Saturday, June 18, 2005

Please...

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For anyone who still visits....

I thougth everything was fine and the summer was going to be good, but there is a 99% chance that my brother is going back to college over the summer... which would make me very sad, because I'll be alone all day... if I get over that, I'd probably get online more though, just because I'd have absolutely nothing else to do.



This machine will temporarily go into hibernation after the weekend is over, and may be back next week, but it depends on its boredom.



quiz-thing!... yah....


Blue Chii


Chobits - What Color Chii Are You?
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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Friday, June 17, 2005

Why?

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I'm...hmm, alive... or so it seems....

Not much to talk about, addicted to Halo (that is, Halo 2, Halo: CE, and Xbox Live Halo)... also really bored most of the days... nothing to really look forward to. Haven't been in touch with any of my friends really, here or online. Sooooo... just keep hating me and whatnot, I'll be alright.


Grif. Half an idiot, half a smartass. You are the
scape goat for the red team, and Sarge is just
waiting to shoot you. You don't let it get to
you though, you've got to look out for
yourself.


Which Red-VS-Blue Character Are You?
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Hehe, funny quiz, take it, although it's a bit obvious if you watch Red vs Blue.

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

Am I okay? My hands are still burning.

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I won't say a lot of stuff, because I've been gone a long time, and I don't anticipate being here much... 'cause it's summer! And I have duties to fulfill! Like being a hermit!!

Interresting stuff:

Wednesday- My squad leader visited and gave me my music and stuff, he's cooooooool. His name is Dave... or, well, it's David, but after watching Red vs. Blue I have a strong urge to call him Dave. Why he's so cool? I dunno, he has this strange charisma, and he looks kinda like a hermit, but not very hermitish, so it's all cool... AND he's REALLY good at playing the trumpet. Like, REAAAAAALLY good. He's playing with all of these professional bands over the summer, I'm just afraid that I'll screw up really bad yaaaargh... oh well.

Thursday... my brother (and his Xbox!) came home for summer!!! Wewt!

Friday... spent about 7 hours playing KOTOR II, and on this one planet where you're looking for a Jedi Master you find her dead... although her name is Master Vash, so I got very saddish, and if anyone can explain the connection I'll give ya a bunch of cookies!!! Played Halo 2 Co-op with my brother, always fun, mostly because we do really stupid things, and then we fooled around on Midship and just battled each other with stickies. Fuuun! Then we watched Red vs. Blue on his computer. I just love those guys, you can't really hate anyone. Here's my perceptions.

Church- The only guy who's sane... reminds me of Nick, for obvious reasons.
Tex- Very bitchy, like me, exfcept without the evil A.I. Teh coolness.
Grif- Probably the most like me, everyone hates him. Ahahaha.

Anyway, check out RedvsBlue.com to see!! LATER!!!!

"It looks more like a puma..."

- - MEOW

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Tuesday, June 7, 2005

Wind, guide me.

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Gah, it looks just like me right now!
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Alright, today was the last actual academic day of school!!! *confetti* I should be happy, right?!

WRONG!

Although I'll go through my day before I get to that stuff.
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I woke up... felt kinda shitty, but I had to go to school... so I did...

We watched the rest of Finding Nemo today in science, because we have been for the past few days... it is supposed to have something to deal with Oceanography, but I think that's just an excuse, because there's no real connection.
Watched video clips pertaining to slavery and stuff because that's what we're learning about in History and had small discussions. It was really weird... Because that one guy got half of his foot chopped off just because he tried to run away... TT____TT it was saddening... I'm glad I have my feet *hugs feet*.
Study hell...hall...sorry, it's study hall, typo....
Was kinda fun, but I got pulled to talk to the Guidence Consular... which was kinda weird, because I don't like to talk to people. Talked about crap... yay.
Language Arts... we looked at our writing folders, which go back to 1st grade or whatever... and I'm REALLY glad my writing skills have improved since then. I spelled because "bekas" in one of the papers. Then there was a picture I drew in Kindergarten... man, that was priceless, it was SOOOOOOOOO bad. Teacher talked to me, blah blah, he wasn't mad or anything, he just said I was one of the 8th graders who actually realized that "Wow, the grades don't actually matter in Middle School!!" so that was cool, he said his opinion of me didn't change or anything, and I don't have to turn the stuff in because he has no problem giving me a bad grade. YAY!!!
Band... we played Ironman because that's what the marching band is playing at a show this week or something, and it was haaaard... and I wasn't even marching! I would've busted my lip or something if I tried to march and play that song. Weird stuff... tomorrow my squad leader is coming to my house to give me my calendar and music... Mr. Graham said he just picked them out today, and if they don't meet each of their 3 squad members they don't get to be a squad leader. for those who don't know, I'll give you an example of the heirarchy. (pointless, skip over if you feel like it!)

Note: if you are on a position of the heirarchy, you cannot be any other. i.e. a section leader is also a member of a squad, but not the squad leader. the senior section leader is that and the member of the squad, but not a squad leader or section leader. Sometimes it doesn't make sense, but it works!

Senior section leader... (name questionable, I'm not sure what the term is for them...)highest dude/dudete, cool person, organizes practices and junk, fun!! There are usually two of them (the band is a lot of peoples, ya know). In charge of informing section leaders and directors of practices and stuff; so they're really in charge of the whole band, right next to the directors in power. As the name states, only seniors are eligable for this position... and they're in front of everyone else. WOW, dual purpose!
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Section leaders, one for each section of the band (trumpets, saxaphones, tubas, drum line, etc.) Probably about ten of them, don't care to count. Which would mean the Cool people, in charge of the squad leaders of their section and informing them of stuff the senior section leader(s) told them. Depending on size of section, in charge of anywhere from 20-40 people, so that means they have to talk to about 6-12 squad leaders!! Seniors AND juniors eligable for this position!
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Squad leaders, coolish people, in charge of three people, tell them what the section leaders told them... if that makes any sense. Juniors and seniors eligable. Formations practiced in groups of four, so these are the people you move around with, then it gets all pieced together in the big rehersals. (Music is practiced in the band room together, then you work on the formations on the field)
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Members of the squad: Everyone, bottom of the food chain, seniors, juniors, sophmores, and freshmen. Yay! Not much to explain....

Yah, I know that was boring but deal with it...

Blah blah, rest of day was just hangin' out and doing nothing! YAY! I don't really want to go to school tomorrow, because I'd rather mope around the house (for future explained reasons) but I paid $5.50 for the stuff that we're doing and my friends say I have a chance of getting an award!

Awards: Each teacher gives out 2 to 2 students in any of their clases that demonstrated something "special" whatever you wanna call that.... I think I could possibly get one for band, because I so totally rock... wewt! That happens tomorrow in the afternoon.
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Other news...
Waaaa, really sad now that Nick's gone... although I think it's mostly mental... there was this one time a few months ago where I didn't talk to him for a week because of bad timing, and I didn't feel half as distressed as I do right now. Well, this is my reason for moping, and why I don't feel like doing anything. I'll probably be able to get over it eventually, but I'll just try to sit on it for now so I don't feel so bad about it!... *spaz* oooookay, that might not work.... Ugh, it's hard to habitually talk to someone for so long and then have it suddenly stop.

Take care dudes!!!


P.S. I'm probably not going to post for the rest of the week, just because of complications/summer... hmm, other new news... I'm probably going to a lake where my Mom's part of the club that owns it on the weekend. It will be the perfect time to even out my tan, thank god! I have three different tan lines on my arm because of different types of T-shirts that I've worn. There's not-tan, slightly tan, tan, and more tan. I think skin tans so that the paler it is, the faster it tans... exponentially or something, look it up if you can't remember algebra that well... so it should work... oh well, I'll tell you guys some of the results A.S.A.P.

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Monday, June 6, 2005

What sorrowful eyes...

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Waaaaaaaaa!!
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Oookey dokey, let's see what we've got here....

I was sick all day, I woke up with a bad headache... my Mom got mad at me, because she thought I was faking it, and she screamed, and my brain rattled... it wasn't fun. I slept until 10... at which point I couldn't sleep any more, so I played Metal Arms: Glitch in the System... which is very fun, although hard... and I'm playing it on easy TT_____TT I just gotta get used to it I guess....
After watching stand-up, which is great, I went out to mow the lawn... because I didn't for two weeks or something... man, that was tiring. I only did half, and it was so long too, I didn't think I'd get through it without throwing up... because after the headache subsided, I got bad stomach pains... I figure I'll do the other half tomorrow, and then on Wednesday, the last day of school, I'll do it all over again since it's so long the cut is really choppy and it looks bad.
Then I went into the shower, funness, ma hair smells geeeeeewd. *sniff* ooooh yeah... although, the interresting part was when I saw that exfoliating stuff in the bathroom that my Mom and sister use... and I was thinking... "what the hell"... so I used it... damn, that was cool, my face felt so soft after I was done with it... it was f'in' amazing! There was only a little bump from a pimple but everything else was smooth!
This is where the weird part starts... I dunno why, but I arbitrarily thought "hmm, what would happen if I exfoliated my ass?"... so I did... and when they say "smooth as a baby's bottom" they should change it to "smooth as Ari's bottom" XD. If you're looking for the weirdest person on the earth, look no further than here.
I did some sewing, fun fun fun, gotta finish it up... which I'll do later....
Now, I'm here, although, it was a long way to get here, but I won't say why, because I must be mysterious... *strikes gay pose*
erhm....

Other news...
Waaa, I'm gonna be really sad now that Banana-dono is leaving... and by a strange turn of events, including the scheduling of my band camp, I'm probably not going to get to talk to him until the begining/middle of august!! *falls over* my summer's gonna suck balls this year... *shakes fist* you're not very nice God!!

Aaaaand, that's about all... I probably won't be on much during the week either... so...later dudes.

2 days...



P.S. I also put up Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day, otherwise very overplayed, but it's how I feel most of the time, and how I probably will feel for a long time.

Lyrics!! ^ ^

I walk a lonely road,
The only one that I have ever known.
Don't know were it goes,
But it's home to me and I walk alone.

I walk this empty street,
On the Boulevard of broken dreams;
Were the city sleeps,
And I'm the only one and I walk alone.

I walk alone I walk alone
I walk alone and I walk a-

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me.
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating.
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me.
'Till then I'll walk alone.

Ah..ah..

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind.
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone.

Read between the lines;
What's fu'cked up and everything's alright.
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone.

I walk alone I walk alone
I walk alone and I walk a-

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me.
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating.
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me.
'Till then I'll walk alone.

Ah..ah..
I walk alone and I walk a-

I walk this empty street,
On the Boulevard of broken dreams;
Were the city sleeps,
And I'm the only one and I walk a-

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me.
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating.
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me.
'Till then I'll walk alone.

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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Sunday, June 5, 2005

Don't worry, you'll be okay.

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Aww, look, Nick is sad *pat, pat*
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Yesterday was cold... I was sad, because it was nice in the morning.
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Got high on half a pound of chocolate yesterday... now I have a hangover... it makes me really sleepy but I can't go to sleep. Oh well, I guess I deserved it. Need...nap... noooow...
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My brother might be coming home this summer from college! Which would make me very happy! He's much more of a friend than a broter, more of a friend than any of my actual friends here anyway... I would also get to play his Xbox excessively, fun!!! And, more good news, my Mom might be getting cable, internet connection that is. FUNNESS!!!... *falls over* okay, that was unexpected....
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Anyway, that's all I really have to say, except school is over on Wednesday!! ... and yet, I'm so stressed out I'm getting sick again... gah.

Well, later peoples!
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Got this from Breakbeat's site, thought it was cool the way they used animals instead of stupid questions.

V V Formatting issues, sorry ^ ^ V V

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!

You would be forced to break up with someone who was arrogant, acting like the dictator of your life.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Kinda got bored... I haven't taken any quizzes in awhile anyway.

For the most part, true.

Your Expression Number is 7

Very intelligent, you are usually thinking, introspecting, or analyzing. You have a good mind, and you are especially good at finding out the truth. Very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You tend to obsess over wisdom and hidden truths. You are likely to become a authority on any subject you undertake. Operating on a different wavelength, most people don't know you that well. Very logical and rational, at times you tend to lack emotion. So much so, that you often have times coping with emotional situations. You are not very adaptable - you may tend to be overly critical at times.

What's Your Expression Number?

True...

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts