Wednesday, October 20, 2004

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Mood: I is sorry everyone, please forgive me... *grovel*

Yes, I have been feeling like a very bad person lately. I not been able to get to lots of people's sites with all of my homework and just my laziness.

I also seem to be getting C's or lower on all of my tests for the past week or so. It's so stressful. I'm doing my best, but it's never good enough for anyone, especially in the Language Arts area. I really try to write well, but I'm not very good at content and connecting meanings and stuff like that. *sigh* I guess it's what I rightfully deserve though, being without any talents and all.

The thing that I am really mad about though, is the fact that I was running to class as fast as I could with my leg. I saw S-chan going the other way, talking to Jen. I was no more than half a second late after the bell, and I could tell Mr. Carr took a point off of my grade because of that. S-chan (I really mean no offence) came to class ten seconds late and Mr. Carr paid no attention what-so-ever. I bet it's just the fact that he thinks that competent people are never late to class without a good reason.

Grrr... I have physical ailments and don't complain about them to anyone and this is all I get! A D IN LANGUAGE ARTS?!?!

I want to kill someone so bad right now....

The whole world is in a conspiracy against me....

Maybe if I overdose on my daily vitamins that'll be enough to kill me....

My days are just the same cycle over and over, the day starts out alright, but then I come home feeling like crap and my family doesn't make it any better.

It is very dark and cold now, I don't think my heater is working, or atleast not in my room. The lightbulb of my lamp burned out and I can't see anything.

I think I'm going to stop wasting your time now, so I hope you all have a good day.

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Tuesday, October 19, 2004

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Mood: Paaaaaaain...

Well, you could say that my mood is two different things. I feel pain, and also want pain and destruction. I shall tell you about that later, because today is... ANOTHER LONG AND USELESS POST ABOUT MY BORING LIFE!!!

Yesterday... all I ate was 7 crackers, a vitamin, about 4 grapes (though most were thrown at me... -_-'). Yes, I was very tired because I did not have enough calories. I ate more today though!!

My leg also went numb... but it was the numbest kind of numb imagionable. I tried to stand up but almost fell down. IT WAS SO COOL! I found out it was knumb when I hit it with my backpack and it didn't hurt!! When I started to move it around the blood started circulating again though... *pouts* oh well.

Today, yadda yadda, same thing. Sorry for wasting your time. Science, we go on trip to observatory tomorrow, yay, stars. History, we saw movie... but other than that, same old thing. Study hall... I studdied... L.A. we watched Hercules... gosh, it's so wrong from the myth it's not even funny. We have to write an essay (or is it two? I can't remember) on Friday... it's not gonna be pretty... *sigh* I'll do my best though.

Lalala... let's see... Health! Oh yeah! That was a bunch of fun! We went to the gym for class, there Mr. Johnson has set up an 'obstacle coarse' for us. The police man brought his goggles, and we had to be spun around ten times and then try to do the tasks that were appointed to us. Let me see if I can remember...

First, we had to bend down, without crawling, and touch four lime-green cones. Then, we had to take two frisbees sitting on another cone and try to get them into a basket. After that we had to take a tennis ball off of the ground and put it on a tee, without touching to see where it was. We then had to take a basketball sitting on the ground and attempt to shoot it in the basket. The last thing we had to do was fix everything for the next person on our ways back, i.e. fetch the basketball and put it back where it was, place the tennis ball back on the ground, find the frisbees and sit them back on the cone, and run back to our starting positions. It was so awesome. The first time we got the Night vision goggles, which had the highest intensity .17-.27 blood alcohol level and you see everything really dark. The second time we got the high intensity that wasn't night vision. IT WAS SO COOL!!! It actually made me want to become an alcoholic, just because I kept on tripping over stuff and falling down, so cool. ^ ^

At the end we played a 3 on 3 basketball game with the goggles on. I watched, though it was hilarious needless to say.

...that's basically my day, nothing really special, except for my leg and my giant-mosquito-bite-that-has-now-turned-into-a-giant-pimple... *growls*

My right leg was freaky all day, I think it was from football game yesterday, it hurts really bad. I hope it's better by tomorrow so we can win the superbowl, I'm good for defence and the only girl on our team.

My mosquito bite... is now a pimple... and it's gigantic... waa, I knew it was going to happen, but I don't wash my face twice a day for nothing. It's genetic in my family, so it was just a matter of time. I think I'm going to go see my dermatologist soon and ask her about it...

That's all on my life today, I hope you all have a nice day!! *huuug*

Piggy-chan

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Monday, October 18, 2004

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Mood: How can you NOT smile when looking at that?!

Sorry, I need to kindof cheer myself up a litle bit today. It has been... weirdish... very weirdish.... Wait, I'll first tell you about yesterday though.

I had pizza... it was yummy... I went to the newly-renevated downtown area, and my god, it's HUGE! They added so many buildings! I never went there before!!

They're not completely done because they're still growing grass and stuff, but it's still awesome, except for the fact they have WAY too many clothing stores. I think it's four or five... can't remember. I would have liked it if they added an EB Games!!! ^________^

Oh, oops, back to yesterday... I ate pizza... yeah, I already said that, sorry. After the pizza, we went bowling... it was kindof fun, my name was 'Faye Faye', you know, automatic bowling scoring computers-thingies?

I got third in the first game with 104 points, first in the second game with 118 points, and third again in the last game with 72 points... *twitch*. I was really pissed the first and last game because my Mom beat me those games. I get really mad when my Mom beats me at stuff because she always gloats and it can sometimes make one want to smash said face in. (Sorry if you didn't understand that... ehehe) I was kindof sucky in the first game because I was warming up, did good in the second game because I was all hyped up like 'I'M GONNA WIN!' and I came in almost last in the third game because the bowling ball that I had weighed way too much. I couldn't find a lighter one that fit my fingers so I had to use it. Size 11 I think it was... My nails kept on chipping in the last game, not that I'm like 'OMG! I JUST BROKE A NAIL!!!' but my nails make my fingers look longer, they usually look short and stubby, and it took me 2 months to grow them out.

This ISN'T bumper-bowling either people, it's the real thing.

Yeah... and then we came home and watched Spirited Away! We also had Pad-Thai, really good Thai food. Yummy Lo Mein noodles with shrimp... *drooling*

... Yeah, that's all that really happened... so, TODAY!

Let's see, I brought my CD player to school today, yay! Although I need to get one of those adapters so that you can put two headphones in the CD player so Susan can listen too. It is torture. I also could've sworn that a little hobbit, while I was listening to my music, say 'you guys are losers!'

Wait... just wait 'till I get my hands on that little hobbit... I will rip his limbs off 'till he's just a bloody stump of a torso....

^ Still tying to deal with my wrath problem.

Hmm, yeah, so that worked out like that. I got my stuff at my locker and went to Jen-Jen/Jen-chan's (MikoKagome04) locker, SHE GAVE ME CHOCOLATE!! *glomp* Well, they're actually these chocolate teddy bears... err, I can't remember what you call them, but I was having fun because I'd pull one out of the bag and it's leg would be cut off already and I'd be like, "AHHH! HIS LEG WAS AMPUTATED!" Yadda yadda, and all that good stuff inbetween. ^ ^

I got a 12/18 on my science paragraph. AHAHAHA! I was really happy because that was the first thing in any science class that I have ever failed in my life. Trust me, I can remember, I was feeling on-top-of-the-world good.

History was fun, it didn't go by that slow, which is always good. And, I got to say something really stupid! We were talking about a movie we are going to see tomorrow. She asked us, 'what does it mean to be a 'free spirit' is... ehehe... It's right there... *points down* at the bottom of my post, because that's where I put the cool quotes that I hear in the past 24 hours.

Gym... football... not usually my best sport... but I'm surprisingly good at touch-football. Now, also remember that we're playing football at *ding ding, 9:00* IN THE MORNING! It was crappily cold, but we managed to win today's game 18-10 (different scoring system than regular football) and we're going on to the 'SuperBowl' on Wednesday. I don't know exactly how that's gonna work, but I'm gonna see if I can go out and buy pocket-warmers for our team ^ ^ so we don't freeze to death.

Oh, and if you don't know what a pocket-warmer is, it's like a little heater that uses the power of oxidizing iron and gets pretty hot. As the name states, you put it in your pocket.

Hmm... oh, and since it was crappily-cold, everyone was pretty much freaking out. It got very hard to run about 20 minutes in. From then on the game was mostly short burts of energy when needed and conserving energy and body heat when you don't. If you haven't tried to play football when it's >40 degrees outside (I do not know the exact temperature, but it's 42 right now and it was much colder then), I don't suggest you try. My throat felt like it was growing icicles on it and it burned every time I inhaled. Oh, and there were a few minor injuries too, one of them happening to me. You see, in the morning, dew is still on the grass, and there is a lot of slipping and falling. I was running and threw the ball to Straka (teammate/coach), low and behold, about one second after I throw the ball I'm trying to stop running (to retain energy) and I see the team retard (other team, not mine) running straight at me. I don't even know if that loser tried to slow down. The force of the impact caused me to lose my balence and I skidded diagonally and face/front side. I literally went crazy at that point, I believe I said something like 'HEY! IT'S CALLED TOUCH FOOTBALL! WATCH WHERE YOU'RE GOING YOU FAG! REF! THIS ISN'T RUGBY!!' Yup... I get pretty angry at times such as that... I also had a limp in my right leg 'cause of this, I think it was aboud 6th period when it went away. The majority of my body-weight (which is a whooooole lot) fell on my right leg when I was 'accidentally' pushed. A big part of the game is running, you need to tag people so they can't score, more yadda yadda.

One more thing, at one point in my game, Jack (ref-man-dude) TOUCHED MY EARS!! This was also a short while after my injury, so I was still pissed. He was... erhm... 'concerned' because I was holding my ears and down on the ground (trying to preserve body heat. Did you know 99% of your body heat is lost through your ears?) ... Ari does not like it when people touch her ears... needless to say, it wasn't pretty. Thankfully, the ref didn't call anything against me or the team, and let us continue our playing.

Did I also mention I'm the only girl on our team? We were playing 4-4, Jen (not like she was usefull anyway...) had to sit out. She stayed there the whole time because we didn't want to screw around and lose. Yeah, so, I was being double/tripple-teamed at times (it's Co-ed, has to touch a girl and boy before it's a goal, except for an interseption) and when that happens it is extremely hard to get open. I used up a lot of energy just trying to maneuver so I was able to get the ball thrown to me.

Woah, that's a lotta football talk, sorry. I shall try to go a bit faster for the rest of the day.

L.A.... boring... blah, like it always is. I'll just leave it at that for now because I can't remember what happened anyway...

Wait! I do remember!... the whole TIE-A TIE-A FT (a format)paragraph... he said that 'it was a good start'... I was happy then about that, but now that I really think about it it sucks. He said I put in the correct information, but not enough of it at places, meaning I was missing a few words. And then I have this BIG problem with awkward sentences that people can never seem to understand... I stink at this class, I think I'm either getting a C or D in it... oh well, my Mom's gonna give me the 'you're not gonna get a scholarship with grades like that' talk and will probably hound me until the end of the semester, probably banning me from the computer unless I need to type something too... Oh well, yatta yatta, thats how life goes.

Band, fun, I think I got an A or A+ on my band test. It's the only class I'm actually doing good in... oh, and Mr. Graham said something really funny when he got back from getting lunch (and newspapers) for the band teachers today.

Lunch... dunno why... but I felt really sad... and Jess was acting like a moron. XD Yatta yatta.

Health was fun! This officer dude came to class today! He showed us his 'weapons' and stuff and movie!! ^__^ Personally, I think that the Taser and the ASP. The dude didn't have the taser yet, but it's one of those awesome thingies that is like a rod that extends when you pull a lever with two little fang-like hooks at the end. They hook on your skin, and when you pull the lever again it shocks the person with... 50,000 VOLTS!! HAHAHAHA! I FEEL SORRY FOR THAT GUY!!! (sorry, not trying to be sexist) The ASP is a kind-of baton and when you 'whip-it' (don't know how to explain it)and push a button... it extends into a... 3 FT SOLID STEEL ROD! DAMN! I WANT ONE OF THOES!!! Then, when you hit it on the ground really hard it closes.

The bad thing, the duders says that to carry his weapons (except the guns, which he carried a 9mm pistol and/or (depending) a 45 calibur handgun), he had to have them used on him... ouch, he said that the mace, which was 10-12% mace (the little ones that you can buy at the store are only 3-4%) burned for about three hours. When you take a shower, he said it makes it start to burn again for up to 48 hours after you got it used on you, although he was told that so he didn't. Also, if you sweat after it's used on you, it'll 'burn like hell'. Meep, also, when he is able to get a Taser, he's gonna have to have that used on him too... I wish him luck. Me wouldn't want 50,000 volts. That level of electricity causes extreme elextrical impulses to your muscles (your brain gives electrical impulses to different parts of your body and such, telling them what to do, that's how you move and stuff! ^ ^) and after the electricity runs for... 7 SECONDS... you 'fall to the ground like a rock'.

Oooo! And Mr. Officer-man is also going to be here tomorrow! He's going to bring his alcohol-symulator glasses!! OMG! I CAN'T WAIT!!! That's gonna be so awesome!!! Basically, they're goggles that you put on your face that displace things so you end up seeing it the way a hammered person sees it. He also says that he has 6 of them!! So we're meeting at the Auditorium tomorrow and we're gonna see what happens when you put 6 drunk people on a stage and tell them to go fetch a ball! (I made the last part up... though that would be pretty cool) I'll be able to give you more info tomorrow!

Geometry... same old, same old.... blah, gots some homework tonight, hopefully me does that soon.

Okay, very sorry for this painfully long post!! ^ ^ I wasn't intending it, really!! I shall now post today's quotes, so I hope everyone has a nice day!! *huggggg*

"Well, that means that she's happy and has her own mind and is like 'I love you guys!'" -- Myself

Oh, and this is for J-chan (she better see this...)



"Yeah, and I got two papers... OH MY GOD! THERE'S THREE OF THEM!!" --Mr. Graham

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Sunday, October 17, 2004

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Mood: Frustrated

Yes, I is very frustrated, pardon my bad grammar. My printer still won't work and I need to print my health essay or I'm going to diiiiiiiiiiiie. I think I have enough batteries for my CD player 'till the end of this semester though...

Let me thinks of what I still has to do... Finish History reading of Salem Witchcraft trials and type that up, Notecards for L.A., Health essay, and Geometry homework. That should take me a good two hours combined.

Oh, but now, more 'great' news. I have to go out at 3 today to buy clothes, then go bowling with my Mom's boyfriend *shudder*, and then when we come back he's staying for dinner. We're probably going to be back at 8... BAH I TELL YOU! BAH! I must try to get this all done in the morning, hopefully I won't screw anything up... Have a nice day everyone!

"Santa Panda!" --J-chan

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Saturday, October 16, 2004

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Mood: itchy

Grrr, it seems that a few spiders visited me last night. I have these huge itchy hives on my legs now *scratch scratch* Waaa.

Ahem, on other matters, my computer is being very fickle and it's not letting me comment. I am very mad at it. Yes, I have visited lots of people's websites these past few days but it just doesn't like me.

And here's a completely random question that I feel like posting. I have already asked a few people, but I feel that I shouldn't exclude anyone.

If you could have one wish, and could do anything you want with it, what would it be?

Me? Well, I... want to be Santa Clause! ^ ^ Yes, a little bit strange, but true. I want to be able to give people whatever their heart's greatest desire is on Christmas, and give people presents and stuff!!

... hehehe, so, I'll just stop boring you guys now, have a nice day everyone!!

"You see, the more people there are in the world, the more insignificant you are!" --Myself

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Friday, October 15, 2004

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Mood: If I told you, then I'd have to kill you.

God, today sucked so bad it wasn't even funny. I had a headache for a few hours because the incredibly avaracious 7th graders on our bus WOULD NOT SHUT UP! They were singing... and it basically sounds the same as if you take a chipmunk and veeeeeeery slowly run it over with a truck. Then, the worst part is, the bus driver actually encourages them, either she is deaft or she does not know what good music is. After that, a really stupid little hobbit asked me 'would you like ice for that buuuuurn?' I really want to just kill them as slowly and painfully as possible right now, like eternal bleeding and gouging their eyes and vocal chords out.

I really have a lot of wrath....

I got 10/15 on my History quiz (how I don't know), 15/20 on my L.A. test and a C+ on my Geometry test. Keep in mind that if my overall grade has to be higher than that of a C or else I'm kicked back to Algebra OR I have to retake Geometry next year.

My life really sucks, especially because my Mom's going through this 'boyfriend' phase. Her boyfriend's moving away to Philidelphia or something or other like that, and she's planning on flying out to see him every weekend or something. She really is selfish I must say, I guess dinner's going to be off for a loooong time in a few weeks....

Boyfriends are totally useless, I'm not saying this out of expirience, but it's really just a waste of time. Love is so stupid.

I think I need to get anger management classes and find the nearest homeless shelter because I'm gonna be there soon....

I should just go off and die somewhere like that little hobbit said I should.... So many bad things are happening, so many....

I hope you all have many nice days filled with happiness and much joy.

"The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

I wish I had nice eyes....

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Thursday, October 14, 2004

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Mood: dum dee dee dum....

Yes, today was a strange day indeed. I'll just catch you guys up a bit 'cause it was definitally bitter-sweet. Fun day for the most part, I started writing a story, maybe I'll put the introduction up on here when I'm finished with it so you guys can tell me what you like about it. Mr. Carr actually wasn't evil today, it's a miracle.

Lunch was... er... weird, I won't go into detail with that. The bus ride home was veeeeery fun too, S-chan and I talked about how we both hate having our knees touched and like when people touch our hair and stuff. Wee, it was definitally interresting, so I shall leave you all with this question.

Do you have any phobias about people touching a certain part of your body?

Now, onto today's quotes!! Have a good day everyone!

"What happened when the peanut went in the Subway? He got assaulted!" -- Mr. Graham.

"What happened when the peanut went in the Subway? He got molested!" --S-chan

"How do you molest a peanut?" --S-chan, again.

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Wednesday, October 13, 2004

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Mood: ehehehe....

Yeah... well, I'm really sorry I've been acting so crappy lately, but it's how I've been feeling. My brain hurts, and the headache I had last night is starting to come back... nooooooo.... I really need help of some way, shape, or form to relieve stress without making me get drunk or stoned either....

I was a little bit happy at the beginning of the day, but as everyday, things just get worse.

Oh, and I was also thinking about how whenever teachers talk about me, if they ever do, it's always negative. I feel so loved... <-- sarcasm.

Yup, I almost started to cry in Language Arts class because I did something wrong and the fact that my answers are never good. I really have bad hormones or something because I'm starting to get really emotional for not very important reasons. I need to become more stoic sometime in the future or else all of my friends are going to hate me soon. I'm too impulsive and I let my emotions run my brain too much, although I'm starting to find a backdoor where I can use my logic, hopefully I'll get that worked out soon.

I guess I will try to keep my Red Panda mentality and forget about the past the best I can from now on. I hope you all have a nice day, please pardon all of my useless rambling. ^_____________^

"Io is a Jupiter's moon!" --S-chan

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