWWWWR! I hate rumors. I guess it's just 'cuz I have to be around him a lot, but he's so immature. Hahaha, immature coming from the world's biggest little kid.

Snuggles for Nick! *snuggle*
Take care!
Have a day!

Pssst, cool new quizzes! GO TAKE 'EM!! Hahahahaha.

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Monday, October 3, 2005

Kitty's advice for you: Take things one moment, one minute, one day at a time. It helps.

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Dat's what teh Kitty would look like if she was a goddess! I drew a li'l sketch earlier, so I thought I'd draw another one. Hehe, I can't draw you more than that though O__O naugty things... *cough*nipple piercings...
>< Whaaa? I got bored!

Yay! Lotsa Banana talking time today!

Homeworks for me!
Health: Test tomorrow
Adv. Alg.: Alg review (6th); L 3-2,4 WS
Acc. World Hist: 189-193 write notes for, one side of one piece of paper.
Band: Practice Any way you want it for test tomorrow; practice new dance.

Friends were makin' fun of mah name this morning. It got me angries! >< I calmed down after a few minutes though and restrained myself from punching their frail asian bodies, hehe... sorry, not trying to be rasist or anything, they're just not as 'thick' as me, i.e. they just be skin and bones.

I think mah trip to Buffalo will be in two weeks about... I'll be gone for a few days... I will miss teh Banana lots TToTT I loooove you Nick.

I think one of teh computers was dying in Computer Science O__O Somefin' burning, it hurt my nose. My friend wasn't bothered by it too much... but I bet when I go in there tomorrow something will be dead! Speaking of Computer Science... it makes you wanna rip your hair out sometimes. I checked all of the properties and code and I can't find anything wrong and my program still won't work! I might actually have to ask the teacher for help! How embarrasing will that be... I'm not like that stupid freshman in our class that is constantly calling over the teacher to help. Jeesh, if you don't know much about computers go into Integrated Computer Apps. That's why it says 'experience required' next to Computer Science on the course selection sheet.
Bleh, I'll figure it out soon enough, eventhough ma genius friend already has the project done, hopefully she'll help me tomorrow. I probably made a stupid error.

Gimme a hug you smexy person *hug* Yer so awesome-like. I'd only molest yous, you know that! Hehehehe, I always space out when I think about you in class... I hope I don't miss things that are too important!

I wish I could just fall asleep in your arms too. It'd be very nice.

Hahaha, I started spasmatically laughing at lunch today because of the weirdness of a friend, he's cool, a sophmore, named Dave. No, not band Dave, he's a nice Dave. Sorreh if I'm confusing you with all of the people I know who have the same names! I never planned it this way! But yeah, then another one of my friends just started laughing because I was laughing so hard. Hahaha, just to give you an idea, I was laughing so hard it was hard to breathe and I felt like throwing up. Dave's funniness was probably enhanced by the cookies I ate before. Darn, I'm hooked on them now! But they get me so hiiiigh, hahahahaha. I must control myself and stop gettin' 'em! *restrains self* I really don't reccomend anyone giving me cookies or chocolate, they make me insaaaaane and I look like I need a drug test. XP Yesh, I'm one crazy Kitty. I'm the cutest and sexiest Kitty you'll ever find! *pose*
Whoa, gotta lay off of them cookies... *breathe* Ahhh, there we go.

"It's gonna come out in the wash eventually"
i.e. you can fool me or hide something from me, but I'll find out eventually. My Adv. Algebra teacher's weird slightly southernish sayings actually make sense! So, don't lie peoples, 'cuz it's just gonna come back to bite you!

Graaaaaawr, my sunglasses broke today! >< I need those for Band! ACK!! The sun's always shining in my eyes (pssh, lucky bastard sax player) and it huuurt. I had to close one of them almost constantly and close both of them sometimes. Hahaha, my left eye, the one that was almost always closed, when I got back inside the school and had it opened normally again it couldn't see shades of blue. It was craaazy! Of course, there's a reasonable explanation, since I put a lot of pressure on it the cornea probably got messed up. Yer eye's like a camera you know! It's really cool when you look at all the parts and how they work.

We have to learn a new band dance for the senior show this week. Learned the first 4 eighths of it today, and it's really hard to put those in your muscle memory when you only spend 15 minutes on it so we must do it a lot if it shall be included! Haha, the moves are called "Drivin'", "Zorro", "Numa Numa"(we all know you've seen the online video, this move's a hilarious excerpt from it), and "Thriller". Such silleh moves.

Wow, so much thinking today, my brain and body are sore. Good thing I'll have some time to relax and do homework!

Have a nice day everyone!
I love you Banana!

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Saturday, October 1, 2005

G'day

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Ooookay, it's 3 PM on saturday, I went to bed at 12:30 AM on saturday...

HOLY SHIT! MAMA! I'M NOT A WOODEN PUPPET ANYMORE! I'M A REAL CAT!

Hmm... what to talk about... well, I have to go to the Parade of Bands today! It's our host band show, at our home stadium. We have 9 other bands coming to play, then we play last. Hehe, they're just silly warm-up bands for our coolness. But inspection's at 6:30. So I'm gonna have to be there by 6...bleh must try to get homework done, 'cuz tomorrow I get to actually talk to Banana. *sniff* I'm bummed that I can't today...

Well, I guess I'll go do that now.

Hahaha, silly Nick, I dun't think I'm teh goddess of true love. *hug* I looove you Nick!!

Love is such a feeble word to describe it too... love is often misused...
Or maybe we really don't know the true definition. To really love someone through thick and thin can sometimes be difficult ... But if that love is genuine, it takes very little effort - You see, "'that' kind of love comes from deep down inside and 'that' kind of love never dies." I think that works...

Love is patient,
is full of goodness ;
love is no envy,
has no pride,
Love is honest,
does not look for its interest,
does not irritate,
does not think of badness,
it does not have joy in injustice,
but of truth,
it excuses all,
believes all,
hopes all,
support all.
Love will never end.

It is a comforting sense of absolute belonging and acceptance. Or something along those lines...

Take care everyone, especially you Nick, hope your day's alright.

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Friday, September 30, 2005

Ari is awesome!

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Heeeeeey cool people, how goes it?

Guess what?! MyOtaku is being a B and not letting me sign on or use it at all! Hurray!

Ok, so you're probably askin' yerself right now, "then how the hell did you write this lovely post for me to read right now?!" or maybe you just said to yerself, "WTF ARI?!?!". If you said the second one, then shame on you for using letters in place of cuss words you nerd!! Now allow me to explain. This isn't Ari writing the post, it's Nick aka Banana. She just wanted me to write a post to let you guys know it wasn't workin' for her. And that's what i'm doin'! 'Cept i'm bein' a retard and sayin' stupid stuff too.

Ooooo, since i'm the one writing it, i'm gonna say this. I LOVE YOU ARI!!! This is da best site evar, on all of the internet! Cuz she made it! W00T W00T!!

Teehee, and with that i take my leave.

PS: speling misteaks/badd gramor

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Monday, September 26, 2005

Sometimes reality seems like a cage, the physical world just a cell that I can never get out of.

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I'ma go a li'l bit outta order today, 'cuz I feel like it! Not like anyone reads this stuff anyway XP I should probably stop being lazy and start commenting on yer guys' sites...

Stupid kid who sits behind me in English never has a pencil, always asks me for one and I'm just too nice to say no. >< I should get meaner so I won't have to keep loaning out my pencils; it's not like anyone ever returns them.

Nick's gotta go to a thingie for college and stuffums this evenin'. I'ma gonna miss that loveable oaf. I love him very, very much, it's really unimaginable if you haven't ever felt like this; I'd do anything for him. I guess right now I'll just have to catch up on my napping and dream about 'im while he's gone. I hope he has a good time, hehe, I wish I could go with him. I'm a get bored fast 'cuz I have like, nofin' to do... naptime, shower, homework. o__o <-- has a boring, uneventful life without Banana.

Heh... you can say lotsa things you wouldn't normally say if you know someone can't read it while you're typing it. That may seem kinda silly, but you never know how someone's gonna react. I guess the blocks and silly shapes make you feel less vulnerable, but you can still get out what you wanna say.
I remembers, Banana and I played Truth or Dare last night too, 'cept without the dare part. Hahahaha, advanced snuggling, it's too sexy for the intermediate and beginner courses, foolish fools. You cannot handle the advancedness of the advanced snuggling!

Argh, I've had really bad cramps and bloating for the past few days. I feel fat and I hurt. It really sucks; constantly feels like someone's punching me in the stomach, especially when it hits full force and I get the wind knocked out of me @___@ Atleast the bloating seems to be going down, don't feel as squishey anymore.

I hate my life with a deep passion sometimes. I love the most amazing guy ever but I can't be with him. It's like smelling the greatest cookie ever created but you're not able to eat it. RAAWR!

I smell like smoke again, hence my new name, Smokey. I can't help it if I gotta use the litterbox at 10:30 every day! I cannot hold it in! and that's the only bathroom!!

Hahaha, we were talking about fiber in Biology. I should slip some in Nick's drink when I get the chance. EXPLOSIVE DIARHEA!!! *evil cackle*

I gotta get good grates TT___TT Dont' wanna become a hobo. I'll see how I'm doing when interums come out on Friday >< I better not get below a B on anything! That would be a red flag, crisis thing, since I am soooo above average in intelligence. Nick even said so! A C would just be unacceptable!

I technically have a 95% in Biology, but with the way everything is weighted I have a 91%. At this rate I'm going to be doing better in Advanced Algebra, a course for sophmores and juniors, than Biology, a course for freshman and sophmores.

I gotta graduate high school in honors! That is my goal! *pose* That means I gotta get atleast an A- in everything, unless it's AP and crap, then it's a li'l different. I SHALL DO IT! If everything goes how I want, I'll have all AP classes in my senior year, so I can get into a rawkin' good college with a scholarship and then when I'm done with that I'll get a kewl job! Then I'll buy a kickass house in teh country with lotsa cows and li'l kitties and it'll be the most awesome ever!! Yeah... I know I may be aiming a bit too high, but this way I'll atleast get what I want. If you aim for the minimun, that's the maximum you're gonna get, right?! I'd rather not have a normal boring life where I live in an apartment for a few years out of college, get married, have kids, get a divorce, deal with custody issues, reture and live the rest of my life in an old folks home where my kids and grandkids visit me a few times a decade and then I'll die a lonely husk of a person. o___o
And my parents say I don't think about these things...

We didn't go outside to march today 'cuz it was wet and I had to sit infront of the bass drums in the band room. Bass drums are weeeird. Each different pitch made a different part of my body vibrate and when they hit 'em all at the same time my heart skipped a beat... hehehehe, the only other time that happens is when Nick says "I love you" to me ^ ^

It was really rainy today, and as I was walking to my bus at the end of the school day I saw a little froggie sitting against the side of the building. Actually, it wasn't very little at all, about the size of a tennis ball. He looked sick, when I poked 'im his eye just twitched. I picked teh little guy up and brought him to teh forest at the edge of the school. It looked like it was hard for 'im to breathe and he wasn't resisting capture or transport. Someone probably stepped on him, poor little feller. Hopefully he'll be able to eat some bugs and be back to his happy self! I luv frogs, hopefully there'll be frogs at the house I get someday. They go ribbit and hop around!! The kitties better not eat 'em though >.o I hope I never have to disect one... I think I'd barf... they're just so cute, and they don't deserve that kinda stuff!!

My band got an offer for us to go to an Indian's ralley, if they make the playoffs, on Oct. 3rd. I'd get out of school for teh whole day!! It'd be broadcast on national TV too O___O sweeet... I'll tell you if I's gets to go or not!

You know your band is good when... You get offers to play at professional hockey, football, and baseball games (over college bands mind you!)
Your band gets fanmail
You can make a whole audience simultaniously gasp.

That's all I got for today, take care everyone!

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Friday, September 23, 2005

Those who don't know how to weep with their whole heart, don't know how to love or laugh either.

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You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know, dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away.

Hehe, I love ranting.

Last night was scurry, there was lotsa lightning. If you didn't know, Kitty doesn't like lightning. It was alright when Banana was with me, but I got really twitchy when the cable went out. I went to bed at 12, although I couldn't get to sleep at all. There might've been times when I closed my eyes... but my mind wouldn't stop thinking and the lightning wouldn't go away, no matter how many times I asked. I wish I coiuld've told him that I love him... before I had to go that is... that was one of the main reasons I couldn't get to sleep, I felt so distant from him in heart... It stopped around 4 I think, I was able to doze off a few times, still tiredish. I know he was worried, gosh, I felt so bad. I wish I could've given him a hug, just a hug. I wouldn't need anything more... not to say I wouldn't want anything more. I'ma totally gonna molest him someday, ahahahaha.
Man... lightning makes me so spazzy. I was pretty much curled up in the fetal position all night... it was loud and close o__o... I wish Nick could've been there to help, he can always make everything better!! Pffft, Dane's got nothing on you *cookie*.
I looooove you! ^ ^ Yer so seeeexy, and cute, and smart, and funny, and everything!

I lost my planner today... poor thing... But, it was found and returned! I would've been so lost without it! I am one lucky Kitty! Hehe... especially 'cuz I'm loved by the most wonderful person ever!

I really wanna do good in High school... so that I can get a good job and make meself some good monies... and so I could send the Banana presents!! Don't be surprised if there's randomly a box of cookies in yer mail O___O

Morning was boringish, it went by really fast... but then...

BUG SEX?!? Biology is... an interresting class. Hehehe, that kinda makes me think about Nick, he'd get hot off of watching that. He's so kinky, after all, ahahahaha.
My Biology teacher's so sarcastic, he was critisizing the biologists in the movie the whole time.
Ex.

TV: I was just playing with it a little bit there.
Mr. B: Because that's what you're supposed to do with wild animals.

TV: I was vommiting uncontrollably, and had a bad fever, I noticed something was wrong.
Mr. B: 'Well thank you Captain Obvious'

hahaha, then this was just plain funny.

TV:... stabbing her abdomen with his sharp, curved penis.
Kid in class: Hehehe...
Mr. B: What?
Kid: he said penis... hehehe
Mr. B: Ahahahahahhaa.

I got sum extra credits in Algebra today!! ^ ^ Math is always weird with me... it's purdy much either feast or famine for each chapter. Some I don't understand at all and others I get completely, which is why I usually end up with a Bish grade. I'll just try to get extra credit as much as possible in the lessons I understand as a grade cushioner for the bad chapters, who knows, I might be able to pull of an A!!

Algebra makes you sleepy though, I kinda wanted to fall asleep.

Finally started to remember when some of my classes start and end without looking at my planner... stupid schedule... why can't they just go hourly? It'd be a lot easier.

Hahaha, foolin' around with my friend in History.
Ari: MOMMY! I WANT NAPTIME!!
Kelly: o___o
Ari: >< STORY TIME!
Kelly: Hahaha...
Ari: *HUG* O_____O
Kelly: Awww

Mr. Chiorian had a new, kickass holepuncher. I was like, molesting it.

Then we kept on bein' silly on the bus, hahahaha.

Mr. C: That... is the cadillac of hole punchers...
Ari: That's pretty sexy.

Playin' a joint show with Solon today, psssh, but we'll look like, ten times better than them because we swing and march and yell and play. o__o... >___> They cheated though, everyone's gonna like them 'cuz they're playing 'Hey Pachuco'... I think that's how you spell it anyway... we don't play any songs as cool as that, so people are gonna be like, "They're so much better than Hudson!" But they really aren't >< If we played that song we'd be much better than them!!

Band show on Saturday, 6ish or somefin'... eh, I'ma be bored then... oh well, I'll bring lotsa money to get somefin' to eat!

Hehe, enough ranting, take care everyone!
I love you Nick!! *snuggle*

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Thursday, September 22, 2005

The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase; if you pursue happiness you'll never find it.

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still love that quote...

Opiate
I see everything in you
Holding the world in your hands
And the heavens in your eyes
There is no one else
Who could brighten my face more
Who can make the pains of
The day just disappear
Only by talking to you
Knowing that you're there...
Like a disease that no one could cute
Until now
It's almost like
A second chance at life
An opportunity to heal
To be reborn as something different
No longer human
But a being capable of love
Like an angel.

You are my friend, my angel, my addiction, my opiate.
I'd do anything to make you happy.

Sorry, that poem's just random thoughts really, that I put into format.
Unfortunatley, chugging 20 oz. of gatorade appears to upset your stomach somewhat.

Weee, we listened to a short story on CD... I almost fell asleep! O__O The guy's voice was very soothing.

We made poster thingies in health about why smokin' is bad for yous!! *points finger at anyone* DON'T SMOKE!

YES! I'M GETTING A B!!!!! *dance* I'm not a retard!! *sniff* I'm so happy...

Bleh... an hour and a half of marching? No thanks... I was so tired at the end, aftre the trumpets were dismissed, Mr. Zartman told the trombones to run over me and my squad leader because we were walking inside so slow.

Hah, it's a conspiracy... silly Banana. cOnSpIrAcY!!!! Yeh, some people don't like us bein' together or something. Bad things seem to happen to us at bad moments. Like... the right place at the right time... except the wrong place at the wrong time o__o

You know you're dehydrated when you're drinking water and your lips feel furry and slimey.

Hahaha, stewart
I am not a lesbian you brat!
I am not a brat you lesbian!!

I was gonna break out my new icon this weekend, but Nick brought it up, so I guess I'll do it now! My sister decided to watch the Cowboy Bebop movie yesterday, so I got some ideas.
This is pretty much my inspiration:

" It's obvious from her pain and regret that she cares deeply for Vincent, but it's not until Spike directly asks her, "You loved him?" that love ever comes up.

Electra answers that she doesn't know. Apparently, she has never really thought about whether she loves Vincent. Instead, her feelings are instinctive: they can't be questioned or decided, they just are. So even after she describes something that sounds very much like love- how her heart "ached," how she lost herself in feelings that she never knew she possessed- she still doesn't use the word love to describe their relationship. What Electra feels for Vincent can't be reduced to such an open-ended, frequently misused word.

lmost to herself, Electra muses over the possibility that it was she who wanted to be saved, and not her saving Vincent. What she wants to be saved from is up for debate- her life, her pain, her loneliness- but her unmentioned savior is obvious: any resolution, any answer lies in Vincent.

As Julia is to Spike, Electra is to Vincent. She is the one thing in the world, the one person, who can make him feel alive. It is only she who can awaken him from his dream and bring him back to himself: seeing her again in the tower, he suddenly remembers "the one who I loved." As he dies, he tells her, "Being with you was the only time that felt real." Electra feels the same about him; in the end, she was willing to die with him: "Let's go together."

They love each other because they need each other, and they need each other because only by being together can their lives and their own selves feel real."

That's all I got for today, take care everyone.
I love you Nick!

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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